☆Stelle☆

I can't believe I acctually did it! I will be splitting this post onto sections and titling them in red because this is going to be a long one.

My Void Journey + Failures

I've known about the void state for a long time now, since Moza Morph's meditation (June 1st) but I didn't really understand it and keep procastinatinf on it until recently when I joined LOA tumblr. I binged a lot of posts and started to understand what it really was and I found a method I really liked (play alpha waves to enter alpha state and the affirm until you enter). I reached out to some people who entered successfully and got a lot of advice and I even started feeling some symptoms. However, in this journey, I ruined my sleep schedule because I would be doing this at night and then, when I was attempting the void state and was super close, I got extremely exhausted to the point where I couldn't continue affirming. I realized that I needed to fix my sleep schedule first before trying again because I was just too tired. So I just decided to take a break and unfortunately fell back into my procrastination cycle 🙃 I decided to take a break to fix my sleep schedule but I would just stay up late on tumblr or watching anime and keep on pushing back entering the void state.

What Motivated Me To Get In

So multiple things happened at the same time to motivate me. My life situation took a very negative turn and I felt very trapped and then I read these 2 posts on tumblr that just kind of gave me a wake up call. The posts:

I kept procrastinating on the void state, making excuses and goofing off, except this is my life that I'm playing with and I just needed to stop all the bs and just enter the void state. I highly suggest everyone procastinating reads these two posts.

How I Entered the Void State

So the way I entered the void state was acctually really surprising because I didn't really mean to lol. As I mentioned, my sleep schedule was so trash and I needed to fix that first. Under a sleep mediation video, someone recommended this video for mind awake body asleep binaural beats that they said helped them sleep and give them really good dreams:

I decided to listen to it and was laying starfish position and just affirming "I am the void" over and over. My intention was to fall asleep while doing the lullaby method for void state so that when I fixed my sleep schedule, I would enter the void state easily. However, in like 25 minutes, I realized I was in sleep paralysis. I had been feeling symptoms and twitches but i just kept firm and just kept affirming until I was fully in sleep paralysis. Even after sleep paralysis, I just kept affirming "i am the void" and then I started getting the symptoms for the void (being pulled up and then dropping) and then I ended up entering the void!

My Thoughts on My Method

I didn't really pay attention to what the beats were for, like I just saw the word asleep and ran with it but I realize now that it's a video to induce sleep paralysis. As someone who's wasted many nights trying to induce sleep paralysis before when sleep paralysis was the trend, I highly recommend this to anyone who's trying to do it. I've tried plenty of methods that all failed but this did the trick. I highly recommend this post if you want to learn about how sleep paralysis makes manifesting easy.

Once you enter sleep paralysis, entering the void state is a piece of cake!

What I Manifested

I had a whole void list that I just affirmed to come true. I'm not going to share everything because im not trying to write an essay but I got my desired face (I always thought it was kinda creepy how people wanted to look like other people so I didn't really have any ideas on what I wanted to look like but my subconscious mind pulled through and I look so pretty and stared at myself for like a good 20 minutes lol), desired body and height, hairless body (no more shaving!!!!), clear skin, already been moved out of my abusive household (i basically revised my past because i woke up in an apartment that I've been living in for a while now even though i used to be stuck in my abusive household where my parents wouldnt even let me leave unless it was for school or work), never having to interact with my parents again, graduated college already (i hated school because i just dislike studying for tests and annoying group projects and my parents forced me to major in something i hated and even after 2 and a half years in it, i still hate the major so much but now ive already graduated last summer), and work full time in my desired job (so the reason i didn't manifest studying in college with a different major is because i worked an internship and fell in love with the job and the company BUT i would need a degree in the major to move up from an internship to a full time job but now, the story has changed that I graduated with my degree and have been a full time employee for a while now 😄).

I'm Going to Immediately Fix Your Self Concept for the Void

Self concept about the void was never an issue for me. For a very little bit, i used to have a pretty trash self concept on the void until I really thought about it and fixed it pretty easily and never really doubted the void again. So how did I do it? Well first, think about all these success stories on tumblr (@voidsuccess compiled a lot of them). Do you really think every single one of them is lying? Okay, maybe all 100+ stories are lying. Then go onto r/nevillegoddard. We all know how close minded they can be since they have a lot of limiting beliefs as to what is possible or not. Well even they have a bunch of void successes. Maybe all of those are lies too? Because they are still a LOA forum, right? Forget LOA. Go over to the shifting community and go read their void success stories on any forums. They have so many and a lot of barely know who Neville is. Granted they use the void to shift rather than manifest although if you think about it, they're just manifesting that they shift. You don't believe any of them either? Okay forget them. Go to meditation forums and read about deep meditative states and how they've entered the void (they usually don't call it the void though although you can tell it's the void from how they describe it and the symptoms prior). I've even seen a few people go into the void on some Buddhist forums when talking about meditating. So just think to yourself, is everyone on loa tumblr, r/nevillegoddard, shifting forums, meditation forums, and even Buddhist forums lying about getting into the void? Because statistically speaking, there's a very very low chance of that.

"OKAY OKAY I BELIEVE IT NOW. THE VOID IS REAL BUT I DONT THINK IT CAN MANIFEST ANYTHING I WANT"

Again if you really believe every single success story on loa forums and shifting forums are lies even though the chance of that happening is statistically really low, then just prove it to yourself. Like you know the void is real right? Just get into it and find out for yourself. Even if everything is fake, you'll atleast have been meditating which is super beneficial in general.

I hope this portion of my post really puts it into perspective how dumb it is to be doubting the void and helped you guys fix your self concept. And if it didn't, guess what? Self concept really isn't that important. Do you think those people on the meditation or the Buddhist forums had a good self concept? No lol, they just meditated and got in. So don't fret if you somehow still have doubts and just enter the void.

Another Method

So I just wanted to share my original plan to get into the void state. I discovered this meditation that instantly put me into the alpha state:

It is super relaxing and just ignore her once she tries to bring you out alpha state and just affirm for the void. I did this and I entered the alpha state but then I was just so exhausted (as I mentioned before) so I just followed her out of the alpha state and decided to enter the void state through this meditation after fixing my sleep schedule and yk how the rest of that story goes lol. But yeah, if you don't want to enter through sleep paralysis, I highly suggest this.

I'll also attach the alpha waves success stories if you guys want to understand the alpha state method more:

Final Thoughts

I really didn't want this to be this long 😭 but I really wanted to share almost everything in this post. I'm still processing everything (entering the void, the void itself, everything I've manifested esp since i just entered last night) but i wanted to write this post literally for this last part, which is thanking and shouting out the blogs who taught and helped me a lot!

@itsravenbitch @cleostoohot @prettymindset111 @lavender--fairy @voidsuccess

(warning??: i'm yapping and venting and depressed.. and my english isn't all that good)

it has genuinely been eating me alive the fact that I haven't shifted yet, it just hurts, I feel so miserable here, in this reality, not my overall life here is bad but I just hate it. I despite every second I spend in this place that I don't want to be in, in a life that I don't want, in a country that I don't want to be in, with people I don't even wanna be with. It's draining, I hate it, it makes me cry, it makes me want to crawl out of my skin because it feels like it isn't even mine. I don't want it.

Every single failed attempt makes me more and more depressed. More than I already am. I don't have goals, I don't have a purpose I barely even want to live. Shifting is the only thing keeping me from actively giving up on overall living, it's my only hope and only thing I want in life, only thing that makes me want to be alive.

The hope that it is all real, and that this isn't my life and that I'm not stuck here but it genuinely feels like it. I feel alone, estranged and out of place, I feel different and not in a good.

I feel jealous of every shifter that has already shifted, that has escaped and left for good while I'm here. Has done the thing that I desperately want and need, and I'm just here. After years, 7 years.

I've tried everything and it is not even an exaggeration I have tried everything that I could've. I got into LOA, tried not gaf, tried more methods than I can remember, tries to change my mindset, be confident in myself, focus on me and I'm still here and I feel like a loser because everybody is doing it besides me.

"Just be patient, even if it takes years it'll come."

IT HAS BEEN YEARS AND NOT A FUCKING THING HAS CHANGED, IT HURTS IT FUCKING HURTS because I don't have years I don't want years, I want the days it took for that other shifter, I want the week the other had before shifting I WANT THE FIRST TRY THAT THE OTHERS SHIFTERS GET AND I DON'T

Please reblog with info that can help or to spread to more experienced shifters!