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Billie is the one that arrives first. It hadn't taken her long to go home, shower and get ready, it had been nice to make an effort for once. She’d left her long dark hair down in waves, applied some makeup and had pulled on a hair of heeled boots to go with her tight fitting jeans and a black one-shouldered bodysuit. She made her way to the bar, ordering her and Santos their first round of drinks - both preferring vodka, soda water and lime - before casting her eye around the bar. It had been a lucky find a few months ago, when Trinity, Princess and her had gone out on a rare day off together.
“This seat taken?” A voice came from beside her.
Billie blinked, she had still been too busy looking around the bar to see who had approached her. He was handsome, tall, hair cropped short, piercing green eyes which were focused on her own as he stood behind the seat next to her, one hand braced on the back of it as the other held onto a bottle of beer.
“Not for now.” She replied politely, watching as he pulled out the stool and effortlessly slid onto it, turning his body towards her.
“I’m Nate.”
“Billie.”
“Billie. That’s pretty. Is it short for something?” Nate asks after taking a drink from the bottle.
“Nope, my mom just really wanted a boy.” Billie replies, only half joking but smiling as he chuckles.
“Well, Billie. Are you waiting for company? Or would you like some?”
As if on cue, Trinity walks through the door at that very second, the women make eye contact and it's almost as if they have a whole conversation with that one look. She sees Santos look at Nate, next to her, too close to just be a stranger at the bar and narrows her eyes, trying to decipher if she needed to come over and interrupt. But when she glances back at Billie, sees her relaxed posture, drinks in front of her, Trinity obviously decides she doesn't need to run interference and instead motions to a table near the window that had just been cleared.
Billie slips off of the seat, and starts grabbing the drinks she had ordered and had opened a tab for.
“My friend just got here. Thanks for the offer though, enjoy your night.”
“Wait-” Nate stops her, his hand coming to rest on her forearm to stop her walking away from him. “How about you take my number? We could maybe meet up later?”
Billie’s eyes drop down to where his hand is still resting on her arm. Not aggressive, not possessive, just resting there. She looks up at him, he’s almost annoyingly attractive with his kind eyes and easy smile. For a split second she debated it, feeling the heat of temptation. Under different circumstances, she would’ve said yes to him, taken his number, text him at the end of her night and gone home with him. Before Jack, and whatever the fuck they had had, it wasnt unusual for her to indulge in a one night stand. She liked sex, liked uncomplicated sex even better.
But even as she stood there, the image of Jack and Mohan kissing burned into her retinas for what she felt like would be forever, she couldn’t take this man up on his offer.
She looks at Santos, who Billie can tell is fully pretending to not watch them whilst obviously watching them. Then looks back to the man in front of her. “Nice meeting you, Nate.”
She walks past him, hearing his goodbye following her but doesn't look back. Honestly, she doesn't trust herself too. Once she reaches the table that Trinity chose, she places down the drinks on the table and takes the seat opposite the Doctor.
“Did you just willingly turn down hot bar guy?” The brunette asks her, already reaching for her tall glass and sipping it.
Billie rolls her eyes at the other woman, then distracts her by asking about her shift. They hadn't had many cases that day that overlapped, so they chatted about work, patients, relaxing together after yet another shift.
“So, what’s going on with you and Dr. Abbot?” Santos eventually questions her, leaning her chin on her hand, elbow resting on the table between her. “Things seem….different between you guys.”
She’s glad she had just finished her drink, nothing but ice left in her glass, the buzz of the vodka already in her veins, helping her hide the flinch. That's definitely not a topic she wants to talk about tonight, and thankfully she knows what will derail the conversation.
“You want to talk about what’s going on with you and Garcia?” Billie returns, tilting her head to one side.
“Okay.” The word is drawn out, Trinity starts standing. “Another round?”
She laughs, liking that she was able to get the woman who was normally like a dog with a bone to evade something. Billie watches her walk to the bar, her eyes meeting Nate’s as she does so, he’s moved back to his group of friends now, laughing with them. Nice guy. Wrong night.
Somewhere in between drinks 4 and 5 - one of them thinks it's a smart idea to get tequila shots to compliment the vodka. Billie knows as soon as she swallows it that it's definitely not a smart idea, and thanks the rota gods she’s not scheduled to work for another couple of days, she might have recovered from the hangover she knows she’ll have in the morning by then. Eventually the feel of the bar changes too as it gets late, the music louder but the lights dimmer. Her and Trinity laugh, gossip, criticize in a way they rarely get the chance to do. It's fun, cathartic. Their conversation takes a turn at one point, and Billie finds herself confiding in Dr. Santos in a way she didn’t know she needed. Explains to her about her mom, the debt, her guilt in not being able to help and the pressure she feels from her mother to fix it all like she has in the past.
“How much?” Santos asks, watching her carefully from across the table. Not judging, just watching.
Billies pause is obviously too long to provide any comfort, and she winces when the other woman says her name, prompting her. “ A lot.”
“How much is a lot?”
When Billie replies with a number, she watches as Trinity nearly chokes on her drink, coughing out. “Jesus fucking christ.”
Neither woman talks for a second, letting Billie’s confession settle between them.
“Do you have it?”
Again, Billie hesitates, “Some of it. Not all of it.” She admits, the same way she had done to Robby. But this time she decides to acknowledge what had been going round in a loop in her head since her phone call with her mom, admitting. “But I can get it.”
Trinity scoffs, not believing her. “How? By robbing a fucking bank?”
“No. By stripping.” She replies dryly. Billie brings her glass up to her lips, takes a sip as she watches Trinity who has paused, obviously unsure if she's joking or not. “I used to dance. It’s how I paid for nursing school, and put food on the table. It was easy, I didn’t need to work 3 jobs to support us, I could balance it with classes. Once I graduated I didn't need to do it as much, but I haven't been to the club since way before I started at PTMC. I didn't need to, you know?”
“Okay.”
“Okay?” Billie questions.
“You seem disappointed I’m not scandalized.” Trinity remarks.
She laughs at that, “It’s not usually the response I get when I tell them I used to take my clothes off for money.”
“Billie, you paid for school by weaponising men who have too much disposable income. Iconic behaviour.” she raises a glass, almost toasting towards Billie. “But seriously? You did what you had to do. There’s no judgement for that.”
“It’s not even the dancing part that bothers me,” Billie admits to her, feeling relieved to finally have someone to talk to about this. “It’s the going backwards. I thought I was done with that, thought I’d become someone better. That I didn't need to survive like that ever again. But it’s my mom, you know?”
Truthfully, although she’s incredibly proud of her career path now, proud to be as good a nurse as she is. She misses it sometimes. Not the men, or the late nights. But the control it gave her. The money. The confidence of walking onto that stage and knowing she had all eyes on her, knew how to command their attention. She’d been good at it, very good at it - had probably been the first thing in her life she had succeeded at. Which was weirdly heartbreaking for her to admit to herself.
“Who else knows?” Santos asks, breaking her train of thought.
“Dana.” She explains, “Robby knows something's up, but he doesn’t know the full story. I want to keep it that way. You might not, but other people look at me differently for it, changes how they see me.” Not that it matters now, but Billie wonders how Jack would look at her if he knew, and yet again feels the ugly head of jealousy rear itself as she compares herself to Samira. Sweet, kind, innocent Samira who had probably never had to worry about shaking her ass in the face of strangers so they could slip a bill into her waistband. Maybe this whole thing was a sign, a sign her and Jack were definitely meant to be over, so she wouldn't need to justify going back to the club to make some extra cash.
Trinity nods, reaching out to place a hand over hers “I support you whatever. You do what you need to do.”
For the first time since that dreadful phone call with her mom, Billie feels the pressure in her chest ease slightly.
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Billie is the one that arrives first. It hadn't taken her long to go home, shower and get ready, it had been nice to make an effort for once. She’d left her long dark hair down in waves, applied some makeup and had pulled on a hair of heeled boots to go with her tight fitting jeans and a black one-shouldered bodysuit. She made her way to the bar, ordering her and Santos their first round of drinks - both preferring vodka, soda water and lime - before casting her eye around the bar. It had been a lucky find a few months ago, when Trinity, Princess and her had gone out on a rare day off together.
“This seat taken?” A voice came from beside her.
Billie blinked, she had still been too busy looking around the bar to see who had approached her. He was handsome, tall, hair cropped short, piercing green eyes which were focused on her own as he stood behind the seat next to her, one hand braced on the back of it as the other held onto a bottle of beer.
“Not for now.” She replied politely, watching as he pulled out the stool and effortlessly slid onto it, turning his body towards her.
“I’m Nate.”
“Billie.”
“Billie. That’s pretty. Is it short for something?” Nate asks after taking a drink from the bottle.
“Nope, my mom just really wanted a boy.” Billie replies, only half joking but smiling as he chuckles.
“Well, Billie. Are you waiting for company? Or would you like some?”
As if on cue, Trinity walks through the door at that very second, the women make eye contact and it's almost as if they have a whole conversation with that one look. She sees Santos look at Nate, next to her, too close to just be a stranger at the bar and narrows her eyes, trying to decipher if she needed to come over and interrupt. But when she glances back at Billie, sees her relaxed posture, drinks in front of her, Trinity obviously decides she doesn't need to run interference and instead motions to a table near the window that had just been cleared.
Billie slips off of the seat, and starts grabbing the drinks she had ordered and had opened a tab for.
“My friend just got here. Thanks for the offer though, enjoy your night.”
“Wait-” Nate stops her, his hand coming to rest on her forearm to stop her walking away from him. “How about you take my number? We could maybe meet up later?”
Billie’s eyes drop down to where his hand is still resting on her arm. Not aggressive, not possessive, just resting there. She looks up at him, he’s almost annoyingly attractive with his kind eyes and easy smile. For a split second she debated it, feeling the heat of temptation. Under different circumstances, she would’ve said yes to him, taken his number, text him at the end of her night and gone home with him. Before Jack, and whatever the fuck they had had, it wasnt unusual for her to indulge in a one night stand. She liked sex, liked uncomplicated sex even better.
But even as she stood there, the image of Jack and Mohan kissing burned into her retinas for what she felt like would be forever, she couldn’t take this man up on his offer.
She looks at Santos, who Billie can tell is fully pretending to not watch them whilst obviously watching them. Then looks back to the man in front of her. “Nice meeting you, Nate.”
She walks past him, hearing his goodbye following her but doesn't look back. Honestly, she doesn't trust herself too. Once she reaches the table that Trinity chose, she places down the drinks on the table and takes the seat opposite the Doctor.
“Did you just willingly turn down hot bar guy?” The brunette asks her, already reaching for her tall glass and sipping it.
Billie rolls her eyes at the other woman, then distracts her by asking about her shift. They hadn't had many cases that day that overlapped, so they chatted about work, patients, relaxing together after yet another shift.
“So, what’s going on with you and Dr. Abbot?” Santos eventually questions her, leaning her chin on her hand, elbow resting on the table between her. “Things seem….different between you guys.”
She’s glad she had just finished her drink, nothing but ice left in her glass, the buzz of the vodka already in her veins, helping her hide the flinch. That's definitely not a topic she wants to talk about tonight, and thankfully she knows what will derail the conversation.
“You want to talk about what’s going on with you and Garcia?” Billie returns, tilting her head to one side.
“Okay.” The word is drawn out, Trinity starts standing. “Another round?”
She laughs, liking that she was able to get the woman who was normally like a dog with a bone to evade something. Billie watches her walk to the bar, her eyes meeting Nate’s as she does so, he’s moved back to his group of friends now, laughing with them. Nice guy. Wrong night.
Somewhere in between drinks 4 and 5 - one of them thinks it's a smart idea to get tequila shots to compliment the vodka. Billie knows as soon as she swallows it that it's definitely not a smart idea, and thanks the rota gods she’s not scheduled to work for another couple of days, she might have recovered from the hangover she knows she’ll have in the morning by then. Eventually the feel of the bar changes too as it gets late, the music louder but the lights dimmer. Her and Trinity laugh, gossip, criticize in a way they rarely get the chance to do. It's fun, cathartic. Their conversation takes a turn at one point, and Billie finds herself confiding in Dr. Santos in a way she didn’t know she needed. Explains to her about her mom, the debt, her guilt in not being able to help and the pressure she feels from her mother to fix it all like she has in the past.
“How much?” Santos asks, watching her carefully from across the table. Not judging, just watching.
Billies pause is obviously too long to provide any comfort, and she winces when the other woman says her name, prompting her. “ A lot.”
“How much is a lot?”
When Billie replies with a number, she watches as Trinity nearly chokes on her drink, coughing out. “Jesus fucking christ.”
Neither woman talks for a second, letting Billie’s confession settle between them.
“Do you have it?”
Again, Billie hesitates, “Some of it. Not all of it.” She admits, the same way she had done to Robby. But this time she decides to acknowledge what had been going round in a loop in her head since her phone call with her mom, admitting. “But I can get it.”
Trinity scoffs, not believing her. “How? By robbing a fucking bank?”
“No. By stripping.” She replies dryly. Billie brings her glass up to her lips, takes a sip as she watches Trinity who has paused, obviously unsure if she's joking or not. “I used to dance. It’s how I paid for nursing school, and put food on the table. It was easy, I didn’t need to work 3 jobs to support us, I could balance it with classes. Once I graduated I didn't need to do it as much, but I haven't been to the club since way before I started at PTMC. I didn't need to, you know?”
“Okay.”
“Okay?” Billie questions.
“You seem disappointed I’m not scandalized.” Trinity remarks.
She laughs at that, “It’s not usually the response I get when I tell them I used to take my clothes off for money.”
“Billie, you paid for school by weaponising men who have too much disposable income. Iconic behaviour.” she raises a glass, almost toasting towards Billie. “But seriously? You did what you had to do. There’s no judgement for that.”
“It’s not even the dancing part that bothers me,” Billie admits to her, feeling relieved to finally have someone to talk to about this. “It’s the going backwards. I thought I was done with that, thought I’d become someone better. That I didn't need to survive like that ever again. But it’s my mom, you know?”
Truthfully, although she’s incredibly proud of her career path now, proud to be as good a nurse as she is. She misses it sometimes. Not the men, or the late nights. But the control it gave her. The money. The confidence of walking onto that stage and knowing she had all eyes on her, knew how to command their attention. She’d been good at it, very good at it - had probably been the first thing in her life she had succeeded at. Which was weirdly heartbreaking for her to admit to herself.
“Who else knows?” Santos asks, breaking her train of thought.
“Dana.” She explains, “Robby knows something's up, but he doesn’t know the full story. I want to keep it that way. You might not, but other people look at me differently for it, changes how they see me.” Not that it matters now, but Billie wonders how Jack would look at her if he knew, and yet again feels the ugly head of jealousy rear itself as she compares herself to Samira. Sweet, kind, innocent Samira who had probably never had to worry about shaking her ass in the face of strangers so they could slip a bill into her waistband. Maybe this whole thing was a sign, a sign her and Jack were definitely meant to be over, so she wouldn't need to justify going back to the club to make some extra cash.
Trinity nods, reaching out to place a hand over hers “I support you whatever. You do what you need to do.”
For the first time since that dreadful phone call with her mom, Billie feels the pressure in her chest ease slightly.
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pairing – garrett graham x kitty!reader
summary – garrett graham doesn’t do girlfriends. unfortunately for him, the entire hockey house has ears, opinions, and very strong evidence to the contrary.
warnings – suggestive content, implied smut, post-sex intimacy, arguing, strong language
notes from me – oh to have make up sex with garrett graham. based on this request! thank u anon xx
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The downstairs of the hockey house had entered that specific late-night stage of male occupancy where every surface had acquired either a controller, an open bag of chips, a damp ring from a beer bottle, or a sock that absolutely did not belong in a shared living space and yet had been accepted by the ecosystem.
The TV threw blue-white light over the room in sharp, violent flashes while some first-person shooter none of them were pretending to understand strategically anymore barked gunfire through the speakers. Logan was sunk so low into the couch he was practically part of it, one socked foot hooked under the coffee table, thumbs moving on instinct and jaw working around the last of a slice of cold pizza.
Tucker had claimed the armchair like a man with enough common sense to keep his spine functional past twenty-five, one ankle crossed over his knee, controller balanced comfortably in his hands, expression calm in the way that made it ten times more annoying when he killed everyone else. Dean was sprawled half sideways on the rug with his back against the couch, beer loose in one hand, controller in the other, looking like someone had designed a rich boy in a lab and then forgotten to install shame.
Garrett was upstairs. Which, in itself, was not strange. Garrett being upstairs with her was also not strange, not anymore, no matter how many times he said, with the full stubborn confidence of a man lying directly to everyone’s faces, that it wasn’t like that. It was casual. They were hooking up.
He was busy. Hockey, classes, captain shit, the usual revolving door of women who used to come and go before she’d started appearing in the kitchen in his sweatshirts and stealing the last banana off the counter with the lazy comfort of someone who knew exactly which drawer the forks were in.
Garrett denied all of it. Continually. Aggressively, even. Like if he said the words she’s not my girlfriend often enough, the universe would stop presenting evidence to the contrary.
Unfortunately for him, the universe was a petty bitch, and so were his friends. Dean had been killed by Tucker for the third time in under two minutes and was halfway through an appeal to basic human decency when the first noise came from upstairs.
Not a bed thump. Not laughter. Not the usual muffled, morally concerning sounds that made Tucker reach for the remote and Logan yell, “Bro, volume,” without looking away from the screen.
This was a voice, her voice. And it was furious. “ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME, GARRETT?”
Every thumb in the living room stopped moving at once. Onscreen, Dean’s character was immediately shot in the head.
Nobody cared.
There was a half-second where the whole downstairs seemed to hold its breath around the TV static and the low hum of the fridge from the kitchen. Logan lifted his head first, slow and delighted. Tucker’s brows went up. Dean turned, beer paused halfway to his mouth, eyes brightening with the reverent attention of a man who had just heard the opening note of live theatre.
Upstairs, something moved hard enough to creak through the ceiling. A footstep. Maybe two. Then Garrett’s voice came down, rough and defensive and very much not using his captain voice. “What? Jesus Christ, I looked at my phone.”
“You were snapping a puck bunny right before you fucked me!”
Dean’s mouth fell open. Logan’s eyes went huge. Tucker closed his eyes once, like a man hearing a disaster he could have warned someone about if anyone in this house respected wisdom.
“Oh, rookie error,” Logan said solemnly, pointing one finger toward the ceiling without taking his eyes off the stairs. “That’s a rookie error.”
Dean nodded, gravely, as if Garrett had failed a sacred code. “Yeah, no. You can’t do that.”
Tucker set his controller down on his knee. “You absolutely cannot do that.”
From upstairs, Garrett snapped, “I wasn’t snapping a puck bunny.”
“Oh, fuck you, Garrett!”
“Oh, fuck me?” Garrett shot back, voice rising now, indignant in that very particular Garrett Graham way where he sounded personally offended that reality had chosen to disagree with him. “Fuck me? Are you shitting me? I go on my phone for, like, two seconds and you freak out?”
“I was straddling you, you asshole!”
Dean made a strangled sound and pressed his fist to his mouth, eyes shining. “God, she’s good.”
Logan leaned forward, elbows on his knees, fully abandoning the game now. His abandoned character stood motionless on screen while someone named xXSlayerBoiXx unloaded an entire magazine into his chest. “Yeah, no, I’m with her on that. That’s insane. You don’t check messages mid-straddle.”
“It’s about respect,” Dean said, sudden and earnest, like the spirit of an Italian grandmother had entered his body. “You gotta keep that shit separate, man. Girls know when you’re mentally in the room. They can feel it.”
Tucker looked at him.
Dean looked back. “What?”
“No, I agree,” Tucker said after a beat, which somehow made it funnier. “I just didn’t expect you to be the one bringing emotional literacy into this house tonight.”
Dean lifted his beer in salute.
Upstairs, her voice came again, closer this time like she’d moved toward the door or maybe toward Garrett, which somehow made the whole thing worse and better. “You literally smiled at your phone.”
“I smile at shit!”
“You smiled like a slut!”
Logan lost it. He folded forward, laughter punching out of him so hard he had to slap one hand over his mouth. Tucker’s mouth twitched. Dean pointed up at the ceiling with the beer bottle, triumphant.
“That,” Dean said, “is a woman with language.”
Garrett barked something they couldn’t quite catch, then louder, “It was a team thing.”
“Oh my God, don’t lie to me with hockey. That’s so insulting.”
“I’m not lying with hockey!”
“You’re always lying with hockey. It’s your little emotional support sport.”
Dean wheezed. “Oh, she’s killing him.”
“She’s not wrong,” Tucker said, and picked up his controller again only to realise no one else was playing. He set it down with the soft resignation of a man accepting that the night had changed shape. “He does use hockey as a legal defence.”
Logan wiped under one eye with his thumb. “Your Honor, I couldn’t text back because we had a power play.”
“Exactly,” Dean said. “And the jury’s like, damn, compelling.”
The argument upstairs hit a sharper pitch then, the words overlapping enough that downstairs only fragments came through: Garrett saying her name in that strained, warning way; her cutting over him with something about half the campus knowing exactly what your stupid little smirk means; Garrett snapping back that she didn’t get to act like he’d done something when he hadn’t done anything; her laugh, sharp and humourless enough to slice through the floorboards.
The thing was, from downstairs, it was hilarious. It was the kind of fight you listened to with one hand over your mouth and the other hovering near your beer because you didn’t want to miss a word.
But even through the ceiling, even with Dean’s face lit up like Christmas, there was something hot and real in it. Garrett could say casual until his voice gave out. The guys had seen him check every time the front door opened on a Friday night in case it was her. They had seen him turn down girls without making a production of it and then act like he didn’t know he’d done it. They had seen him stand in the kitchen at nine in the morning holding two mugs of coffee, one black and one with the stupid oat milk she liked, and still somehow insist he was not, under any circumstances, doing relationship shit.
Upstairs, something thudded, like someone had shoved a door or dropped a shoe or Garrett had knocked into his own dresser while gesturing too aggressively for a man who claimed to be calm.
“Don’t walk away from me,” Garrett said, clearer now.
“Oh, now you care where I am?”
“Don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“That– that thing where you make it sound like I don’t give a shit.”
There was a pause after that. Barely a pause. Downstairs, all three of them went quieter without meaning to.
Then she said, voice still furious but lower now, scraped around the edges, “You were smiling at another girl with my thighs around your waist, Garrett.”
Logan’s face changed first. The grin softened out of it by a fraction. Tucker looked down at his beer. Dean, for all his many sins, at least had the sense to stop laughing for a second.
Garrett didn’t answer right away. When he did, his voice had lost some of the heat. “It wasn’t like that.”
“Then what was it like?”
“Baby–”
“Oh, do not baby me right now.”
Dean inhaled through his teeth. “Tough room.”
“Deserved,” Tucker murmured.
Garrett said something too low for them to make out, then louder when she clearly answered over him, “I’m not trying to make you look stupid!”
“You don’t have to try, you’re doing great.”
Logan made a tiny, appreciative noise. “Goddamn.”
Dean leaned back against the couch, eyes narrowed in thought now, as if evaluating odds at a racetrack. “I got ten bucks on Kitty.”
Tucker turned his head slowly. “Kitty?”
“Yeah.” Dean said it like this was obvious, like the naming of women based on their probable combat style was an established household tradition. “Kitty.”
Logan frowned. “Why Kitty?”
Dean looked offended by the lack of memory. “Because she scratches the shit out of him. You didn’t see his back last week?”
“Oh shit,” Logan said immediately, pointing at Dean. “That’s right. In the locker room. I thought he got attacked by a raccoon.”
“Exactly.” Dean spread one hand, pleased with his own case. “Kitty.”
Tucker’s brows drew together. “Nah. She’s hotter than a housecat.”
Dean tipped his head, considering. “I didn’t say housecat.”
“You said kitty. That implies housecat.”
“She’s not a housecat,” Dean said seriously.
Logan leaned back, very invested. “Cheetah?”
“No,” Tucker said. “Cheetahs are too sleek. She’s got more… attitude.”
“Mountain lion,” Dean said, snapping his fingers.
The room went quiet in collective consideration.
Logan nodded first. “Mountain lion works.”
Tucker lifted his beer. “Yeah. Respectfully.”
Dean tipped his bottle toward the ceiling. “Ten bucks on Mountain Lion.”
Upstairs, Garrett’s voice rose again, but not in the same way now. “You think I’m sitting there trying to get with somebody else while you’re literally in my room?”
“I don’t know what you’re doing, Garrett, because you keep telling me this is nothing.”
That hit the downstairs like somebody had turned down the TV and let the actual room in. Logan’s mouth went a little flat. Dean’s eyes flicked toward Tucker, then away. Tucker exhaled through his nose and leaned back in the chair.
Garrett said nothing. She laughed again, quieter this time, and it was worse than the yelling. “Right. Yeah. Exactly.”
A door creaked upstairs. A floorboard shifted.
Garrett’s voice came out rough. “That’s not fair.”
“No, what’s not fair is you acting like I’m insane for being embarrassed when you keep making sure I know I’m not allowed to be anything else.”
“Jesus. That’s not–” Garrett stopped, frustrated enough that they could almost see him dragging a hand through his hair. “That’s not what I meant.”
“What did you mean?”
Another silence. Dean, who had somehow turned from smug spectator into anxious civilian in under thirty seconds, whispered, “Say something good, dumbass.”
Tucker shot him a look. “You whispering isn’t helping him.”
“I know, but, like, he can sense my spirit.”
Garrett finally spoke, lower. They couldn’t catch the first part. Only the end. “…don’t want you thinking I’m messing around with other girls.”
“But you are.”
“I’m not.”
“You were.”
“I wasn’t.”
“You were smiling at your phone like–”
“I was smiling because Logan sent me a video of Dean eating shit in the driveway.”
Tucker stared at both of Dean and Logan, disgusted. “This house is an ecosystem of idiots.”
Upstairs, there was a beat of silence. Then her voice, much flatter now. “What?”
Garrett said, louder, with the rushed relief of a man finally locating evidence in his own defence, “It was Dean. It was the video of Dean slipping on the ice by the cars. I was laughing at that.”
Dean pointed to himself, touched. “I saved his situationship.”
Logan leaned over and slapped his shoulder. “Your pain had purpose.”
“I told you I’m important to this team.”
The floorboards creaked again. Upstairs, she said something too low for them to catch. Garrett answered, also too low, his voice doing that thing it did when he was trying not to sound soft and failing just enough for people who knew him to notice.
Then she snapped, suddenly audible again, “That still doesn’t fix the fact that you’re weird about me.”
Garrett’s answer came immediate and defensive. “I’m not weird about you.”
All three guys downstairs went still. Then, as one, they looked at each other. Dean’s face went blank with disbelief. Logan’s mouth opened. Tucker’s eyebrows lifted toward his hairline.
“He’s so weird about her,” Logan whispered.
“Incredibly,” Dean agreed.
“He once made me Venmo her for mozzarella sticks because I ate the ones she left in the fridge,” Tucker said.
Logan turned to him. “He made you Venmo her?”
“She didn’t even ask. She was asleep.”
Dean nodded solemnly. “That’s husband behaviour.”
Upstairs, she said, “You got mad at Tucker for eating my leftovers.”
Tucker lifted both hands as if personally vindicated by God.
Garrett shouted, “Because he knew they weren’t his!”
“They were in a communal fridge!”
Dean clutched his chest. “Oh my God.”
Logan dropped his head back against the couch. “He’s cooked.”
“Burnt,” Tucker said.
Upstairs, the argument blurred again into movement, voices crossing, Garrett’s frustration and her hurt colliding in the messy, intimate rhythm of two people who knew each other well enough to know exactly where to press and not enough to stop themselves from pressing there anyway.
There was another thud, softer this time. Something fabric-heavy hitting the floor. Maybe the edge of a comforter. Maybe one of Garrett’s hoodies being launched with intent.
Then she said, sharp but trembling around it, “I’m not asking you to marry me, Garrett. I’m asking you not to make me feel stupid for liking you!”
The living room went dead silent. Even Dean didn’t joke.
For a second, there was only the muted TV, the distant rush of heat through the vents, the soft electrical buzz of the lamp beside the couch. Tucker looked away first, because there were some things a man wasn’t supposed to witness even through drywall. Logan rubbed a hand over his mouth. Dean’s face did something strange, caught between sympathy and the reflexive horror of sincerity arriving without warning.
Garrett’s voice came low enough that they had to strain for it. “I don’t think you’re stupid.”
She answered, quieter too. “You act like I am.”
“I don’t mean to.”
“Yeah, well.” Her voice wavered, barely. “You’re really good at it anyway.”
There was another pause, longer this time. Then Garrett said her name, and it sounded so unlike the way he said it when he was teasing her downstairs, so stripped of performance, that even Logan stopped breathing loudly.
“I’m busy,” Garrett said, and immediately Dean made a face like he wanted to climb through the ceiling and tackle him. But then Garrett kept going, rougher, faster, like if he didn’t get it out in one rush he’d lose the nerve. “And I’m not– I don’t do this shit. I don’t know what you want me to say.”
“I want you to stop hiding behind that.”
“I’m not hiding.”
“Garrett.”
Silence. Then, quieter, from him: “Maybe a little.”
Dean’s eyes widened.
Logan whispered, “Progress.”
Tucker nodded once. “Huge.”
Whatever she said next didn’t reach them. It was softer, swallowed by the ceiling and the old pipes and the house settling around all of them. Garrett answered in the same register. For a minute, the boys could hear only the shape of it: his voice low and trying; hers still hurt but no longer slicing; a murmur, a footstep, another smaller sound that might have been a laugh or might have been her telling him he was an idiot in a tone that had lost most of its blade.
Dean leaned slowly toward the ceiling, listening so hard his beer tilted dangerously in his hand.
“Are they making up?” Logan whispered.
Tucker held up one finger. “Wait.”
The upstairs went very, very quiet. A bedframe creaked once. All three of them froze.
Then, clear enough to cut through the entire house, came a high, breathless little squeal that immediately dissolved into a muffled laugh and Garrett saying something low that none of them could make out but absolutely did not sound like an apology anymore.
Dean nodded once, satisfied. “Yup.”
Logan picked up his controller. “They’re fucking.”
Tucker reached for the remote and turned the TV volume up three notches with the resigned precision of a man who had lived in this house too long. “Good for them.”
Dean lifted his beer toward the ceiling. “Mountain Lion won.”
“You don’t win a fight by sleeping with Garrett after,” Tucker said.
Dean considered this. “Depends on the fight.”
Logan unpaused the game and immediately got shot. “I still think Garrett lost.”
“Oh, he definitely lost,” Tucker said.
Dean grinned, settling back against the couch as the game roared back to life and the upstairs became, blessedly, a problem the TV volume could mostly handle. “Yeah, but he’s not gonna know that until morning.”
From above them came another muffled thump, followed by Garrett’s laugh, low and pleased and stupidly gone.
Logan shook his head, respawning. “He’s so fucked.”
Tucker’s mouth curved faintly as he lifted his controller again. “Yeah.”
Dean, eyes on the screen now, smile still wide, said, “But in his defence, did you guys see her in that little skirt earlier?”
Tucker killed him instantly in the game.
Dean stared at the screen. “Wow.”
“Respect women,” Tucker said pointing at Dean, calm as anything.
Logan laughed so hard he missed his next shot, and upstairs, Garrett Graham continued very loudly pretending he didn’t have a girlfriend.
The room has gone quiet in the aftermath, the sort of quiet that arrives after a small, localised weather event has torn through and left evidence everywhere for later people to pretend not to see.
Garrett’s comforter is half on the bed and half dragged toward the floor, one corner caught under her knee. A pillow has somehow ended up near the closet. Her shirt is inside out beside the desk chair. One of Garrett’s socks is on the nightstand, which makes absolutely no sense, but the whole room has taken on that loose, wrecked, airless quality of a place where nothing had been put down so much as flung away in the service of more urgent priorities.
The lamp throws soft gold over the wall and across the pile of clothes at the foot of the bed, and under it all the house is still making noise downstairs: gunfire from the TV, somebody laughing too loud, a dull male groan of defeat that is probably Dean dying in the game again.
She’s sprawled on her stomach across Garrett’s chest, bare skin warm against bare skin, one leg tangled in the sheet and the other hooked lazily over his thigh like she has no intention of giving his body back to him anytime soon.
Her chin rests over his sternum, and she traces nonsense patterns over his chest with the tip of one finger, slow little loops through the faint sheen still drying there, feeling the hard, steady thud of his heart under her cheek when she tilts down.
It’s stupid, really, how quickly the fight has gone soft at the edges now that they’ve burned through it. Her throat still feels a little raw from yelling. Her body feels heavy and loose and humming in places she’s absolutely not going to name out loud. Garrett’s hand sits at the base of her spine, thumb moving every now and then like he keeps forgetting he’s doing it.
For a while neither of them says anything. Which is probably for the best, because words have been historically risky in this room tonight. Then the floorboards creak somewhere downstairs and Logan’s voice carries faintly up, followed by Dean’s laugh, bright and stupid and unmistakably delighted by his own existence.
She stills. Garrett’s hand pauses on her back.
Her eyes lift to his face. “Do you think the guys heard us?”
Garrett looks down at her for half a second, mouth already fighting the kind of grin that means he’s decided honesty will be funniest if delivered without mercy. His hair’s a mess from her hands, curls pushed in every wrong direction, face flushed in that warm, post-sex way that makes him look softer and smugger at once, which should be illegal on a man who already has enough advantages.
“Think the whole campus heard us,” he says.
She lets out an offended little laugh and drops her forehead against his chest. “Shut up.”
“No, seriously.” His voice is lazy now, rough around the edges, pleased with himself in a way that makes her want to bite him. Again. “Pretty sure the women’s soccer team knows you’re mad at me. And now... not so mad at me.”
“Oh my God.” She presses her face harder into his chest, but she’s giggling now, because the alternative is imagining Logan, Tucker, and Dean downstairs, all three of them going dead silent and absolutely listening like the worst little creeps in Massachusetts. “I hate you.”
“No, you don’t.”
“I literally do.”
“You’re naked on top of me.”
She grins into his chest. “That’s unrelated.”
“Feels related.”
She lifts her head just enough to glare at him, which doesn’t work at all because he’s grinning at her like she’s the funniest, most inconvenient thing that has ever happened to him.
That look gets under her skin in a way she hates. The part where his amusement goes warm and stupid around the eyes because he’s not just entertained. He’s happy she’s there. Happy she’s still touching him. Happy in the middle of a room that looks like a crime scene made of laundry and bad decisions.
His hand slides up her back, slow and broad, then comes around the side of her neck with the kind of easy confidence that makes her body go annoyingly still. His fingers resting lightly beneath her jaw, thumb brushing once along the side of her throat while he tips her face up.
“C’mere,” he murmurs, and kisses her before she can say something defensive.
It’s quick, technically. Barely more than a press of his mouth to hers, warm and lazy and smug at the corner because he can probably feel the way she melts by half an inch the second his hand settles there.
But it does something ridiculous inside her anyway. Something bright and helpless and fluttering low in her stomach. She kisses him back without meaning to make anything of it, but he smiles against her mouth, and that’s somehow worse.
When he lets her go, she blinks down at him. “You’re very annoying after sex.”
“Before too.”
“True.”
“During, though?”
She pauses, letting her eyes move over his face with theatrical consideration. “Tolerable.”
Garrett’s eyebrows lift. “Tolerable?”
“Mhm.”
“That’s crazy, considering the volume you were using ten minutes ago.”
She gasps and shoves at his chest, but he catches her wrist before she gets far, laughing low in his throat, the sound moving under her palm. “Garrett.”
“What?”
“You’re so full of yourself.”
“Evidence-based confidence, baby.”
She rolls her eyes, but the baby lands anyway, soft and warm and stupidly effective in the middle of all that cocky shit. Which is exactly the problem. Garrett could say something that made her want to smother him with his own pillow and then two seconds later say baby like it belonged in his mouth, like he hadn’t even had to think about it.
He gives her ass a lazy pat and exhales, long and reluctant, glancing toward the clock on the nightstand. “I gotta get up.”
Her brows draw together. “Why?”
“Because I told Coach I’d be at the rink early.”
“It’s nighttime.”
“I'm captain.” He shifts under her, and she makes a small noise of protest before she can stop herself, which makes his mouth twitch again. “Don’t start.”
She pouts. “I didn’t say anything.”
“You made a sound.”
“I’m allowed to make sounds.”
“Clearly.”
She narrows her eyes at him, but Garrett’s already moving, careful and slightly awkward with the sheet and her limbs and the fact that she has absolutely no interest in helping.
He sits up, easing her off his chest and onto the mattress, and she flops onto her back with the kind of boneless indignation only a girl who has just been thoroughly ruined and then abandoned for hockey can really commit to.
The air cools instantly where his body was, and she hates that too. Hates the little absence of heat along her side. Hates, more than anything, the fact that she notices.
Garrett gets out of bed naked, completely unbothered by the fact that he looks like that in lamplight and has the audacity to walk away from her with broad shoulders and hockey-built thighs and his back scratched to hell.
She hadn’t realised she’d done quite that much damage. There are red marks dragged down over the muscle beside his spine and along one shoulder blade, bright against his skin, some already fading, some very much not. The sight sends a hot little pulse through her, equal parts pride and embarrassment and something so pleased it probably needs to be medically reviewed. She bites her bottom lip to stop the grin. It doesn’t work.
Garrett bends to grab his boxers from the floor and pulls them on, then glances back over his shoulder because he feels her looking. “What?”
She shrugs against the pillow, still grinning. “Nothing.”
His eyes narrow slightly. “That face is obviously not nothing.”
“It’s nothing.”
“You look way too proud of yourself for nothing.”
“I’m just lying here.”
“Yeah,” he says, turning enough that she gets the full benefit of his expression now: amused, suspicious, a little too aware of his own effect on her and absolutely not above using it. “That’s the problem.”
She lets her gaze drag over him again on purpose this time, slow enough to be rude, from the messy curls to the bare chest to the low waistband of his boxers, then back to his face. Garrett watches her do it.
His mouth parts like he’s about to say something, then closes again. His jaw shifts. He looks briefly toward the ceiling, as if appealing to God, Coach, or whatever patron saint governs self-control in sexually compromised hockey players.
She giggles. “What?”
Garrett exhales through his nose. “Nothing.”
“No, what?” She props herself lazily up on one elbow, sheet slipping down just enough that his eyes drop despite his clear attempt to be a disciplined athlete with somewhere to be. “What did I do?”
He gives her a look.
She widens her eyes, all fake innocence and bare shoulders and hair messy around her face in ways she knows are not helping him. “I’m not doing anything!”
“You look like that,” Garrett says, accusingly.
She glances down at herself like this is new information. “Like what?”
“Like that.” His hand moves vaguely in her direction because apparently language has left him. “All…” He stops. Swallows. Drags a hand over his mouth. “Fuck.”
The grin takes over her whole face now, slow and delighted. “Garrett Graham. Are you objectifying me?”
“I’m trying very hard not to.”
“How noble.”
“I’m a good guy.”
“You’re currently staring at my boobs.”
His eyes snap up. “I’m flawed.”
She laughs, and the sound loosens something in his face. For one second he just looks at her, standing there beside the bed in his boxers with scratches down his back and his hair wrecked by her fingers, caught between leaving and crawling right back over her.
The room feels warmer for it. Smaller. The mess of it suddenly not messy so much as lived-in for one strange little slice of time – her clothes with his, her phone on his nightstand, his handprint still warm somewhere on her hip, the argument hanging around but no longer sharp enough to cut.
Then he sighs like she’s personally ruined his life. “I’m gonna be late.”
She frowns immediately, because the words take a second to land in the right order. “No, you’re not.” She rolls onto her side and reaches for her phone on the bedside table, fingers searching blindly until they close around it. The screen lights her face blue for a second. “You have plenty of– oh.”
The oh comes out because Garrett’s moved while she was checking the time. Fast. Smooth. Infuriatingly athletic, even in boxers, which feels unfair given the circumstances.
One second she’s looking at the screen. The next his hands are around her thighs, warm and sure, tugging her down the mattress until her hips slide to the edge of the bed and the phone slips from her hand. She drops it with a soft thump into the sheet, breath catching in a little startled laugh as he steps between her knees.
“Garrett.”
“Yeah?”
“What are you doing?”
He lifts one of her ankles first, then the other, setting them over his shoulders like he has all the time in the world and not a single intention of using it responsibly. His hands settle against her thighs, thumbs pressing in just enough to make her stomach flip.
The lamplight catches on his grin when he looks down at her, all cocky mouth and dark, focused eyes and the kind of heat that makes every smart thing she might have said disappear before it reaches her tongue.
“I’m gonna be late,” he says.
For a second she just stares at him. Then her smile spreads, helpless and bright and already half-breathless. She lets her head fall back against the mattress, laughter spilling out of her as her fingers curl into the rumpled comforter. “You’re gonna be late.”
Garrett’s mouth curves, pleased, and his hands slide a little higher on her thighs.
“Yeah,” he says, like this is simply what the night has decided and who is he to argue with circumstances. “Definitely.”
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Seeing Jack in his SWAT uniform was a sight that Billie had been unprepared for. She’s seen him in his cargo pants before, usually when he’d come by her apartment after a training drill with them to ‘decompress’ for the day. But she’d never seen him in the complete get up before. She can't help the way she trails her eyes up his figure, he’s dirty - covered in blood from his friend who is on the gurney, sweaty and dishevelled but she still has to press his thighs together for a split second to ease the heat building in between her legs when she sees him come through the ambulance bay doors.
Billie assists quietly from beside Dr. Robby, listening to Jack describe how the officer had been hit and he’d had to intubate under open fire. Smirks from her position as Santos describes it as badass. It's not exactly the sentiment she would use, but she doesn't give anything else away, it's not a shock to her like it might be to others in the department, she’s known about Dr. Abbot's dangerous choice of hobby for a while. They make eye contact over his friend's prone body as she hands him the suture thread and needle before he’s even finished asking for it, gives him a quick, reassuring smile as their fingers brush before turning away to check their patient's stats, choosing to ignore his eyes lingering on her.
When Hiro goes for scans to check on the rest of his injuries, Jack goes with him and honestly she’s glad when he leaves. Pulling off the disposable paper gown and gloves in one motion, she puts them in the nearest trash can before reaching towards the hand sanitizer, rubbing the gel into her hands until it dries.
“Everything all good?” Dr. Robby asks as he mirrors her motions, hands rubbing together rapidly to disperse the hand gel.
“Yeah, you?” They fall into step with one another as they exit the trauma room, already heading on to the next person who needs their help.
“Oh, yeah,” They pause their conversation as Princess comes up to them, needing his approval on a treatment for another patient, Robby waits for the other nurse to walk away from them before continuing. “Just wanted to check in on you from the other day, our conversation outside. You get something sorted?”
Billie smiles up at the older man, ignoring the flare of embarrassment that burns through her at his reminder of the conversation with her mother a few days prior. Hates that someone she respects as much as Dr. Robinavitch heard what a shit show her personal life is, the only thing that would’ve been worse was having it been Jack that had overheard her phone call. “It’ll be fine, thanks Robby.”
She thinks that's the end of the conversation, goes to walk away from him, but one of his large hands comes up to hold her shoulder, pausing her.
“My offer still stands, Nurse Hayes. If you need help, please let me know.” His dark eyes gaze down into her own, showing his sincerity with his offer.
Billie knows it comes from a place of care, a working friendship. But honestly, it makes her feel even more like a failure. She nods, giving him another smile, faker this time than her last and manages to finally escape him.
**
She overhears about Dr. Abbot being injured whilst grabbing meds, pausing at the PSA cabinet when she hears Dana explaining to Robby about Jack being in an empty room about to clean up a wound, a graze from a bullet, he had sustained earlier with SWAT. Her stomach drops when she hears it, realistically she knows Jack is fine, she’d seen him only a while ago, stood next to him as he saved his friend's life. But the trauma response of hearing he had been injured still flares despite what's happened between the two of them recently.
Billie doesn't even think about her detour towards the room Dana had said he was in. Jack might’ve ended their ‘situationship’ but she still cared for him, wanted to check with her own eyes that he was okay. She approaches the room, the door pushed open but with the privacy curtain drawn about half way and stops suddenly when she sees who's also in the room with him. Dr. Mohan. Of course.
Jack is shirtless, sitting on the bed as she tends to the wound on his back, with his large arms crossed over his bare chest. Billie silently admires him, pale skin covered in a scattering of freckles, each inch of him has been touched or kissed by her at some point. She can't make out what they’re talking about from where she stands watching them, hidden from view by the curtain, but she watches them together.
Samira finishes up tending to Jack’s injury, coming round to stand in front of him. They exchange a few words before Billie swears the world falls into slow motion. Samira steps in between Jack's legs and leans forward. Kissing him so openly Billie wonders if it’s not the first time.
I think we should pause this, I’ve got some stuff to work out. It's complicated.
She hates how her stomach drops, and suddenly she steps back, looking away before she can see more, suddenly feeling embarrassed about her panic for him. She had known this would happen, had been bracing herself for it all along but it hurts more than she expects. Maybe it's how public the kiss is - that Mohan isn't hidden away in their apartments like what she had been.
Billie bites the inside of her cheek so hard she tastes blood, and decides she’s watched their private moment together long enough, even though realistically it's barely been a few seconds. She turns on her feet so quickly her sneakers squeak on the floor of the ED, determined to be anywhere but there right that second.
**
She considers the rest of her shift a success when she manages to avoid Dr. Abbot and Dr. Mohan for the remainder of it. It's easy to avoid Samira, they don't share any cases today thankfully, but Jack is another story. Even though he's not on shift, he hangs around after cleaning himself up, picking up some patients to help ease the load for them. However, he somehow always ends up in her space, like he can sense her newfound vulnerability.
“Hey. Wanna go get drunk with me?” Trinity approaches her just as she's finishing up her notes for the day, looking about as haggard as she feels.
“God, yes.” Billie doesn't hesitate with her answer, alcohol feels like one of the only cures for today.
“Don’t invite anyone else, I’ve seen enough of them.” Santos tells her, it's almost rude but she appreciates where it's coming from.
“Agreed. Tap Room in an hour?” She’s referring to the bar they’d found a few months ago basically half way in between their apartments.
“First one there gets the drinks in.” Trinity states as she walks away, probably headed off to finish some of her own charting up for the end of her shift.
“What was that? Are you guys going out tonight?” Dr. Mohan’s voice comes from behind her, making Billie jump as she turns to face her. Immediately she notices how tired the doctor looks, hair half out of its claw clip, eyes dimmed with something she can't place. But Billie can't bring herself to care, petty but true.
“Hm, yeah.” She murmurs, turning away and heading in the opposite direction, pretending to be distracted by the chart in her hands. Shame fills her, knowing she’s just been completely ignorant to someone who doesn’t deserve it, doesn’t know what she's done, but Billie just needs time. Needs to heal before she can resume some sense of normality with her colleague.
Billie considers herself lucky in the aftermath of it all, the stars somehow align for her to have a week of dayshifts before working with Jack - Dr. Abbot - again. Even when she is on his shift, they both manage to remain as professional as ever. It's different now, no sliding by each other almost too closely at the nurses station or a perfectly made coffee waiting for her, but she swears sometimes she can feel his eyes on her when she's not looking, Billie won't look in case she’s imagining it, almost hoping for it. She still tries to remain one step ahead, knows what implements he needs half a second before he needs them during procedures and knows to be prepared the same when he’s letting the residents take the lead. It seems whatever they had simply seems to not exist, a skeleton buried deep in both their closets now.
She’s stood in a room with him, just starting another nightshift together, their first incoming trauma of the night having just arrived. The paramedics have just finished doing their handover as they wheel the gurney into the trauma room, whilst her and the team glove up and get ready to take over. Billie watches as Parker and Jack do the initial consult with the patient - a 41 year old woman in a car accident, she’d swerved to miss hitting a dog but ended up wrapping her car around a pole instead.
“Current obs: blood pressure is 94 over 60, pulse 124, sats 92% and RR is 28.” She informs them, coming to stand by the bed with them. Listens intently and nods when they ask her to call for a full CT and to alert general surgery about possible internal bleeding, already reaching for the phone by the time Jack had finished speaking. Whilst on the phone she can feel her own cell phone vibrating against her leg just like it has a few times already. Ignoring it, she continues on with her patients, knowing there's really only one person outside of work who would be trying to get in contact with her that badly, and she knows exactly why too. By 10pm, her cell phone has vibrated another few times in her pocket, she doesn't even take it out to check on it, but she’s still shocked when Lena comes into the room where she’s assisting Dr. Abbot and Dr. Shen with debridement and dressing wounds on a burn patient.
“Hon, you’ve got a call on the main line.” Billie does a double take when she finds Lena looking right at her. “Says she’s your mom?”
“Tell her I’ll call her back.” She replies, clenching her jaw in frustration.
“Said she’s been trying your cell all evening.”
Billie snorted, starting to collect the waste from between the doctors now they were finishing up, purposefully ignoring the look they were both giving her.
“We’re finished here if you want to take it, Billie.” Jack said, still peering down at one of the wounds he’s been cleaning and dressing.
“No thanks. Lena, tell her I’m busy with patients and I’ll call her when I’m free.” She states, pulling off her gloves with a snap, throwing them in the nearby trash. She watches out of the corner of her eye as Lena hovers for another moment, before looking down at Jack and Shen, nodding once and then leaving, the privacy curtain falling closed behind her.
Turns out, she's not free for the rest of her shift, although they aren't overwhelmed by patients, Billie miraculously finds tasks to do so by the time day shift starts rolling in everything has been cleaned, topped up and organised like they haven't been for months. At one point, she had had to turn her cell on to Do Not Disturb mode just to give herself a break from the incessant vibrating. Her mother clearly wasn’t having a good night, which honestly made her want to avoid a conversation with her even more. Between ignoring her mom and avoiding being alone with Dr. Abbot for too long, she feels weary, desperate to go home.
When she leaves via the ambulance bay, she pulls her cell phone out of her pocket, looking down at the screen she notes an impressive 12 missed calls and 8 unread messages from her mother, Billie hesitates before hitting the call back button. It barely rings through before the familiar although groggy and slurred voice comes through the line.
“About fucking time you called me back, been tryna get you all night.” Her mother scolds her.
“Don’t ever call my work like that again.” Billie grips the phone tightly, “How the hell did you even find the number for the ED?”
“I can google, you know. Anyway, what else was I meant to do, you weren't answering me, Bee.”
“Because I was in the middle of a shift, Ma.” She snaps. “And it was the middle of the fucking night.”
“Yeah, yeah. Too busy for your mother now you're a fancy nurse. Wasting all your talent, rotting away at all hours in that hospital for crap pay.” Jo spits into the phone.
Billie takes a deep breath, it's the same old argument she’s had with her mother since she went into her career years ago. The average parent would be overjoyed to have a daughter that was a nurse, but not hers. “What do you want, mom?”
“I’m sorry, baby. Need you to front me some cash, I’m a little short this month.” This time her mothers voice is dripping with sweetness. But then she utters the amount she needs her daughter to give her, and Billie's stomach clenches in a way it hasn't for a long time.
“I don't have that.”
Jo’s voice is more alert, more panicked. Billie has never really said no to her mother before, she had learnt long ago it was better for everyone to just keep the peace. “Billie, they’re threatening to evict me if I don't come up with it. I can’t go back onto the streets, you won't let that happen with you, please. Billie. Please, baby.”
“I don't have it.” She repeated, “I just had to pay to get the car fixed, remember?”
“Well, why don't you phone Ricky? Pick up a couple of shifts.”
“I’m not phoning Ricky, I don't work there anymore, I don't know how many times I've got to tell you that!” Billie brought her free hand up, pinching the bridge of her nose, trying to stave off the headache she could feel building behind her eyes. “I gotta go, I’ve not slept in 19 hours. I’ll try and figure something out.”
“You’ll sort it out, baby, you always do. You always take such good care of me.”
She didn’t reply, over the conversation before it had started. Hanging up, she let her arm fall to her side and took a deep breath to try to calm herself down.
“Trouble in paradise?” A familiar deep tone came from behind her, causing Billie to flinch as she spun around. Dr. Robby was leaning casually against the wall behind her, he brought his hands up, holding them in front of himself when he realised he had given her a fright. “I didn't mean to sneak up on you. I just came out for some fresh air, and couldn't help but overhear.”
She hesitates, looking out into the empty ambulance bay before looking back at the older man, letting her backpack fall off her shoulder as she walks over to him and settles on the wall next to him. Sighing, she starts, “It’s my mom. We have a…difficult relationship. I’ve spent more time bailing her out financially over the years than what I have in her company. That’s what she was calling for, she's in debt. Threatening her with eviction.”
Robby crosses his arms across his body as he nods in understanding. “That’s a tough one. Is there anyone else who can help out?”
“No.” She replies. “It’s always just been us, you know?”
“Do you have the money? I could, or Jack-”
“Why would Dr. Abbot give me money?” She challenges, cutting him off. She knows the two men are close, probably the closest thing either of them have to a best friend and have known each other a long time but Billie wonders how much the older man sat next to her knows about what had been happening with Jack.
“No, I, just. I mean, I-” It’s almost fun, watching him try to stutter out a response he thinks he can get away with. He definitely knows something, but she wonders if he knows it’s over. Finished. That even if she had wanted to ask Jack for a loan when they had been sleeping together, which she loathed the thought of having to do, she wasn't in the position to do so now. Thankfully they’re both saved by Dana approaching them, appearing from between the sliding doors, obviously looking for him.
“Robby, we got a double trauma coming in hot.” She announces, phone to her ear. “Everything okay?”
“Oh yeah, everything’s fine. Just Dr. Robinavitch offering to be my sugar daddy.” She laughs it off, ignoring the quick snap of Robby’s head towards her in shock and Dana’s confused face. She stands, giving him a wink before swinging her backpack back into place and walking away from the pair.
**
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pairing: Jack Abbot x surgical resident!reader
summary: your work’s been leaving you exhausted, but you’re struggling to fall asleep, you barely can relax. Javadi recommends you an audio erotica app. and it does help you unwind. until you realize that the orgasmic raspy voice in your headphones belongs to one of your attendings — none other than Jack Abbot.
warnings: implied age gap (that you can ignore); mutual pining, Jack isn’t that good at flirting when he catches feelings. he compensates for it with his other talents 😏 smut {dirty talk, masturbation, praise kink, teasing, fingering (with two hands, idk if that’s a thing?), piv, aftercare}; Park is an unintentional wingman, Javadi is the bestest of friends / words: 13K / author’s note: this was suuuper unplanned, I wrote the whole thing in a couple of days. is the smut too detailed? maybe. idc ♡ READ ON AO3 / MASTERLIST
Late in the evening, the cafeteria makes for a perfect place for naps.
With day and night shifts overlapping, everyone’s busy with the paperwork and greetings, and that’s when you prefer to slip away. You aren’t alone at this uncommon hiding spot — Santos already dozed off at a table further off, earbuds in, hood up. She can sleep anywhere and anytime. But you aren’t that lucky.
You spent ten minutes genuinely trying — deep breaths, and meditation, and counting sheep. Now you’re just sulking, helpless against your permanent exhaustion. You catch the footsteps first — quick, quiet, a woman on a mission. The door creaks just a little when it opens.
Closes.
You know the quiet won’t last long.
“I can feel you staring. You’d suck as a spy,” you say, grudgingly opening one eye to see Javadi leaning on the fridge door.
She shakes her head — half disapproval, half concern. “You know, each time I see you here, I’m not sure if you’re asleep or dead.”
“And they let you talk to suicidal people like that? Maybe I plan on walking out of the nearest window.”
“You won’t make it that far,” she chuckles and hands it to you — her peace offering: a frozen Butter Pecan Swirl, topped with whipped cream and sprinkled with crushed nuts. It’s like an orgasm in a cup (a huge one), which you are happy to accept.
Javadi sits right next to you, concern still very present in her deer-like dark eyes. “I think even the patients on a psych hold look better than you do.”
“Wow, that comparison really cheered me up. You should be thankful, by the way,” you’re savouring the icy, jarringly sweet drink. “If I didn’t look like death, you’d still be dreaming about getting into surgical residency. My eyebags changed the course of your life. You’re welcome.”
“I am forever in your debt. I’ll pay it off with coffee,” she smiles and leans back on the wall, stretching her legs out — black scrubs pants, grey sneakers, a sigh of relief.
And you think — suddenly and stupidly, because that’s how your brain’s now wired — of that one time Jack brought you the same drink. Sat with you on this same spot. Looked at you with his eyes crinkled at the corners, his usual smirk turned into a softer smile. You don’t even remember what he talked about, but the feeling stayed: of just how calm his presence made you. How comforting it was.
For a good minute, your coffee loses taste.
You blink. Take another sip. Look up — and see him walking through the door. And then it feels like you’re losing it in general. You pinch yourself. He doesn’t disappear.
“Long time no see,” Jack says, very much real. Casual. He goes to look for something in the fridge, a crumb of time for you to get yourself together. Then he looks back at you. “Tough shift?”
Tough week. Or month. Actually, life’s been pretty tough since you stopped working by his side. But you remind yourself that it was your decision.
“Bearable,” you say, pretending to take interest in the thick swirls of syrup on the inside of your cup. Hoping he’d take a hint. And yet, despite him being good at many things, Jack is perpetually bad at leaving you alone.
You left him first. You thought he’d hate you.
Instead, you hear his voice tinged with warmth:
“Didn’t you just patch up the guy with a ruptured aorta? That was badass.”
His compliment feels like a glass of water, and you’ve been parched with thirst.
“Yeah,” you meet his gaze, because you’ve missed him terribly. He’s looking at you like he hoped you would. And you can’t help the smile. “I guess it was.”
He doesn’t stop there. He comes a step closer, crossing his arms over his chest — unreasonably, sinfully buff arms — and stares straight at you:
“Remind me where’d you learned that clamping trick?”
He’s being smug now, and you have missed this too. Slowly, the room is narrowing to the small space he takes. A smirk tugs at the corner of his mouth. “I might have more tricks up my sleeve. Can teach you somethin' else.”
He holds your gaze. Pins you to the spot with his. And just as always, he makes you feel like no one in the world exists except you two —
But you aren’t really alone.
You catch movement out of the corner of your eye. No doubt, it’s Javadi wishing she could blend in with the wall. And when you snap back to reality, Jack follows.
He clears his throat, taking a step back. “Teach you in the ER, I mean. If you want to or—or if you ever decide to come back, you know. But no pressure or anything.”
“I’ll keep that in mind, Dr. Abbot,” you tell him, in the politest tone that you can master. Already grieving that small moment you knew could never last.
Javadi can barely wait for him to leave — before her face breaks into a smile. “Aw, he has a crush on you.”
“Which you have told me a dozen times, and I’ll continue to reply that no, he doesn’t,” although your own face treacherously heats up.
“He flirted with you just now.”
“He flirts with everyone. He’s like an energy vampire, that’s why he doesn’t look his age.”
Trinity groans somewhere behind you. She takes her earbuds out and sits up, stretching her shoulders. “To be fair, his flirting isn’t that impressive.”
“I think half of the ER would disagree,” Javadi eagerly retorts. If there’s one thing these two don’t ever get tired of, it’s bickering.
“Oh no, he is charming. With everyone but her,” Trinity turns to you with a shit-eating grin. “With you, he’s awkward. Which, don’t get me wrong, is hilarious to witness. But Crash does have a point — he’s totally into you.”
“Did you two just agree on something? I must be hallucinating.”
Javadi rolls her eyes. Santos just huffs a laugh. She grabs her backpack, smartphone and an already opened silvery-blue can.
“He’s also been very moody since you moved to the upper floor. Just saying,” she winks at you and walks out, loudly gulping her Red Bull.
Your mood hasn’t been good either. It gets a little worse once you realise you reached the bottom of your frothy drink. And somehow, your second wind didn’t kick in.
“Can you develop a high tolerance to coffee? I feel like I should be way more awake. This cup is literally the size of a newborn.”
“Babe, you know there’s barely any coffee in it,” Javadi says, no judgment, just a little bit of pity. “You just crave sugar because your body needs some fuel to continue functioning.”
“But what if coffee isn’t working anymore... What’s the next best option? Cocaine?”
“You can’t afford cocaine.”
“I’ll sell a kidney.”
“Can’t do that either, you need them both.”
“I didn’t say I would sell mine.”
The laugh she gives you sounds half-hearted. Her face looks serious when she notes. “I know that humour is your defensive mechanism, but sometimes it’s okay to actually talk about what’s bothering you.”
“I’m very bothered by the amount of unsolicited therapy you keep bringing into our friendship,” you quip. And your regret is instant. “Sorry, I genuinely don’t remember the last time I slept for more than five hours.”
“Has Park been riding you too much? You know you are allowed to take breaks, even if he doesn’t think so.”
“No, it’s not that I don’t have free time, I just— I can’t fall asleep. I drag my feet and doze off ten times a day, but the second my head hits the pillow — nothing. My body is not... bodying or whatever the fuck it’s called.”
And then you watch her worry bleed into a different expression. She looks at you, a little coy, a little bit excited.
“I might have an idea. But I need you not to laugh at me.”
“Vic, I am physically closer to a zombie than to a human being. If there’s any way to help me fall asleep faster, I’ll try it.”
“Okay, there’s this app... With a collection of audios. Recorded by men and women, you can pick. They sort of play out different imaginary scenarios, like meeting you for the first time and getting to know each other. And maybe, like, kissing or —”
“Just to clarify, you recommend that I listen to some porn?” you’re trying to drag out some of the whipped cream with a straw.
“It’s not porn!” she hisses, adorably ashamed. “I mean, not always. They aren’t all explicit. The ones I’ve listened to, they were... Really immersive. And it just feels nice. Helps to take your mind off things. I don’t know, I kinda thought you’d be into it.”
“Masturbation? I feel like I should be offended.”
“No, the whole... Talking thing.”
With your mouth full, you raise a brow at her, somewhat confused.
“I mean, isn’t that why you liked working with Abbot? He was explaining everything to you, always talked you through the procedures and stuff. And now you are super annoyed because Park barely speaks. Just glares at people.”
“I assure you, I’m not at all annoyed that my attending does not turn me on.”
Javadi giggles, leaning toward you. “So what you’re saying is that... Abbot turned you on?”
“You know what, now I actually want to kill myself.”
“No, you still have an hour of your shift left. And then,” she rubs your arm with small, comforting circles, back to her serious self. “You will come home, take a scalding shower, just as you like it, pop in a couple of melatonin gummies, and get some sleep.”
“Those gummies don’t do shit. I ate four last time and then stared at the ceiling for two hours.”
She playfully nudges your shoulder with hers. “Well, there’s always another option,” Javadi laughs at your grimace and gets up. “I need to go back to other unstable people. Text me when you get home. I’m serious.”
“Will do, mom.”
She flips you off on her way out.
Whatever little caffeine’s been in your drink, it helps you look less dead and more like a person who can be trusted with a scalpel. The OR floor is quiet and cool, and from afar, Park can be mistaken for a statue: a tall body made of sharp lines and muscles, staying completely still as he looks through a patient’s file.
He waits for you to reach the nursing station. Gives you one quick look, his eyes deep blue, cold like ice.
“Got enough coffee to keep you standing? Don’t want to scrape you off the floor.”
You give him a dry chuckle. “When have you ever scraped me off the floor?”
One corner of his mouth moves up, merely an inch. “Fair,” he says, his gaze back to the tablet. “I’d like for it to stay that way.”
“So who’s the last one for today? Anything exciting?”
“Male, 63, a proximal humerus fracture. It’s all in his file. I’ll see you in ten.”
Big fucking thanks for the detailed reply.
“They say that brevity is the soul of wit, but no one tells you it’s also such a mood killer,” you mutter, not bothering to keep your voice down.
Park makes a sound that’s more of a long hum than a real laugh. He throws the words over his shoulder: “I’ll let you do the CRPP.”
“Thanks, I’m smiling on the inside.”
He never really smiles. Or says more than he needs to. And sometimes you’re thankful that he doesn’t: it unironically makes him almost the perfect mentor for you.
Unlike the previous one.
You may never admit it out loud, but you’ve come to enjoy working with Park. He’s harsh at times, yes, but he is also quick and talented and not that bad at teaching. The problem isn’t that he doesn’t talk much. You don’t mind doing your own research, and you’re actually okay with him being closed off.
The real problem is Jack Abbot. Who has been driving you insane.
At first, there were no signs of trouble.
You picked the night shift for your rotation because you’ve always been more of a night owl, and you enjoyed the challenge that comes with the variety of traumas. You two clicked from day one — Jack carried just the right amount of confidence to seem trustworthy, but his male ego didn’t get offended by someone else’s talent. He smiled at you and made small talk and always offered answers to your questions. He also smiled and talked to literally everybody else, so you didn’t think much of it. At least, you tried not to. You told yourself that you came to the ER to learn, that you wouldn’t allow your feelings to interrupt your job.
Even when said feelings turned into a crush. That felt like an addiction.
It started with you waiting. Wanting. More of his words, his gaze, his flattering attention. Jack always knew exactly how to land a compliment — his words were short, sure. Accompanied by that hint of a smile. He’d stand close, just on the edge of inappropriately close, his steady voice providing guidance. He’d push you when he knew that you could handle it. He’d tell you all the necessary steps and walk you through them and somehow make you feel like you succeeded on your own. “Yes, that’s the move.” “Look at you taking risks, kid.” “Good” —
— “girl”, you wanted Jack to add.
So good for him, you wanted him to think.
You wanted him. God knows, you wanted him so badly.
It didn’t help that Shen soon started calling you “Jack’s favorite”. Sometimes in front of Abbot, who hasn’t denied it once. Ellis discreetly (so she thought) tried leaving you alone with him more often. And even Crus once told you that you were the only resident Jack paid so much attention to.
It could’ve been a picture-perfect start of a love story, if only not for one crucial piece missing: Jack never crossed the line.
Even after you’ve caught his gaze lingering, his hands reaching for you, his warmth grazing your shoulder or your spine. On more than one occasion. And still, it led nowhere. There were no accidental touches, no flirting outside of the ER, he didn’t even try to get your number.
Inevitably, it made you feel self-conscious. Stupid. Pathetic even. What’s worse, his presence was distracting, and losing focus was the one thing you absolutely couldn’t do.
So you looked for a way out that’d let you save your dignity and your career. Switching to surgery helped you with both. Despite the fact that you had to restart your year. Despite seeing the very obviously hurt expression on Jack’s face when you informed him. He didn’t try to stop you, though. You didn’t tell him why exactly you were leaving. Instead, you dived right into work: from dealing with small fractures and arthritis to sports injuries, torn muscles, spinal disorders and crushed bones. It was in no way easy, but it felt empowering — knowing that you could fix something so strong and weighty, the living tissues made of minerals and collagen, the bony structure that allows people to move.
And on the rare occasions your paths crossed, Abbot kept being friendly. But you kept your distance.
Even if deep down, you still missed him.
His gaze, his guidance. Most of all, his voice.
It takes you two more days to finally give up and ask Javadi about the app.
Hey, so that app that’s totally not audio porn... Can you please give me the name. And then forget I asked.
Actually, forgetting might not be enough. Next time you come over, I’ll need you to swear on the Bible.
There’s no way you have a Bible at home.
Well, another option is a blood oath.
I’m this 🤏 close to admitting you into our psych ward.
Just say you miss me and want to see me more often. There’s no shame in it!
Please, get fucked (literally 😛).
You click the App Store link she sent, then press on the newly downloaded icon on the screen.
The layout is pretty simple — pale colors, normal-sized fonts, a short video guide. You don’t waste time and tap on the male voices' section to look through their audio titles. They aren’t at all exhilarating. A Trip to the G-spot (thanks, been there), Hold on to my nuts! (yikes), Your Daddy’s Home (double yikes), The Song of Praise and Cum (this calls for a lobotomy). You spend another minute on it, already battling frustration — and you’re about to log off, when finally a title catches your attention:
A Helping Hand.
“Okay, a little on the nose,” you mumble to yourself.
It is a series of recordings, about half an hour each. It seems that he is relatively new, but he’s got great reviews. His nickname is Nightcrawler. He has no profile photo. His bio says: “I guess, this is my new hobby.”
You’re positive that it won’t work on you.
You take a shower, put on your pajamas and your noise-cancelling headphones. You sit in bed, your back against the pillows. With zero expectations (except maybe to find it all ridiculous and cringe).
You press play.
At first, there’s just silence.
And then he starts, his voice unhurried like a rustle of the wind:
“Hi, baby. You look so tired,” he murmurs. “You’ve had a hard day, I can tell.”
You pause immediately. But not because you hate it. It startles you — how much you like him from the get-go, how just a sentence of this stranger’s voice made heat flash in your stomach.
You try to sit a little straighter. Then press play again.
“All that tension in your body, that slight soreness of your muscles... We really need to do something about it, honey. I can’t have you going to sleep so tense.”
Yeah, you don’t want that either.
His every quiet word strikes home: your limbs are heavy with exhaustion, your mind is clouded with it. You let out a breath you didn’t realize that you were holding. And you don’t think that him saying all that is a hell of a coincidence. Instead, it actually feels nice: for someone else to talk about your struggles. For it to sound like understanding.
“Don’t worry, I can fix that. You just lie down and listen to my voice.”
So you slide lower in your bed, the pillows now behind your head and shoulders. And when he asks to close your eyes, you do.
You follow every single one of his instructions. His raspy, gently voiced commands: he’s telling you to take deep breaths, to slowly stretch out your arms and legs, to draw small circles over your temples, to put your hands lower and massage your neck. He’s telling you he wishes he was there to help you. That he would know exactly where to rub and press. And that his fingers would’ve felt much better.
Then he’s instructing you to put hands on your chest, to run them up and down your body to get your blood flowing. You do just that. And soon you feel your skin prickle with warmth.
“Need you to relax, to shut off that beautiful brain of yours,” he says, with a controlled and hushed insistence. “Don’t think about anything. It’s just you and me, sweetheart.”
Your thoughts are light; there’s nothing on your mind but him. Your muscles pliantly unravel as he continues speaking. About how warm your skin must feel, how pretty you are looking — laid out for him on your bedcovers. And there’s another feeling that feeds off his voice: a spark of fire that grows and spreads and makes you ache for more.
You hear him telling you to move your hands down to your stomach. He says he wishes he could touch you there, to slowly drag his fingers down to your navel —
“Wish I could feel how wet you are right now.”
Your eyelids flutter open.
You probably should’ve predicted this turn of events. And truthfully, you aren’t as opposed to it as you thought you would be. You’re just not sure it will work. But when you slide your hand beneath the waistband of your panties —
you find the fabric in between your legs already soaked.
All that from someone talking to you nicely?
There must be something in his voice.
That same voice whispers:
“Touch yourself.”
Barely a second passes before you do.
This isn’t your first time, but somehow, it feels very different. More satisfying. Way more intimate. Pads of your fingers move against your clit, exactly how he tells you:
“want you to go slow for me, baby. rub it in circles, ju-ust like that,”
“apply more pressure with your index finger — feels good, yeah? c’mon, don’t stop,”
“now move a little lower, feel what a mess you’re making. I know you must be dripping”.
He’s right, you are. And then your eyes fall shut again, a whimper tumbling from your lips.
“I bet you’d feel so tight around my fingers,” he says hoarsely, making you clench around nothing.
If he was here, in your room, you’d shamelessly beg for more. A long-forgotten pleasure starts coiling in your stomach.
“Want you to put a finger in,” he orders. “Imagine that it’s mine.”
You start with one. Just one, and yet, it’s getting difficult to focus on his words. And fleetingly, with your chest heaving, you wonder what his fingers would feel like. As if he reads — or guesses — where your thoughts are wandering, he tells you, a smirk heard in his voice:
“But mine would be a lot thicker, so I need you to add another one,” — you slip the second finger in, and he lets out a hum, like he can see you, — “There you go. Don’t rush it, we’ve got time. I’d never rush it with you, honey.”
Despite you trying to move slowly, you’re getting dangerously close to cumming. You want to drag it out, you do, but he is making it too hard. When he is whispering to spread your legs wider. To set a rhythm, to start moving your hips a little. When he is telling you that you’re doing so good.
When he wants you to use your free hand to touch your nipples. When he says, teasingly, how much he wishes he could put his lips on you.
When you can hear him sigh, like all this also turns him on.
“Want you to go faster,” his words come out in low grunts. “Yes, keep going, don’t stop. Keep fucking yourself. Need to get you loosened up and ready for me. Fuck, your cunt would feel so perfect wrapped around my cock —”
Your orgasm crashes over you, sudden and shuddering.
You’re gasping, too loudly to hear what he is saying, your body floating in the waves of bliss. It takes a moment for you to catch your breath.
The audio ends abruptly on his own heavy breathing.
You are left stupefied and sweaty. And satisfied beyond description. Your headphones end up thrown across the bed, but you’re too tired to move an inch. It is a very pleasant kind of tired.
Before you know it, you are fast asleep.
What’s meant to be just a one-off soon turns into a habit. And you don’t really feel ashamed about it.
There is a certain thrill to it — having a secret you don’t want to share, the one thing you can’t wait to get home to. It does help you to take the edge off, yes: with just his words, he makes your tension melt away, makes all the worries disappear. Leaving you dazed and gasping at the thought of how good he’d fuck you.
But sometimes, as you come down from your high, your thighs wet and hands trembling, and he is soothing you back into consciousness — the stranger’s voice reminds you of Jack’s.
It can’t be him, of course.
You wish it was.
You also wish you could move on. Unstitch him from your memories that he’s been woven into, his face and arms and words seemingly always on your mind. They shouldn’t be, not when your feelings are so obviously one-sided.
So, since you’re able to wake up well-rested, you start to pile on more work.
You take your time to learn about non-invasive treatments: you get to know the PTMC’s physician and psychiatrist, you print out studies about injections and post-operative care, you spend your breaks leafing through the countless pages. You learn fast. You grab at every chance to practice. You ask to scrub in on some of Garcia’s cases, you’re lucky to assist Javadi’s mother a few times. And even though you feel that Park’s a little bit suspicious of your ardor, he asks no questions.
You don’t see Jack. He’s still on nights, and you are mostly up in the OR, and even when you do come down, you do your best to stay away. You hope that a tight schedule and your daily orgasms will be enough of a distraction. That at some point, your crush will quietly die down.
It’s no surprise that you’re working on the 4th.
And it’s predictably a shitshow: the waiting room is packed with patients, swamped with the summer heat, every new injury is worse — and way more gruesome — than the other. You deal with fractured, broken bones, you get to help with torn-off fingers, bashed-in skulls and penetrating wounds. You rush from one OR into the other. You barely get time to take a breath. And once you finally do, you get called down to the ER.
“Look who it is. Since when does surgery send its best residents to us poor mortals?” Robby puts on a smile to greet you.
“Garcia is still operating on Howard, Park’s dealing with your water slide case. I’m just happy to treat someone with intact bones for a change.”
“Can’t promise it will be a pretty sight.”
“Didn’t count on it.”
He cackles, his gloved hand pointing toward the sliding doors the gurneys come through. “Here’s the reason we called for a consult. Yours is the one with Old Glory jammed in his chest.”
And in the next second, your own chest tightens, anxiety bruising your ribcage like a seatbelt in a crash. Because the aforementioned patient is rolled in by Jack.
He doesn’t see you yet. You can’t help but notice — the tension roped around his back, the sheen of sweat around his forehead, faint sleepless shadows spilled under his eyes. Reflexively, you step out of the way so he can move down the hall without bumping into you. So you can stay unnoticed.
The injured man is in the middle of a screaming match with some guy whose cheek is slashed in half.
“I’m gonna take that thing out of my chest and shove it down your ass!”
“You hit me with a fucking Rolling Rock, man!”
“Because you are a cheater! And now my chest fucking hurts!”
“You’re the one who broke the rules! You know every detail must be —”
“Take yours into trauma 2 before I go deaf on one ear,” Abbot mumbles to Ellis, then tries to shush his patient. It isn’t working.
And you can tell that Jack is low on patience.
He grips the gurney with both hands and pushes it into the room, his voice coming out low and clipped:
“Sir, we are gonna get you more pain meds, but you need to shut your fucking mouth.”
It is a quick remark, maybe a little out of his character — too blunt, too rude; although acceptable under the current circumstances. And in the never-ending noise and busyness of the ER no one would ever waste their time on lecturing him. You aren’t even sure they heard.
But you freeze. As if a bomb just went off. The world around you is momentarily devoid of all the other sounds.
It isn’t the specific words, but the emotions you could hear behind them — intensity Jack usually reigns in, the punctuated heat of anger that slipped through his “shut” and “fucking”. You aren’t surprised he said those words. Or used that tone. Or lost his self-restraint for a few seconds.
You’re struck by the realization that you have heard him talk like that before.
“If his heart was damaged, he surely wouldn’t be yelling,” Robby comes up to you, eyeing the rowdy patient. “But the stabbing’s definitely within the cardiac box. What do you think?”
“Cardiac box it is. I’d bet on a pneumothorax,” you say, on some miraculous autopilot. But you aren’t looking at the patient.
Jack grabs the scissors to remove the man’s clothes, his hands working around the wooden stick he is impaled on; his gaze grazes you. On accident or maybe out of habit Jack hasn’t managed to unlearn. He turns to throw away the ruined, blood-stained fabric — then stops. And then his eyes come back to you, this time with purpose. He meets your gaze, his own confused a little, one of his brows crawling up. Because you’re staring at him, and he has no idea why.
It’s almost funny to imagine how you’d explain to him your stupor. Hey, Jack, is there a chance you like recording steamy audios? 'Cause I believe that I’ve been getting off to the sound of your voice.
But at the moment, you aren’t laughing.
You make an effort to drag your gaze away, your heartbeat loud in your ears. This can’t be happening. It cannot actually be him.
“Do an ultrasound to get a confirmation, I’ll go up to prep the OR,” you say to Robby flatly, eager to leave the room, to have a minute to yourself.
You take the stairwell, thoughts rushing as your feet are. And very quickly, your shock gives way to irritation. Surely, Jack is allowed to do whatever in his free time. But now that you suspect it’s him — his low voice that is so masterful at saying all those dirty things — you don’t think you’ll be able to relax. It would also be kinda inappropriate to continue listening to that.
But then you spend another seven hours on your feet. Three surgeries, two breaks (about ten minutes in total), a lot of blood and bones, a few of Park’s dry words. You miss the fireworks, the get-together with your former colleagues, the friendly chatter that maybe could’ve helped you to unwind. And by the time you cross the hall of your apartment, you find it hard to care about propriety.
You put the headphones on, fully aware that you’re about to hear Jack.
It doesn’t ruin things for you. It only turns you on instead.
Because it’s not some random guy — it’s Jack who puts you on all fours. Jack who tells you to put your fingers in your mouth. To suck them, to then take them deeper, to gag on them, just like he could’ve made you gag around his cock.
“Ass up for me, baby,” he instructs, his every word now carrying more weight — you cannot stop imagining him being here, whispering it all into your ear. “Bet your pussy is wet enough to take two fingers right away. C’mon, be a good girl. Show me.”
You never even think about reaching for your toys. You don’t need to: not when his voice alone makes waves of heat roll through your body, makes you pulsate with want, moan with longing.
“Want you to think of my cock slowly stretching you,” Jack rasps, “Because it’s all I think about,” and you’re imagining his chest pressed to your back, the sounds he would make while thrusting deep, deeper, relentless movement of his hips, his lips grazing your neck, “I know you’ll take my cock so well. Like it was made for fucking you.”
His big hands roaming over your body. His hot breath on your skin. Him, him, it has always been him.
“I’d make you feel so good. Until you drip all over my cock. Until you’re sobbing for me to fill you up,” he whispers heatedly. “I will. Just so I can fuck my cum back into you when we go for round two. I know my girl is always greedy for more.”
And he is right, you would be.
“Like you were made for it. For me.”
You cum as hard as always, breathless and shaking. And this time, with his name helplessly gasped against your pillow. A few long seconds after that, in your sweet postorgasmic haze, you get a very clear thought: you still want Jack, now more than ever.
And you two really need to talk.
You press Call before you can come up with yet another argument for why this is a bad idea. She picks up in four seconds, but you don’t let her say a word.
“Hey, so do remember when you guys went out last time, and I couldn’t go because of that leg amputation thing, and you told me you ended up in some new bar, with those big plants or whatever, and Abbot was there too?”
“Wow, are you already on cocaine?” Javadi laughs.
“No, I just had a good night of sleep, so please keep up. You’re coming to the same bar this Friday, right?”
“Yep, that’s the plan. You decided to join us?”
“I’m thinking about it. But I’m gonna be at least an hour late, cause I’d have to get home to change and then —”
“Or you can just come right after work. The place isn’t that fancy. You can do casual.”
“I don’t want casual. I wear jeans 360 days a year, it’d be nice to actually feel pretty for once.”
“Oh, cut the crap, I know you’d look great in anything!”
“That’s very kind of you to say, but I’m not calling to discuss my wardrobe. I was wondering if you can... If by any chance Jack shows up again —”
“O-ooh.”
“No, don’t oh at me. You don’t even know what I’m about to ask.”
“If Abbot shows up, I’m gonna tell him that you are coming too, so he’ll stay and wait for you.”
“Okay, you can add mind-reading to your resume, you witch.”
“You’re both kinda predictable,” Javadi notes with a chuckle. “When he came last time, he left immediately after he found out you weren’t there.”
“Or he just remembered he left the stove on and didn’t want his flat to burn down. It’s not like he explicitly told you why he was leaving.”
“He didn’t need to,” she argues. “He came in, went straight to the bar where we were hanging out, ordered a beer and managed the small talk for barely a minute before he flat-out asked if you were there. Looked like a kicked puppy when I told him you didn’t come. Wished us a good night and took off, didn’t even take his beer.”
That does sound like he came to see you. You find it cute. But only for a moment — until you get a stinging thought: if he wanted to see you outside of work, why has he never asked you out?
“I’ll text you when I’m done,” you say, trying to sound unconcerned, unruffled by the possibility of your months-long feelings being reciprocated. “The spinal fusion should take about three hours.”
“Ugh, it sounds so cool when you say it, but then I remember what that process actually is like.”
“It is pretty cool.”
“And I am very glad you think that,” she’s quick to reassure. “Go fuse some vertebrae, so we’ll have something to drink to!”
The surgery takes four hours.
It is a slow, meticulous procedure accompanied by Park’s curt advice and your own strategic guesses — and usually, something like that would leave you drained. Hardly in the mood for socializing. But this evening, you step out of the OR with a wide grin.
“Good call about rotating the metal plates,” Park says, his voice emotionless. Like he’s not sure himself that it’s a compliment.
Still, you take it.
“Thank you, I did some reading beforehand,” you tell him, throwing away your dirty gloves and gown. “Should help with healing, too. But knock on wood, we’ll see what his post-op scans show.”
And you’re already doing some non-work-related calculations in your head. 10 minutes on filling out the patient’s file, 10 more for ordering a cab and waiting for it, then if you’re lucky, you’ll be home in 20 —
“Abbot was right about you.”
That makes you stop. Makes an uncomfortable feeling settle in your stomach. You haven’t seen Brendon and Jack talk once. And you cannot imagine them talking about you.
You turn to Park, not smiling anymore:
“Care to explain?”
“He wrote you a recommendation letter. Didn’t he tell you?” he casually clarifies. “Not that I asked for it. But he delivered it himself, four pages in Times New Roman,” the straight line of his mouth curves a little. Almost a smirk, but not unkind. And he does seem sincere when he adds, “Abbot was right, you are great. Glad to have you on our team.”
“Hold on. I just want to get a few facts straight,” and your tone is astonishingly calm, despite it feeling like your blood is simmering. “So he came to you. With a printed-out letter. And then what, you guys talked?”
“Yes. About the letter.”
“About me, you mean.”
“The letter was about your competence and skills. What else was there to discuss,” he deadpans. “Is this interrogation over?”
“Oh, come on, that was only two questions. Don’t act like I am waterboarding you,” you huff, hands on your hips.
Park breathes out through his nose, then shakes his head. You’re half expecting him to grouse about it some more. But he does what you expect the least.
“He talks about you, you talk about him,” Park muses coolly. “You guys just need to fuck it out.”
He shoves his own gown in the trash, turns on his heels and leaves.
And under other circumstances, you would’ve been so glad to hear it. Jack talked about you! Jack seems to care!
Except, he had a perfect chance to actually show you that. But on your final day in the ER, he barely said a word. It stayed stuck in your memory, the last nail in the coffin where your hopes were buried: Jack’s weird avoidance, no jokes, no flirting, none of his usual penchant for eye contact. He spent the whole shift painfully indifferent to your departure. Only once you started saying your goodbyes, he came by to wish you luck. To say that he was sure you’d do great. Two sentences was all he managed.
And yet, he had no trouble talking about you with Park?!
You’d really like to get a fucking explanation.
You don’t go home to change. You come straight to the noisy bar, in your plain jeans and baggy shirt. And wrapped up in anger. You scan the crowd for familiar faces and spot Victoria from afar: some tipsy guy is cornering her, wildly gesticulating with his hands. She doesn’t really seem scared, mostly annoyed. But you are in no mood for being civil.
You unceremoniously walk up to them and grab the stranger by the shoulder to pull him back.
“Her face clearly suggests she’s not interested. Get lost.”
“Hello to you too,” he whistles, leering at you. “You wanna be our third, babygirl? I’m always down for... some new experiences.”
“I can help you with that. You ever heard about a comminuted fracture? It’s when a bone is broken in two or more places. Which you are about to experience if you don’t leave in 10 seconds.”
“You’re into human anatomy? That’s hot,” the man grins drunkenly, but his flirting sounds less sure.
“I’m an orthopedic surgeon. There are 3 long bones in your arm, 27 in your hand. Which one would hurt more when broken, how do you think? You’ve got seven seconds. Six —”
“Geez, fucking chill, girl,” he mutters and steps back to hastily retreat.
Javadi snorts a laugh. “Thank you, he was so annoying, I just didn’t want to make a scene. You’d think the "Let’s go, lesbians!" t-shirt would help him get a hint but —” and then she takes you in — your searching gaze and furrowed brows and pursed lips. “What’s wrong?”
“Where’s Abbot?”
“It depends. Am I gonna be an accomplice to murder if I tell you?”
“You may be a witness.”
“I don’t think that’s any better,” but luckily, she knows you well enough to figure out that there’s no point in questions. Javadi holds both hands up in surrender. “Okay-okay, last time I saw him, he was at the bar.”
You go for it, barrelling through the crowd like an icebreaker through the frozen water. You notice Trinity, Dennis, Mel, Frank and Jesse nearby. You only have eyes for one man in particular. But at the long table where the drinks are being poured and paid for, there is no sign of Jack. You stop and wait; one minute, two, three pass by. And just as quickly, your determination crumbles.
You wanted him to tell you that he needed you to stay, all these days back, in person. You wanted him to wait for you today. Both times, he didn’t.
It makes you feel self-conscious again. Stupid. Even more pathetic.
You turn around, suddenly too overwhelmed by your own feelings.
The music is too loud now, the smell of alcohol mixing with sweat and perfume, and making your head hurt. You faintly hear someone call out your name, but you don’t stop, too desperate to get back to the exit. Too tired of waiting for the one thing that clearly isn’t meant to be.
The street is quiet, and the air is cold; it doesn’t help to cool you down. You’re walking a thin line between infuriated and upset. It gnaws away at you — that you spent so much time delusionally sure that Jack felt something for you. Cared for you. You think about his watchful gaze on you, the tension hung between you two, his hands he kept a little bit too close, his words that guided you through surgeries and orgasms, his goddamn voice —
You are so deep in your frustrations, you miss the sound of the door opening, the footsteps rushing toward you.
“Hey,” he says it carefully, and yet, you flinch. You turn around to find Jack standing at arm’s length already. Black jeans, grey t-shirt and black denim jacket; he looks unfairly handsome. He also looks concerned. “Is everything alright? The way you left got me worried.”
“Yeah, everything’s just peachy.”
But Jack ignores your sarcasm — or rather looks right past it, reading the very clear displeasure on your face. “Is it Park? Did something happen?”
And his concern doesn’t sound feigned.
It all comes to your mind at once — the unsaid words, unresolved tension, the longing gazes thrown at each other, the shamefully short distance your bodies never crossed. It roars your emotions to a boil.
“Why does everyone assume— You know what? Park is actually perfect,” you snap at him. “He barely speaks to me in the OR, he hates small talk, he is allergic to long sentences and, I suspect, to any sign of real human emotion. So I just clock in every shift to spend 15 hours trying to help people with very little to no guidance. And turns out, I still rock! Even when my mentor is as emotionally evolved as a toothpick!”
“Ok-kay,” Jack draws, “I’m not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing?”
“It’s freaking amazing. Especially compared to the alternative,” and then you step to him, your palms angrily pushing against his chest. “Because you made me feel like I couldn’t breathe!”
Your hands don’t hurt him. But your words do. His eyes go wide, he’s speechless for a moment. Then slowly, very quietly, Jack says:
“Wait, what?”
“You wrote me a recommendation letter, but you couldn’t say a word when I was leaving? After the months we worked together, all you could manage was good luck? The hell is wrong with you?!” and his shell-shocked expression only spurs you on. “You act all nicely, you’re glued to me in the ER, with your advice and your attention and your— your smirking! And what’s with the intense eye contact? How was I supposed to work with you looking at me like that? You know how hard it was for me to focus?! It’s not like I was holding scalpels half of the time!” you huff angrily.
Still, he isn’t moving.
“Sure, it didn’t mean anything to you, you don’t like me like that. And I love surgery, I’m glad I transferred, I wouldn’t want to waste my time on someone who is emotionally mute. But then I find out — oh, you’re actually very talkative! And it’s not like I wanted to find out, I just needed something to help me unwind, anything, because it’s been so damn exhausting — not just the job, but also you and your mood swings and your stupid voice and—” you cross your arms over your chest and add, with an unbridled boldness, “And honestly? After everything, I should be the one you lend a helping hand to.”
The dim streetlights can offer some discreteness — but not enough to cover the flush of color that spreads over Jack’s cheeks. You don’t back off — instead, you take your phone out and click the app’s icon to show it to him on the screen. His gaze flicks down to it. Then back to your face.
You stare at each other.
And then you think: he is about to tell you you’re an idiot. A sleep-deprived one, because it wasn’t really his voice. He has no clue what you just talked about, he obviously isn’t on any apps nor is he —
Jack breathes out a laugh.
He clasps his hands behind his back, the muscles of his chest pulling his t-shirt tight. His gaze is locked on yours. Then it falls lower — to your lips, then your neck, your chest and stomach, leaving a hot trail down your body.
“It got that bad, huh?” a corner of his mouth twitches up. Not condescending but amused. And then his voice drops — to that exact honeyed murmur that dragged so many orgasms out of you. “F’course, I can help you out. Should’ve asked me sooner, sweetheart.”
The sound knocks the anger out of you. The air, too.
You knew he sounded good on audio, when his words reached you through the headphones, when he so charitably helped you reach your high.
But in reality, he’s lethal.
When this same voice is paired with his gaze, with the intensity and confidence that you’re disarmed by. Entranced by. When Jack comes closer, you stay frozen.
“Mine or yours?” he asks calmly.
“W-what?”
“My place or yours?”
You catch small specks of golden light lost in his hazel eyes. You blink twice to stop staring. “Mine is about 40 minutes away.”
Emotion flashes across his face — surprise that’s borderline on worry. He lets it slide. He takes your hand in his, firmly, putting his fingers between yours.
“I live much closer. My car is parked around the corner,” Jack notes and leads the way, carefully pulling you along.
You let him.
You know it’s impolite to gawk, but you can’t help it — you’re pretty sure his hallway alone can fit half of your flat. It is a spacious, very minimalistic place: tall walls, a lot of lights and very little furniture. You guess that he hand-picked each piece — from wooden shelves and cupboards to small colourful pouffes. You also don’t think he spends too much time in here.
“So how many roommates do you have?” you ask cautiously as you get out of your shoes.
“None,” Jack chuckles. “It’s my apartment.”
“You live here by yourself? This place could fit a football team,” your own chuckle is nervous. As is your involuntary blabbing. “I’m serious, 11 full-grown men could stay here, and half of them won’t even see each other. Is there a bowling alley somewhere? A golf course? Ten jacuzzis? —”
He wraps his arm around your waist, pressing your back into his chest. Solid and warm, and rendering you silent.
“How about I do the talking,” his breath scatters against the side of your neck. Both of his hands find your hips, and very slowly, he turns you to face him. His eyes look a shade darker when he says, “I’ll walk you to the bedroom.”
And then his mouth is on yours.
There is no build-up and no hesitation — he kisses you so hungrily and deeply, like he’s been starving this whole time. Just like you were. Your shuddering breath turns into a moan. His lips move seamlessly, matching his insatiability to yours, in a deliberately slow pace that leaves you dizzy, heated, panting. Your memory is wiped clean of every other man you’ve kissed before him.
You can only crave more.
Jack starts walking without breaking the kiss. He gently pushes you forward, his hands maneuvering your body around the furniture and into doorways — you’re blindly following his lead. Until he stops you.
He tsks against your lips. “Careful, you almost ran into a wall.”
“Well, it’s not like I can really see —”
Jack silences your protests with another kiss, one of his palms laid flat over your spine to steady you. Not once do you take a peek at your surroundings, entirely too focused on the movement of his mouth, and with his every touch, your heart grows louder.
All of a sudden, your legs bump into something — and in a second, your back hits layers of bedcovers, the fabric silky to the touch. You exhale shakily, taking a couple of seconds to collect yourself. The task proved to be impossible under his heavy stare.
The room is dim, drowned in the colors of the sunset that sinks in through the big uncovered windows. He took the jacket off somewhere along the way, and you watch as the coppery light sneaks into his curls, contours the lines of veins and muscles of his arms, his body standing right next to the bed, legs almost touching yours.
You guess that he is stalling in case you want to stop.
“Aren’t you gonna tell me what to do?” you want your words to sound like a challenge — instead, they come out as a plea.
You don’t mind. There’s nothing on your mind but him.
Jack gives you just a ghost of a smile, a low hum coming from deep in his chest.
“Ask me nicely,” he says, in that gravelly voice that makes desire spark up in your bloodstream.
And he already knows that he won’t meet resistance — Jack leans over the bed, palms firmly gliding up your thighs until he finds the zipper of your jeans. He takes the slider between two fingers but doesn’t pull it down. And you’re glad that you aren’t standing, because the way he’s staring at you makes your whole body weak, your bones and muscles turning liquid.
“Please, I’ll do anything,” you whisper.
You do not need to ask him twice.
Jack yanks the slider down and pulls your jeans — down to your knees, then fully off. He parts your thighs with his leg, his gaze drawn to your panties, to where the fabric is already dampened with your arousal. You watch him slowly wet his lips, your body shivering in anticipation of his touch. And then he’s climbing on the bed, his body propped up on his arms, his weight between your thighs. He doesn’t hover over you — because he’s equally impatient: instead, he leans down to eagerly capture your mouth with his.
His lips trap you in place — while his hands undress you: his fingers are unbuttoning your shirt to take it off, then sliding beneath your cotton tanktop, dragging it up over your ribcage —
then Jack sucks in a breath.
His words are muffled, his lips brushing yours:
“No bra?”
“I don’t— don’t like the feeling of it,” you explain bashfully.
That earns you a pleased smirk. He actually pulls back to take a look, to hastily pull your last piece of clothing off. Then Jack ducks his head.
“And how’d you like this?” he asks before catching your nipple into his mouth.
You cry out at the sensation, and Jack uses one hand to pin you to the bed. He pulls more sounds out of you, swirling his tongue around your nipples, biting and sucking at them, his hunger mixed with admiration. Your heartbeat’s pounding in your ears, the pleasure surging through you like a heat wave —
But unexpectedly, Jack pulls away.
He reaches out to click the lamp on the nightstand. The light is faint, warm, draping your shadows over the silk. Jack lies down on his side, keeping his face close to yours.
“Show me how you do it.”
“You— Um. You want me to show you how—”
“Touch yourself for me,” he orders.
Blood rushes to your cheeks. But you comply, too eager for his praise. For all of his recorded promises to finally come true.
Jack watches raptly as your hand moves lower, slowly, just like he taught you the first time — until your fingers dip under the fabric of your underwear. You bite your lower lip, stifling a whimper, feeling the arousal leaking out of you. You spread your legs wider, the thin cotton not leaving much to the imagination as you start toying with your clit.
Jack swallows noisily, his breath uneven. But his voice stays measured. “I want these off. Need to see you, baby.”
You hook your thumbs under your panties and tug them off, a bit too hastily, but Jack makes no attempts to slow you down. Although unvoiced, his own desire is so palpable, it sets your nerves on fire. And when the cool air grazes your wetness, you can’t help but moan.
You do not wait for his command — you spread your legs further apart, your fingers drawn to rub your aching clit. You feel Jack’s cheek pressed to your shoulder, his gaze glued to your hand.
“So what’s the preference? Do you like circling it or just the up-and-down motion?” he muses with a grin. “I see, I have some room for improvisation,” and then his breath skates up your throat, the words mouthed against your pulse point, “You’re doing so good for me. You can pick up the pace.”
You do immediately, your movements quick and frantic, and Jack’s not keeping his hands to himself. He cups your breast, pinching your nipple into a peak, rolling it expertly between his fingers, his lips wrapped tightly around the other one. Your back is arching into his touch, heat pooling in your lower belly, your fingers gliding faster up and down your slit — and then one slips inside.
Jack pulls his mouth off with a pop. “Would you look at that,” his voice is low, teasing, “Your pussy’s drooling all over the bed.” And then he smiles, hungrily baring his teeth, grazing your collarbone with them as his palm lies flat on the inside of your thigh. “Go ahead, make yourself cum.”
He is still clothed, and the material of his t-shirt rubs constantly against your naked skin as he continues his arousing, agonizing torture. You feel him everywhere — Jack’s warm breath on your neck, your cheek, his mouth placing kisses along your jaw. His hands are steadying your body as your two fingers plunge into your cunt, as you’re so diligently coaxing yourself into an orgasm. But something’s missing.
“What’s wrong? Your fingers aren’t enough?” Jack taunts. “Does my girl want me to help her?”
You nod desperately, rocking your hips into your hand, trying to get some extra friction, trying and failing to reach that sweet high on your own. He easily catches your wrist, forcing you to halt all movement, your moans reduced to needy cries.
“Tell me what you want,” Jack whispers, lips to your ear.
“I w-want your fingers. Need your fingers inside me, please —”
But just as you’re about to pull your hand away, he covers it with his.
His wide palm firmly cups your mound, pushing your fingers back into your clenching hole. Jack drags his index and middle fingers through your folds, collecting your creamy arousal. And then he eases his slicked digits into you.
He watches as your lips part in a silent moan, your thighs twitching involuntarily as you’re adjusting to the fullness. With two of your fingers already in, it is a very tight fit.
“Relax for me. I know you can take all four,” Jack coos, although his voice gets a bit strained as he feels your walls clamp down around him.
Your hand stays limp, so he pulls his thick fingers out — then ramms them back in, knuckles-deep. A choked cry leaves your mouth; but you don’t try to crawl away from the intrusion. He puts your fingers between his and starts moving them all together, unhurriedly, carefully stretching your wet cunt, the heel of his palm grinding against your clit, your juices trickling down on the bedcovers.
Before you even realize you’re doing it, you push your hips back against his palm.
“Yes, just like that,” Jack murmurs. “Feels good, doesn’t it? About to get even better.”
This time, only his hand is moving while he’s staying still, drinking you up — your body quivering, skin bathed in a sheen of perspiration, your pussy slurping around the unrelenting fingers. The sounds you’re making are downright obscene, loud moans mixed with incoherent pleas as you’re getting lost in the pleasure he gives you so freely.
Jack’s other hand comes up to turn your face to him:
“Eyes on me.”
And as you look at him through lidded eyes, he curls your own fingers inside you, pushing them up against your G-spot. The sudden pressure drags you into a climax, so powerful, you’re blinded for a second, your lungs emptied with a long-drawn exhale as you keep soundlessly mouthing his name.
Jack pulls out his fingers first, then yours. Your hand is drenched and numb, and you barely register as Abbot brings it to his mouth. He licks your fingers clean, one by one, and you are coming to your senses at the sight: his mouth sucking in your digits, your wetness smeared across his lips, his gaze piercing as he keeps eye contact. And just like that, it threads through your veins and bones: your craving for him you’re yet to satisfy.
Before you can even ask him for a kiss, he leans in to give it to you.
It’s hot, it’s messy, his tongue darting between your lips, your hands tugging at his t-shirt, then sneaking under it to feel him tense under your touch. One of his hands grips your hip, the other moving back between your legs, where you’re still sensitive, making you whimper into his mouth.
“Wanna get a proper taste,” he mumbles, his lips already trailing lower.
But you have something else in mind. You close your legs and clutch his t-shirt, your fingers roughly crumpling the fabric, making him meet your gaze again.
“Jack, I’m very grateful for the offer, but I need you to fuck me,” you don’t bother hiding your impatience. “And please, take your damn clothes off.”
He grins, and this is a command he is willing to follow. Jack brings a hand behind his neck to grab the collar of his t-shirt and pulls it up over his head in one swift motion. Your eyes rake over the broad planes of his chest, his toned arms, his freckled skin flushed pink. Before he can think of his next move, you straddle him, leaning to nibble at his neck, your fingers tracing his flexing muscles.
“Someone’s very eager,” he notes with a chuckle.
And yet, the gravel in his voice is thinned out by his own keenness. When your gaze drops down, you see his cock straining against the coarse fabric of his jeans.
“Makes two of us,” you note cheekily and palm him through the denim.
His chuckle turns into a low, long groan. Like he is breaking character, like it is not as easy for him to keep his feelings under control.
You hide your smile, taking his jeans off to throw them on the floor, barely half a minute before you’re climbing back onto his lap. The bulge is now even more prominent beneath his boxer briefs: he’s thick and big, way bigger than you thought, than you imagined, than you’ve ever had. Your mouth parts on the inhale; you are dazed just from the look of it. You feel yourself already getting wet again.
Your words are stumbling out, while your brain is still somewhat functioning:
“I have an IUD, I’m clean. Haven’t been with anyone for a while.”
“Me neither. For way longer than you probably,” Abbot admits in a half-whisper, watching you attentively. Getting as drunk on the anticipation as you are.
Your fingers go for the waistband at his hips when you catch faint light glinting off the metal. Your palm briefly lies under his scarred knee.
“This okay?”
Him leaving the prosthesis on, you mean. But it is getting harder to put words into coherent sentences.
Jack gets it. “Yeah, m’fine. You want me to...?”
Remove it, is what he wants to say.
For just a moment, it comes up to the surface: his lack of confidence, not necessarily in himself but maybe in how he can be perceived, in what he looks like in your eyes. Being so close, so open, naked.
But this has always been exactly what you wanted.
“I couldn’t care less,” you whisper and tug down his briefs to free his cock.
Then you look down, and your breath hitches.
He is thick, fully hard, the tip red and already weeping. And instantly, you wonder how he tastes. How warm, how heavy he’d feel in your hand. When you reach it impulsively to wrap around him, Jack stops you, his voice a low warning:
“We both know I don’t need that.”
You almost want to whine. But you smother your discontent and move your hands up to his shoulders, holding your hips up, hovering just above his girthy length. A sigh spills from your mouth when his cock brushes your slick entrance —
And right then, Jack’s hands clamp around your thighs. His grip not bruising, but it is firm enough that you can’t move. Can’t lower yourself on him.
“Now, where are your manners, sweetheart?” he asks, playfully cruel.
He knows you’re trapped. You know it too. To prove his point, he rubs his tip against your clit, more slickness gushing out of you at the mere contact. You do let out a miserable whine, your thighs are shaking. But he stays unmoving.
And so you beg. Just like you thought you would.
“I want you, please, I want you so fucking much,” your words pour out rushed and heated, all in one breath, “Want you to fuck me, Jack, please, been thinking about it for months. Before the app, when we were still working together, each time you— you stood next to me or leaned closer during surgeries or talked me through them or— fuck, it was anything, everything, I could barely focus, only kept thinking how much I wanted you to touch me, please-please-please—”
Jack hums. His hands relent. He repositions them so he can guide you instead of stopping you.
“Months, huh? I know the feeling,” he murmurs, with unexpectedly raw honesty.
It lingers. It almost sounds like a confession. But you do not get time to catch the meaning of his words before he starts pushing his cock into your throbbing warmth.
You gasp. He’s easing you down slowly. As your nails dig into his shoulders, his grip tightens; but he keeps composure. Jack’s watching you — your eyes screwed shut and brows pinched together, your body shifting, mouth gulping air as you’re allowing him to stretch you open. He moves one of his hands to draw light circles on your clit, to help you take him, all of him, until you’ve bottomed out.
Your body stills. He feels you clench around him, your pussy gripping him so tightly, he chokes back a groan. Your forehead dips forward, helplessly.
“You are— s’big, so-o —”
“Breathe for me,” Jack instructs, both palms secured at your hips, sounding a little out of breath himself. He watches as your chest rises and falls, the uneven cadence of inhales and exhales. He mercifully gives you a minute to adjust. “Need you to start moving, baby. Yeah?”
You scramble for an answer, all your words slurring out into whines, your body barely used to the stretch. But you want to be good for him. And so you lift your hips. Just a few inches. Then sink onto his cock again, trembling at the overwhelming ache of being stuffed so full.
The pause lasts for barely three seconds.
Then your hips start moving up and down on their own, because it feels too good to stop, because the ache is quickly dissipating into pleasure.
“There she is.”
He lets you find and set the rhythm, at first more grinding and slow, your pussy swallowing him whole each time. As you let the sensation build, as it spreads and turns searing. Euphoric. And your head tips back with a moan.
“Look how well you’re taking me,” Jack praises, his voice husky with lust. “Just like I knew you would.”
His hands grip harder at your hips, and without warning, he starts bouncing you on him. His pace is quicker, harsher, the fat head of his cock rubbing against the spot that makes your vision blur. Jack leans closer to rasp the words into your ear:
“Who do you think I thought about—” his fingers move down to open your legs wider, “While making all these audios—” and he plunges deeper, “For my favorite girl—” and your moans pitch louder, “After her tiresome shifts?”
You’re too cockdrunk to even think of a reply. You’re only capable of moving your hips in time with his, nails scraping at his sweat-covered skin, your slick oozing down to his balls.
“I’m— I’m close,” you mewl. “M’gonna cum, Ja-ack.”
“Think I should let you?” he says through gritted teeth, his own control already slipping.
“P-please,” you stutter out weakly as his hips snap up, “Wanna cum, wanna— want you— t-to make me cum, please.”
A grunt escapes him, and Jack adjusts his hold, his chest heaving against yours, skin rubbing against skin. His mouth latches onto your throat, each word punctuated with a trust:
“That’s a good — fucking — girl.”
His hands drop lower to cup your ass, giving it a squeeze — and then the world around you spins as he effortlessly flips you on your back.
Your legs fall open for him, and he manages to keep his cock nestled so perfectly in your fluttering hole. He doesn’t slow down for a second: Jack shifts his weight on his left leg, angling his hips a little to hit that spot inside you over and over, making your eyes roll back in your head. The room fills with your breathy moans, your cunt squelching around his thick length, your body caged under his weight. In stark contrast, his lips are weightless — against your chest, your collarbones, your arm, mouthing pet names or more praises — or just the letters of your name, you honestly can’t tell. The meaning of his words escapes you.
“Yeah, that’s right. Need your head empty,” Jack groans, breath ragged, his pace relentless. “Need you to only think about how good I’m fucking you.”
He surely is.
Your whole body tenses.
You are so close.
And then you feel his forehead against yours, a pressure of his fingers on your clit, a command given with the utmost softness:
“Let go, baby. I got you.”
The second orgasm tears through you, white-hot and all-consuming. You cum with a sob falling from your lips, your fingers scrabbling at his shoulders as your pussy spasms wildly around his cock. He fucks you through it, he does try to last a little longer, but the combination of all this — the way you look, feel, finally his — pushes him over, his own pleasure so intense, he’s powerless against it. Jack’s hips jerk as he cums, filling you up, his broken groans pressed into your neck.
The room is still.
You wait for your breath and heart to calm. His hand brushes a loose strand of hair out of your face, and he whispers, still a little breathless:
“You good?”
You nod first. Then open your mouth:
“That was—” you have to swallow the slight hoarseness of your voice, “Literally the best sex I’ve ever had.” Three heartbeats later, you add with a tired laugh. “Don’t let it get to your head.”
“Too late.”
You feel him smile against your cheek before he places a kiss there.
Jack pulls out carefully, leaving you empty — you have to stop yourself from reaching for him, from chasing his familiar warmth. You quietly watch him clamber off the bed and pull his briefs up, then close your eyes so he won’t catch you staring. You listen to him walk out of the room, and suddenly, a realization kicks in: his footsteps sound uneven.
Like he is limping.
Jack comes back with a wet towel and gently cleans you up, then helps you put your panties on and brings you a glass of water. And every time you look at him, your gaze catches on how he is obviously leaning on his healthy leg.
You slowly stretch your neck and shoulders, then tap on the spot next to you. “Come here.”
Jack sits down, a little bit unsure where this is going. And very much tense in the exact place you thought he would be. You move your hands to his right knee and feel his hamstrings flex involuntarily.
“You spend too much time on your feet,” you say, working your fingers over his muscles. “And you put too much pressure on it. Your leg feels like it’s made out of concrete.”
Without even looking, you can tell that now he’s tense all over.
You have seen Jack take the prosthesis off, short moments of reprieve that he allows himself too rarely for your liking, only after particularly long shifts. He isn’t shy about his disability, but he doesn’t like bringing attention to it, you’ve noticed. Like living with it isn’t hard, like it’s not that big of a deal. You also know that he’s got no one to take care of him.
You take your time massaging the scarred tissue, mostly applying pressure with your thumbs as they move from the socket up, then back down. And you know that it’s working when you hear him exhale, his breath a little ragged. Relieved.
“I try to take breaks, but you know how it is. We’re always busy,” Jack counters, with that same boyish stubbornness you can’t possibly be angry at.
“Shen’s an attending now, which is supposed to make your job easier. Don’t act like the ER’s gonna blow up if you sit down for 10 minutes,” you turn your head to look at him.
Jack doesn’t meet you with defiance — he’s sitting with his shoulders slumped and gaze mellow, way too relaxed to hide it. The sight is so endearing, your heart lurches behind your ribs. You fight the urge to kiss him. Instead, your fingers glide down to the edges of the prosthesis’s socket. You do not push it; you let him decide if he wants to be this vulnerable with you. Jack just gives you a nod. A small, barely noticeable movement. Also an immeasurable sign of trust. You carefully remove the artificial limb, then take the sock off to let his skin breathe. Your touch lingers: you lightly trace the white uneven scars, faded reminders of something horrible he managed to survive.
He lets you.
Silence fills up the space between you two, and you don’t know what to do next. Technically, you only needed sex, and Jack didn’t say that it would happen more than once. This would be the perfect moment for you to thank him and head out.
So you remove your hands —
Jack puts his arm around you, firmly. His lack of hesitation helping yours to fade away. He scoops you back, until you’re pressed to him, your back met with his bare chest. His chin is placed on your shoulder, his words warm:
“You really like it in surgery, don’t you?”
“I do,” you answer honestly. “Way more than I thought I would. I was afraid it’d be too challenging, too much pressure, too many new things to learn... But it’s not that hard. And I love learning.”
He laughs, a soft low sound you love just as much. “Even with an attending who’s as emotionally evolved as a toothpick?”
“I think us working together is mutually beneficial, actually. Park’s teaching me how to mend bones, I’m giving him lessons on how to hold a conversation for longer than a minute.”
Jack’s smile is tickling your neck as he pulls you back into bed, so effortlessly, like he has done it many times. You readily curl up against him, resting your palm over his chest. He tugs the blanket up to cover you, his fingers gently moving from your shoulder to your collarbone.
But then your eyes meet his, and it is a discovery you never thought you’d make: he looks self-conscious. He is the one searching for words to put his feelings into.
“You said I made you feel like you couldn’t breathe,” Jack recalls.
“I didn’t mean literally... I guess I was a little bit dramatic,” you avert your gaze. Okay, maybe you should’ve found a better way to tell him how you felt. Preferably without it looking like a crash-out.
“No, it’s not that. It’s just—” his hand cradles the side of your face, gentle and reassuring. “From the first day you came to the ER, with your humor and your curiosity and your quick thinking... To me, you were like a breath of fresh air,” he skims his thumb over your lower lip, his touch light, his words heavy with the emotions he’s been holding back for months. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner. I was working up the courage.”
His heartbeat is hushed under your palm. Steady with certainty. It radiates from him like light, your insecurities melting away under his gaze like snow under the sun.
After a moment, you speak up: your voice is teasing. “Funny how you had just enough courage to record raunchy audios.”
“My therapist said I needed a hobby. Unfortunately, I suck at golf,” Jack leaves a kiss on your forehead. “But you were the one who gave me the idea.”
“Um, for all the great ideas I am famous for, that one definitely wasn’t mine.”
His chest vibrates with laughter. “You don’t remember it? Your third week in the ER, the nightcrawles on a night out. I walked you out to wait for your cab, and you said — and I quote — that I’ve got a very soothing voice. That I should narrate audiobooks or something.”
You cover your face with your palm, groaning. “Oh my god, I can’t believe I said that out loud. I had five shots of tequila. I hoped you would forget.”
“I didn’t,” Jack says and pulls your hand away. “Everything you do and say is very memorable to me,” he presses his lips to your wrist. Then puts your hand back on his chest and holds it there, his thumb brushing yours. And out of nowhere, very nonchalantly, he asks. “So, does it actually take you 40 minutes to get to work?”
“Yeah. Give or take,” you tell him vaguely.
He doesn’t buy it. “And if we’re being more specific?”
“Closer to an hour,” you admit reluctantly. “But the rent is pretty low, and most of my neighbours are nice, and I finally got my shower fixed last week so —”
“You can move in here.”
Your words die down in an instant as you stare at him, trying to discern a hint of humor, of pity, of anything to suggest he doesn’t mean it.
“You aren’t serious,” you mumble, but his unblinking gaze confirms that he is. “No, I really— I can’t.”
Jack props his head up on one hand. “Why not?”
“Because it’s your apartment. You’re living on your own, and I wouldn’t want to bother you or— or take up too much space.”
“Didn’t you say this place can fit a football team? So unless you’re gonna bring another 10 people with you...”
“No, it’s just me,” you say timidly and hesitate for a few seconds. But since you’re out of arguments, the only thing you’re left with is the truth. “I don’t want you to regret it later on.”
“I won’t regret it.”
“You barely know me.”
“I know you plenty. We worked together for half a year.”
“Yeah, but that was us in the hospital. Which isn’t exactly informative, because I can be a total mess in my everyday life. What if you come home to find my clothes lying around everywhere? What if I’ve got questionable coffee preferences or weird food habits?” you absentmindedly draw circles on his skin, stumbling over the excuses you are nervously coming up with. “And then we’ll start getting into fights because I was too tired to iron the bedsheets or I accidentally took your favorite t-shirt or ate your favorite ice cream because I got my period and acted bitchy or —”
Jack tilts your chin up, the small movement making you close your mouth. A smile pulls at his lips, soft just the rest of him — now, in this moment, with you: soft touch of his strong hands, soft grey curls, a little ruffled (totally your fault), soft gaze that is a vortex of green, amber and gold. His voice carries the same softness when he says:
“You usually take your coffee black with just a splash of soy milk. But when you’re tired, you go for these obnoxiously sugary drinks that barely have any caffeine in them,” his smile grows wider. “You do not throw things around, not when the inside of your locker is strategically organized by shelves. Your only weird food habit is thinking a protein bar can be considered a full meal. I don’t iron my bedsheets, you can wear any of my t-shirts, and I’ll make sure to stock up on ice cream. I’ve never seen you being bitchy, but you can get a little uncooperative when you’re upset or nervous. Which I can handle,” but there is no pressure behind his reasoning — instead, he adds with hope, his eyes not leaving yours, “I know enough, and I’d love to learn the rest. If you let me.”
The feeling rolls all over you, familiar and very long-awaited one: of calmness that his presence always brings you. Of just how comforting it is to be with him. Jack makes it sound too easy for you to harbour any doubts.
“Okay,” you manage quietly.
And when your hands cradle his face, he leans in first to close the distance.
You kiss him slowly, like you are trying to spell out your gratitude, your ever-growing fondness, your feelings you are still afraid to name. He holds you close like he can understand exactly what your lips are saying. You want to drag this moment out for longer; but then a yawn bubbles in your throat.
“You’re not leaving this bed until you get at least eight hours of sleep,” Jack notes, more caring than stern, his nose bumping into yours. And you can tell his eyelids are already drooping. “What time do you need to wake up?”
“M’not working tomorrow. Turned off my alarm already,” you mumble.
“Good,” he nods with his eyes closed, wrapping both arms around you — and then adds in a tender whisper, “Good girl.”
You smile into his chest, happily and drowsily, and you know you’re about to fall asleep. And just before you do, you think:
no, this definitely isn’t a one-time thing.
✧ dividers by @/strangergraphics, @/saradika-graphics, @/omi-resources, @/cafekitsune;
✧ I usually don’t like diving a fic into shorter “parts”, but it felt right in the moment, and I hope it didn’t ruin the pacing of the story? ngl I was super horny when I wrote the smut part(s), so maybe I went a liiittle overboard... also, yes, this fic was supposed to be shorter, but then I added a shit ton of softness at the end, I COULDN’T HELP MYSELF!
✧ English isn’t my first language, so feel free to message me if you spot any mistakes. reblogs and comments are very appreciated!
Billie considers herself lucky in the aftermath of it all, the stars somehow align for her to have a week of dayshifts before working with Jack - Dr. Abbot - again. Even when she is on his shift, they both manage to remain as professional as ever. It's different now, no sliding by each other almost too closely at the nurses station or a perfectly made coffee waiting for her, but she swears sometimes she can feel his eyes on her when she's not looking, Billie won't look in case she’s imagining it, almost hoping for it. She still tries to remain one step ahead, knows what implements he needs half a second before he needs them during procedures and knows to be prepared the same when he’s letting the residents take the lead. It seems whatever they had simply seems to not exist, a skeleton buried deep in both their closets now.
She’s stood in a room with him, just starting another nightshift together, their first incoming trauma of the night having just arrived. The paramedics have just finished doing their handover as they wheel the gurney into the trauma room, whilst her and the team glove up and get ready to take over. Billie watches as Parker and Jack do the initial consult with the patient - a 41 year old woman in a car accident, she’d swerved to miss hitting a dog but ended up wrapping her car around a pole instead.
“Current obs: blood pressure is 94 over 60, pulse 124, sats 92% and RR is 28.” She informs them, coming to stand by the bed with them. Listens intently and nods when they ask her to call for a full CT and to alert general surgery about possible internal bleeding, already reaching for the phone by the time Jack had finished speaking. Whilst on the phone she can feel her own cell phone vibrating against her leg just like it has a few times already. Ignoring it, she continues on with her patients, knowing there's really only one person outside of work who would be trying to get in contact with her that badly, and she knows exactly why too. By 10pm, her cell phone has vibrated another few times in her pocket, she doesn't even take it out to check on it, but she’s still shocked when Lena comes into the room where she’s assisting Dr. Abbot and Dr. Shen with debridement and dressing wounds on a burn patient.
“Hon, you’ve got a call on the main line.” Billie does a double take when she finds Lena looking right at her. “Says she’s your mom?”
“Tell her I’ll call her back.” She replies, clenching her jaw in frustration.
“Said she’s been trying your cell all evening.”
Billie snorted, starting to collect the waste from between the doctors now they were finishing up, purposefully ignoring the look they were both giving her.
“We’re finished here if you want to take it, Billie.” Jack said, still peering down at one of the wounds he’s been cleaning and dressing.
“No thanks. Lena, tell her I’m busy with patients and I’ll call her when I’m free.” She states, pulling off her gloves with a snap, throwing them in the nearby trash. She watches out of the corner of her eye as Lena hovers for another moment, before looking down at Jack and Shen, nodding once and then leaving, the privacy curtain falling closed behind her.
Turns out, she's not free for the rest of her shift, although they aren't overwhelmed by patients, Billie miraculously finds tasks to do so by the time day shift starts rolling in everything has been cleaned, topped up and organised like they haven't been for months. At one point, she had had to turn her cell on to Do Not Disturb mode just to give herself a break from the incessant vibrating. Her mother clearly wasn’t having a good night, which honestly made her want to avoid a conversation with her even more. Between ignoring her mom and avoiding being alone with Dr. Abbot for too long, she feels weary, desperate to go home.
When she leaves via the ambulance bay, she pulls her cell phone out of her pocket, looking down at the screen she notes an impressive 12 missed calls and 8 unread messages from her mother, Billie hesitates before hitting the call back button. It barely rings through before the familiar although groggy and slurred voice comes through the line.
“About fucking time you called me back, been tryna get you all night.” Her mother scolds her.
“Don’t ever call my work like that again.” Billie grips the phone tightly, “How the hell did you even find the number for the ED?”
“I can google, you know. Anyway, what else was I meant to do, you weren't answering me, Bee.”
“Because I was in the middle of a shift, Ma.” She snaps. “And it was the middle of the fucking night.”
“Yeah, yeah. Too busy for your mother now you're a fancy nurse. Wasting all your talent, rotting away at all hours in that hospital for crap pay.” Jo spits into the phone.
Billie takes a deep breath, it's the same old argument she’s had with her mother since she went into her career years ago. The average parent would be overjoyed to have a daughter that was a nurse, but not hers. “What do you want, mom?”
“I’m sorry, baby. Need you to front me some cash, I’m a little short this month.” This time her mothers voice is dripping with sweetness. But then she utters the amount she needs her daughter to give her, and Billie's stomach clenches in a way it hasn't for a long time.
“I don't have that.”
Jo’s voice is more alert, more panicked. Billie has never really said no to her mother before, she had learnt long ago it was better for everyone to just keep the peace. “Billie, they’re threatening to evict me if I don't come up with it. I can’t go back onto the streets, you won't let that happen with you, please. Billie. Please, baby.”
“I don't have it.” She repeated, “I just had to pay to get the car fixed, remember?”
“Well, why don't you phone Ricky? Pick up a couple of shifts.”
“I’m not phoning Ricky, I don't work there anymore, I don't know how many times I've got to tell you that!” Billie brought her free hand up, pinching the bridge of her nose, trying to stave off the headache she could feel building behind her eyes. “I gotta go, I’ve not slept in 19 hours. I’ll try and figure something out.”
“You’ll sort it out, baby, you always do. You always take such good care of me.”
She didn’t reply, over the conversation before it had started. Hanging up, she let her arm fall to her side and took a deep breath to try to calm herself down.
“Trouble in paradise?” A familiar deep tone came from behind her, causing Billie to flinch as she spun around. Dr. Robby was leaning casually against the wall behind her, he brought his hands up, holding them in front of himself when he realised he had given her a fright. “I didn't mean to sneak up on you. I just came out for some fresh air, and couldn't help but overhear.”
She hesitates, looking out into the empty ambulance bay before looking back at the older man, letting her backpack fall off her shoulder as she walks over to him and settles on the wall next to him. Sighing, she starts, “It’s my mom. We have a…difficult relationship. I’ve spent more time bailing her out financially over the years than what I have in her company. That’s what she was calling for, she's in debt. Threatening her with eviction.”
Robby crosses his arms across his body as he nods in understanding. “That’s a tough one. Is there anyone else who can help out?”
“No.” She replies. “It’s always just been us, you know?”
“Do you have the money? I could, or Jack-”
“Why would Dr. Abbot give me money?” She challenges, cutting him off. She knows the two men are close, probably the closest thing either of them have to a best friend and have known each other a long time but Billie wonders how much the older man sat next to her knows about what had been happening with Jack.
“No, I, just. I mean, I-” It’s almost fun, watching him try to stutter out a response he thinks he can get away with. He definitely knows something, but she wonders if he knows it’s over. Finished. That even if she had wanted to ask Jack for a loan when they had been sleeping together, which she loathed the thought of having to do, she wasn't in the position to do so now. Thankfully they’re both saved by Dana approaching them, appearing from between the sliding doors, obviously looking for him.
“Robby, we got a double trauma coming in hot.” She announces, phone to her ear. “Everything okay?”
“Oh yeah, everything’s fine. Just Dr. Robinavitch offering to be my sugar daddy.” She laughs it off, ignoring the quick snap of Robby’s head towards her in shock and Dana’s confused face. She stands, giving him a wink before swinging her backpack back into place and walking away from the pair.
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