I remember thinking how this medicine would be the thing that would save you and now i’m finding out it’s never bringing back the person i once knew so will you look inside and see the life they’ve buried deep in your conscience and learn they couldn’t hide the will to be the everything for yourself that you’ve been to me you won’t cut deep enough to scar the person you are and who you are is more than voices in your head are drowning out and here you are again, the same existence flawed by what you could not be and i have never been so terrified of losing someone i love to their own disease but i can’t be the one who can save you from yourself don’t you break your heart, i don’t want to see you grind your pulse to a halt you can’t come this far just to never know if this was ever your fault, because it never was you won’t cut deep enough to scar the person you are and who you are is more than voices in your head are drowning out

~ The Thing That Would Save You by Gates ~

I'm getting good at saying goodbye But I've always been better at believing That you're better off Wherever you go, go with all your heart Worn out and broken in like hand me downs And every memory is like a skipping stone You'll never understand how long it took the tides To bring them back to us I'm getting good at saying goodbye Saying goodbye Wherever you go, go with all your heart Worn out and broken in like hand me downs Every memory is like a skipping stone You'll never understand how long it took the tides To bring them back to us And we grow into those sadder songs And leave our love behind in every single line Maybe that's the only place it can really live But you could never understand You don't care, you don't care You would never understand You don't care, you don't care Wherever you go, wherever you go Wherever you go Every memory is like a skipping stone You'll never understand how long it took the tides To bring them back to us And we grow into those sadder songs And leave our love behind in every single line I'm getting good at saying goodbye Saying goodbye.

It’s all the same I’d say you’re losing me again If truth be told, I blame the monsters in your head You’ll blame me when you turn off the lights And try to say that you can’t sleep And it goes to show How you make your way into my dreams again And the less we know Yeah the more we break right apart So we’ll raise the stakes and show them That we’re different (Oh...) Yeah, we're different (Oh...)

It’s all the same, I've seen this way too many times I’d leave you in the dark, it comes as no surprise But thats if I wanted to And we both know that I’m not over you And I know I don’t say it but I love you too And it’s starting to make sense, sense I thought I told you once We’ve got it all mapped out and I’m gonna be the better man And that’s a start to this I thought I told you once We’ve got it all mapped out and I’m gonna be a better man And though it’s been said, it’s finally starting to make sense

It was something I'd never seen Sitting reading year old magazines In a house with you You love to laugh and tell me dreams Of who you are who you want to be And I had no clue But I'm thinking if the world does end You'll talk to me, I'll be your ear to lend Cause you were mine when I called you at 4 am I'm saying I wonder what it's like when we're both dead I always need to keep a level head I always think about where we'll be In 20 years and if you'll marry me I had no clue Wen you were drunk you told me dreams Of who you are and who you want to be And I had no clue That hole in heaven was a void that filled you But if the world does end You'll talk to me, I'll be your ear to lend Cause you were mine when I called you at 4 am I'm saying I wonder what it's like when we're both dead I always need to keep a level head Oh out of everyone I've known I should've not left you alone Oh out of everyone I've known Oh out of everyone I've known Dear god here it goes Oh out of everyone I've known

When I met you we were young And like gasoline to matches Waking up drunk Sleeping through your early classes I grew up and grew dull And you say you wished I hadn't Well I'm drunk again And you're guilty like you're Irish catholic You ain't no saint I ain't one either Guess that's why I'm lying here Cause I know That I'm banged up I got bruises I can't place Oh I've been coughing out blood And I know That I'm banged up I got bruises I can't place Oh I've been coughing out blood I've got a gut full of ulcers They're gonna burn out like dead stars Turn to dust If you're coming here alone Then there's nowhere else to go So when I walk in man they know I'm alone Dig your anchors in my bones Keep your breathing soft and slow It's freezing, I made a blanket from my coat You ain't no saint I ain't one either Guess that's why I'm lying here Well I know That I'm banged up I got bruises I can't place Oh I've been coughing out blood And I know That I'm banged up I got bruises I can't place Oh I've been coughing out blood I've got a gut full of ulcers They're gonna burn out like dead stars It gets freezing here after dark So I'm searching the car for my dad's old Bills hat, passed down in 93,  It never got far from me,  He moved to the island from upstate And he'd spend Sunday Watching the game with me  Explaining everything,  We'd watch Jim Kelly lead the way And if my dad was here I wonder what he'd say If my dad was here I wonder if he'd even recognize me I'm fucking begging I'm fucking begging Cause I know That I'm banged up I got bruises I can't place Oh I've been coughing out blood And I know That I'm banged up I got bruises I can't place Oh I've been coughing out blood

I saw that mountain burn, or was it in my head? I'll track down the words, if you dig up the dead. Well I have never been free, but I have always been cheap. I have never been free. But nothing in my bones can say just where you've been. Nothing in my bones can let me start again. I'll start again. My eyelids falling down, all my dreams in black and white. I see so clearly now I won't ever get it right. But I don't wanna be free. I don't wanna be me. I don't wanna be free. You want me scream at your ex-girlfriend. But I wanna be much better than I am. You want me scream at your ex-boyfriend. But I wanna be, and I don't think I can. Nothing in my bones can say just where you've been. Nothing in my bones can let me start again. I'll start again. I'll start again. I'll start again.

I've been counting ways that I could justify

the choices I've made that led us here today.

And I've been counting on you to do the same thing,

but I set my expectations far too high, like always.

And it's funny how we make ourselves believe

that this is happiness; we're trapped inside our minds

and in your basement on separate ends of a couch.

I'm trying so hard, And that's the problem.

I can't shake this feeling from my bones

that you're just the girl who's too scared to let this go,

and I'm just the boy who, no matter what,

can't seem to stay content for more than an hour or so.

I would spend a lifetime searching for the words to say,

if it meant that this feeling in my gut would go away.

I'm sick of wishing that I could have a change of heart,

and running away just to crawl back to the start.

I can't shake this feeling from my bones,

that you're just the girl who's too scared to let this go, and I'm

I'm just the boy who, no matter what, no matter fucking what,

can't seem to stay content.

I guess I'm better off alone.

And in the end, it doesn't even matter who you are,

it just matters who I'm not.

- Recall, Recede by Grandview -

Just when I think I need someone,  They wrap their arms around my old bones  And I start breaking apart I walk away from anyone that cares about me But I swear my skin's not as rough as I make it out to be The saddest part is I've been distant since I was sixteen It keeps me up in bed I'm stuck here with all the choices I've made  And the chances I was too afraid to take I've called myself young and stupid,  But lately I feel old and desperate I find it kind of weird how you find yourself  When you have no one I look for the right things in all the wrong places The saddest part is I've been distant since I was sixteen It keeps me up in bed I'm stuck here with all the choices I've made  And the chances I was too afraid to take

Do you ever feel like somethings in your way?  When the truth comes out, it's just too hard to get past.  It's just way to hard to deal with anyway.  I can't help but sit alone with nothing to talk about.  But would you even listen?  Could you even make it out?  And every night it keeps me up  Do you ever sing?  Do you ever think for yourself?  Are you catching up with all the things that you've missed?  It looks as if you're careless.  Were you sick of staying in your room?  Were you tired of waiting for something to hold onto?  I know you too well.  It's too hard to sleep.  It's too hard to think of what's next.  It's too hard to think it's hopeless.  But I already know it.

- Drive by Mat Kerekes -

Hope you're having fun away at college Since you went there to run from all your fuck ups You're not so good at getting away from all of the karma That lies between your tongue and cheek It's gotten to the point that you're the spitting image of Everything I never want to be I gave you chance after chance And it's obvious you haven't tried at all By now it's safe to say that I'll be Erasing every trace you left in these lines I'm sorry for breaking down when I should have been Stitching myself back up You left me on the fence with nowhere to jump,  Since you always knew that my balance was  As shitty as my judgement I had a feeling I'd be lying in the grass Left for dead Now I'm stuck looking at that fence I gave you chance after chance And it's obvious you haven't tried at all By now it's safe to say that I'll be Erasing every trace you left in these lines I'm sorry for breaking down when I should have been Stitching myself back up You've become  The spitting image of everything I never want to be You're everything I never wanna be

I’ll paint you a picture with words, “I miss her.” We still talk like everyday But we don’t talk in the same way that we used to I’ll move on and forget you We could never see eye to eye But either way. I like her ‘cause she’s smart, headstrong and independent, She puts me in my place, but I don’t know where I stand, And if only I could find the words, or muster up the nerve to tell her I’ll never forget her And she’ll always have a part of me. Don’t let me go down this road again We both know where this ends In a storm of feeling, I’m so unappealing I can’t play these games I like her ‘cause she’s smart, headstrong and independent, She puts me in my place, but I don’t know where I stand, And if only I could find the words, or muster up the nerve to tell her I’ll never forget her And she’ll always have a part of me. I like her ‘cause she’s smart, headstrong and independent, She puts me in my place, but I don’t know where I stand, And if only I could find the words, or muster up the nerve to tell her I’ll never forget her And she’ll always have a part of me. She'll always have a part of me. I was falling for a girl who would ask me to come over Just for a day, when her parents were away, Now all I can do is lay in my room, Fall asleep, dream of you, Then wake up and do nothing about it I fell for a boy who could never ever let me walk home that way, ‘Cause you gotta be safe, So hold back your views, We’re both leaving soon, I can’t fall back on you, ‘Cause that’s not what I do. She hates it when I shout these words, But I’ll still sing for you.

- A Part of Me (feat. Laura Whiteside) by Neck Deep -

This may never start. We could fall apart. And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. I'll tear us apart. Can I be your enemy? Losing half a year. Waiting for you here I'd be your anything. So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. Tearing out my heart. I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. (I'd be your memory) Feelings disappeared. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. We could fall apart And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory? Can I be your memory?

- Memory (Acoustic) by Sugarcult -

I bet it hurts to read permanence I used to think on all of this And how you don't Damn its hard to find Sustenance when all I had Was love for this And now you don't  Now I just abuse Substances to drown out your accomplishments however few All of this frustrates me bad cause I can't stay mad at you or change anything that I had she told me don't think like that its really not that bad I hope this makes you sad If its something serious  then hit me up But until then the door is shut Forget my room And if I had a match for every lie  And every attempt to deny I'd strike a few I am the walls the silent halls My jacket at your sister's wedding Navy blue

- Navy Blue by The Story So Far -

You used to make me feel like I could walk on water Now most nights I'm just sinking down and down You're the reason why I can't listen to the same songs I used to I write songs about you all the time I bet I don't run through your mind I've given up on you,  But it still hurts to know you're not alone Don't worry,  I'll keep out of your life and stay awake at night It's 4a.m. and you're keeping me from closing these sleepy eyes Does the thought of me keep you up at night? Like the light on the ceiling of your bedroom Lately, my dog's the only one around that listens to my problems It's been a lonely year I write songs about you all the time I bet I don't run through your mind I've given up on you,  But it still hurts to know you're not alone Don't worry,  I'll keep out of your life and stay awake at night With just my skin and bones It hurts to know you're not alone I've given up on you, and my skin, and my bones

Sleepless nights are new to me All these thoughts are killing me Someone come and put me at ease All of my anxiety There’s no cause that I can see What’s this scratching at my brain? And I can’t stop even if I wanted to Up top, maybe I’m simply deluded That’s right, maybe I’ve been wasting my time All my time And it’s hard to justify what you can do I’m so sick and tired of falling through and It’s true, maybe I’ve been wasting my time All this time, yeah I come creeping, no one can hear you now Listen, so you can show me how Something that I’m missing here Softly stop my evil dreams Faster, help me fall asleep No one knows that’s how it goes All the thoughts that we transpose From time to time We fall in line But now it seems that we are blind No one knows that’s how it goes All the thoughts that we transpose

And if I could swim  I'd swim out to you in the ocean, Swim out to where you were floating  in the dark. And if was blessed  I walk on the water you're breathing, To lend you some air for that heaving  Sunken chest. 'Cause they chose you  As the model  For their empty little dreams. With your new head  And your legs spread  Like a filthy magazine. And they hunt you  And they gut you  And you give in. And if I was brave  I'd climb up to you on the mountain. They led you to drink from their fountain  Spouting lies. And I'd slay  The horrible beast they commissioned To steer me away from my mission  To your eyes, And I'd stand there  Like a soldier  With my foot upon his chest. With my grin spread  And my arms out  In my bloodstained Sunday's best, And you'd hold me  I'd remind you  Who you are...  Under their shell.. I'd walk through hell for you.  Let it burn right through my shoes. These soles are useless without you. Through hell for you Let the torturing ensue.  My soul is useless without you And if they sent a whirlwind,  I'd hug it like a harmless little tree. Or an earthquake,  I'd calm it,  And I'd bring you back to me, And I'd hold you  In my weak arms like a first born. I'd walk through hell for you.  Let it burn right through my shoes. These soles are useless without you. Through hell for you Let the torturing ensue.  My soul is useless without you (through hell for you) (through hell for you) without you Without you (through hell for you) Without you (through hell for you) Now, I've walked through hell for you, What's an adventurer to do But rest these feet at home with you

Midnight on a beach on the Mediterranean and I miss you, even here taking it all in. The sand, silvered, carries the moon on its shoulders. Is it possible to put this night to tune and move it to you? Don't cry, I'll bring this home to you if I can make this night light enough to move. Cargo ships move by tracing on the horizon line. There's a luster from the city lights on the waves that kiss our feet and we're thinking of going in, the time's getting thin. This is a city for not sleeping and the clocks are set by feel. At this moment from where I sit, none of it seems real.