Jason thinks he might have gone insane.
The Lazarus Pit may have healed his amnesia, but ever since then he’s been seeing… things.
Shadowy figures flickering in the corners of his eyes. Sometimes when he looks in the mirror, for just a moment he can see his corpse staring back at him, wounds from the Joker’s crowbar still fresh. Then it’s back to normal.
Other times they’re more… persistent. Illusory corpses rest in places they have long been removed from. Or sometimes just pieces of them, often random splatters of blood. The blades he fight with become soaked in it, forever tainted red with the blood spilled on them. He takes to cleaning them relentlessly, never able to tell if there’s actually any grime left under all the red.
Perhaps part of it is just his guilty conscious. If it is, it’s not working; the sights only make him more angry, more likely to lash out at the criminals they remind him of.
Jason had made an odd habit of staring at things. Too much. Eyes not glazed enough to be zoning out. As if he was staring at each dent and divot, each splinter of wood, each scratch, each stain- on everything.
People were starting to worry. His men when he feverishly scrubbed his knives after every mission, even when they didn't need it. Civilians he rescued when he would narrow his eyes at an empty ally too long. Other bats when he stared at his gloved hands like he was searching for answers in the threads.
But what they all noticed? How *differently* he looked at weapons. Used weapons. His eyes shone in a way that made the others take a second glance- trying to see what they missed, what they overlooked that made their boss, the heroic Crime boss, their brother, their son, react that way.
But no one else saw it.
Jason never mentioned it, and other people just dismissed it as them being silly. Of course there's nothing there- what would be there? Jason was just a little odd, nothing more.
-Cue Jason sitting in his apartment with the curtains closed, and towels over all his mirrors using plastic cutlery and only mugs so he wouldn't see his reflection in anything-
After a patrol, Jason was doing his -now ushual- routine of washing his knives, scrubbing his boots, and changing his gloves so he could wash the other pair.
"Why does he do that?" A relativly new goon asked.
"I think he has OCD." Another replied.
"Eh, whatever. dosnt really matter." A third goon glanced out the window of the warehouse base they had set up. Nightwing. Oh, crap. Nightwing was outside.
"Hey, boss? One of your viglantie buddies is outside."
Jason looked up, glancing down at his knives. He had washed them a few times, and the water was...
He squinted his eyes.
...Clear. Good enough.
He holstered his knives, and turned around to face his men, who were doing basic matinace of their own weapons, and patching themselves up.
"Which one?" Jason asked.
"Nightwing."
He sighed in response. "Allright. Dont wait up for me, go home when you're done."
He got a series of "yes, sir."'s and "yes, boss."'s from his guys as he climbed out of one of the high up wearhouse windows.
He pulled himself onto the roof of his warehouse and looked around, quickly spotting the viglantie.
"Jaybird!" Came a familiar voice. Jason hopped onto the building the blue-clad vigilante was standing on.
"What do you want?" Jason asked, cutting right to business. He didn't get visits without reasons.
"I came to check up on you. You haven't been very active the the Batchat lately."
"I'm never active unless it involves me."
"I know, but... you seem off."
Jason rolled his eyes. RIght. Of course he did. He was going insane and hallucnating. But he couldn't just tell him that.
"Well, I'm fine."
"You've been acting weird, and we all know it. I would've said something earlier but I thought you would want me to stay out of it. But it's been 3 months. What's up?"
Jason's eyes lowered to a small puddle of rainwater on the roof. A dead, bloody, pale, beat-up teenager stared back at him with glossy eyes.
"Jaybird?" His brother asked, concern laced in his voice.
"It's nothing. Get you're nose out of my business." He snapped, anger sudden but not new.
"...let me drop you home at least?"
Jason huffed. Of course he wanted to drop him home.
"Yeah, fine- not. No." He had almost forgotten about his apartment. Dick couldn't see it. He would call him crazy. Maybe he was crazy, but that wasn't the point. He'll just play it off as being scarcastic.
"Of CoUrSe YoU cAn CoMe To My hOuSe WiTh Me"
He watched dicks eyebrows furrow. Maybe this was too much?
"...I'm coming back with you, Jaybird."
"No. You're not. You need to respect my privacy." Shit
"I've been to your apartment before, I already know where you live."
"So? If I don't want you to come over, you need to respect my decisions."
"Jay- that's not-"
"I don't care, and I don't want your excuses. Go home, Dick."
The vigilante frowned at the crime boss. But they both left separate ways.
~~~~~~~
When Dick got back to the cave, he found 2 of his brothers and his father waiting for him.
"How'd it go?" Tim asked.
"Why is Todd acting oddly?"
"It went... poorly. And I don't know. He wouldn't even let me take him home. And he had... a weird look in his eyes."
"Does Todd not wear a helmet?" Damian countered.
"Yes, but... I could sort of... feel it? His eyes wandered more than usual."
Tim nodded. "I get it."
Damian rolled his eyes. "I do not."
"He was defensive of his apartment... I think he's hiding something there." Dick mentioned, a little hesitantly.
They all exchanged glances.
"You three can NOT break into your brother's apartment when he's acting strangely. Especially if he doesn't want you there. It's his safe space- we can't ruin that for him." Bruce warned.
~~~~~
Dick pulled the window open, pushing past the curtains covering it. They couldn't see into the apartment at all; there were curtains at every window. Which only added to their suspicion.
"I'm convinced there's something here. You check the bedroom, I'll check the kitchen." Dick nodded at times words, heading towards the bedroom.
The windows were predictably covered, but what he didn't expect, was his mirror to be covered as well. Why would he cover the mirror?
Digging around a little more, he didn't find much out of the ordinary. Books neatly on shelves, a mug left on his nightstand, and several hidden guns.
He moved on to the bathroom. The mirror was also covered with a towel. Beyond that, there was an oddly high amount of cleaning products. He recognised them as batmans go-to for cleaning off blood. That... is probably not good. The bottles were almost empty, and the whole room reeked of chemical cleanliness. It made Dick's nose wrinkle.
He checked the under-the-sink cabinet. There were more bottles. More than Dick would keep stocked to last him a year and a half. He frowned, and exited the bathroom to meet Tim in the living room.
"...What did you find?" Tim asked.
"His mirrors are covered, and he has talked up a... deep cleaning habit. His bathroom smells strongly of chemicals and he has way too many bottles of cleaner."
Tim hummed. "He doesn't have any metal or glass in the kitchen. He only has mugs and reusable plastic utensils- like what young kids would use. He even has plastic, but thee weird, painted kitchen knives."
"Why did he make thee changes? What do all of those things have in common?" Dick asked.
"Well, the windows, cups, and mirrors are all made of glass. Not sure about the plastic cutlery..."
"Those are all reflective," Dick provided.
"Yeah... and metals spoons and such too. But what about the chemicals?"
They thought on it for a few moments.
"It could be not related? Like, it could be something else."
"Maybe. And... you said that his eyes were wandering? Do you know what he could have been looking at?"
"There was.... a puddle on the ground."
"Which would have been reflective!" They said at the same time.
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yeah that ectoplasmic residue thing was my original idea! The shadows in the corners of his visions would be brief glimpses of the weak ghosts/shades of Gotham, and the corpse-y stuff would be caused by his mind’s interpretation of the ectoplasmic stains left by deaths.
Though guilt and other nonmagical mental health issues can absolutely factor into it too ofc!! His issues can be multifaceted!
Also you get it!! No need for a special “bursts of pit rage” phenomenon to make him angrier and more violent when he’s constantly getting painfully reminded of all the deaths in his city anyway ;)
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