starrihart

i cant believe he’s real 🛐🛐

tfw your bf’s sense of justice is so passionate and twisted by trauma that they spiral and vow to never let anything or anyone (you included) get in the way of completing their mission/vengeance, so then they use a charismatic persona to gain celebrity-like status and a cult following all in an effort to achieve their goals, and so even though they are smiling they are actually brimming with anger and hatred and maybe even regret that it had to be this way, and suddenly they’re just too far gone - they’ve taken too many lives and would rather watch the world burn than to come back from the deep end - and it ultimately ends with you standing there as they die, having no choice but to just let it happen bc you couldn’t save them, you were never enough to change their mind and help them see that there was another way if only you two could’ve just stuck together, and they’re gone…but then somehow THEY’RE BACK (alive??), right when you’ve lost all hope bc their death had taken a piece of you with them - but it’s not really them/they’re not really there (unless?), and you have to cope with the horror that the enemy is USING them, using their body to make it seem like they skirted death, just to take advantage of that weakness and hole in your heart and so seeing them in front of you again is all kinds of fucked up, but the worst part of all is that it’s the same: no matter how much you still want to save them, you can’t. It’s already too late. Since the moment you met them and even after you loved them, it was too late.