Skin & bone

proven. track it.

Hunger vs. Boredom Test Stand up. Hold your arms straight above your head for 45 seconds. If your “hunger” goes away = boredom. If it gets worse = salt water, then black tea. You’re fine.

I’ll have to pretend to be happy and normal I guess but I also only get this broken when I’m drifting from God. I definitely have issues with managing my relationships and friendships though. I feel like I’m not as needy as others so I operate from that place and think others are like me but everyone just sees it as I’m a cold, selfish person that doesn’t care about anyone.

I want to be a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, student, dog mom, aunt, etc

I’m just so deep in my head 24/7 I’m not thinking about the feelings of every single person in my life. Like I’m trying to stay sane here for yall but it’s getting so hard.

Every. Day. Im. Trying. To. Stay. Alive. I’m sorry but that’s my priority right now. I need to heal so I can be the real me again.

But anywayyyyyyyyy I’ll be fasting for a while. My longest was 5 days and I wanna go for 6 then 7.

Just glad I’m not stress eating.

Food is not my friend.

1. The first three days, you will be starving. It will be constant. It will suck. I cannot sugarcoat it.

But the good news is it doesn’t stay that miserable forever.

2. The first week you will have food noise. The physical hunger will go away, and the mental hunger will almost be worse. Do not give in or you will have to start at step one again.

3. After a week it starts to become a habit. The food noise is still there. But you have learned not to listen to it. You have learned to distract yourself with other things that you enjoy. (Since eating is not that much fun anyway)

4. After two weeks, it will become a habit.

Even if it seems hard to start back up again after a binge or a period of over eating, those first few days are the hardest. If you’re stuck in a binge restrict cycle, you’re never gonna get past that point of hunger and food noise.