✧ [ STAR'S DUST ] .

" i'm done , caroline . they can --- this is unbelieveable . they can drop dead for all i care , i'm done . i'm done , i'm done , this is -- this shit's enough . " lately things came to many a breaking point , and then carried on breaking . she had been shunned away in her own body , inside her own mind and the two men that claimed to love her were just -- oblivious ? unknowing to her not being herself ? they could die . they could go . " where 're you ? i'll meet you . " enough was enough . the phone was pressed against her ear , upheld by her shoulder as she paced and grabbed the few things she cared enough to maybe keep .

it was heartbreaking , if she was to be a bit more honest with herself . she was hurt : it had been terrifying , but maybe more terrifying was finding that nobody was able to tell . that it took so long . that was enough , that was sufficient . there was nothing else left for her in mystic falls , nothing that could tie her to that open grave where invisible hands seemed to be wanting to grab her and drag her down to that quiet rest she'd avoided so many years ago . but elena didn't want that , she wanted to see something new , find someplace different , big , surprising , where she could maybe get lost and maybe be nobody and find a bed and not a coffin to lay down her head during the nights .

a warm body was out of the question .

keeping in touch became harder. the judgement became too much and caroline needed a break from even being in touch with her old friends. so seeing elena's name pop up on her phone screen, sends a certain feel of anxiety into the pit of her stomach. but she is soon to find out that it is for an entirely different reason to caroline could ever imagine. ❝ are you serious?! ❞ there is no way that they took that long. maybe damon. self absorbed, no good, brain-rot of a creature damon, but stefan? caroline can barely believe it. upon elena's question, a small hesitation enters: is she still going to judge her for the path she chose? is she going to try and change caroline? but on the other. . . she hasn't seen her best friend in so long. and she wants to. she misses her. ❝ seattle. i have a little apartment here currently. ❞ a help of certain someone that caroline isn't willing to admit to elena yet. ❝ just get here whenever you can. it will be so nice to see you again, elena. ❞

@staerdvst asked :    ‘you think it bothers me what they call me? i wear that shit like a fucking badge of honor.’

whether  it’s  a  bar  brawl  or  a  cat  fight ,    penny  always  seems  to  be  in  the  thick  of  whatever  scrap  is  happening .     she’s  not  a  fair  fighter ,    never  has  been :    all  scratches  with  her  long  nails ,    hair  pulling  and  even  biting  every  now  and  then .     pen’s  also  started  taking  boxing  every  now  and  then  to  try  to  channel  her  rage  or  whatever  the  fuck ,    which  hasn’t  made  her  any  less  angry  but  did  give  her  a  boost  in  confidence  that  frankly  she  could  have  done  without .

all  this  to  say …..     when  penny  overheard  another  dancer ,    a  new  girl ,    with  allison’s  name  in  her  mouth ,   she  listened .   she  did  not  like  what  she  heard .   so  at  four  am ,    when  the  club  closed  and  the  girls  all  began  to  go  their  separate  ways ,    penny  and  the  new  girl  argued  in  the  parking  lot .    it  got  out  of  hand  pretty  quick ,     and  pen  had  her  by  the  hair  when  allison  came  out  of  the  building  to  investigate  what  all  the  noise  was  about .     now  penny  is  sitting  in  allison’s  office ,    sulking  like  a  kid  who  got  called  to  the  principal .    allison’s  disappointment  in  her  is  clear ,    but  penny  stands  by  what  happened .    ‘  i  know  you  don’t  care ,   alli .     but  i  do .    she  had  no  fucking  right  to  say  anything  about  you ,     she  didn’t  know  what  the  hell  she  was  talking  about .    besides ,    she  swung  first .  ’    did  she ?    honestly ,   that  might  be  a  lie .    penny’s  memory  of  the  actual  fight  is  a  bit  muddled .

ㅤㅤdistracted as he may be, he still notes the way her expression changes at the mention of blood. interesting. he certainly gets it, as the call of ichor is an omnipresent ache, and one he suffers even more strongly due to his age and make. some say he feeds so much simply because he is a beast - but he truly just needs more to sustain himself. well, perhaps those things aren't exactly mutually exclusive, he muses to himself. plucking the final interloper from his flesh, he studies it for a moment before tossing it and the knife back onto the table. the kiss of wolfsbane will extend his healing time by a bit, much to his annoyance. bastards. ❛ i am feeling a bit peckish myself, all things considered. i'll need a new shirt, but would you like to grab a bite after? ❜ he gestures towards the kitchen. ❛ i have also plenty of bags from the hospital, of course. but i myself far prefer the fresh stuff. ❜