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I love my best friend. She is the first person I want to talk to in the morning & the last I want to talk to at night. When I tell her I’m struggling she tells me she loves me. When I tell her I’m happy she’s happy for me. She tells me her secrets & I guard them in my chest for safe keeping. She does the same. I love my best friend.

I hate my best friend. On Instagram I see her with her boyfriend, her other close friends, she won’t text me back. she won’t text me back. SHE WON’T TEXT ME BACK. I hate my best friend.

My best friend is the most beautiful person in the world. Her long black hair glistens in the sun, curls untamable. when she smiles I feel light, I feel full, I feel everything. I love her, I want to be near her, I even a little bit want to BE her.

My best friend is a bitch. She hates me she hates me she hates me. I see her with other people & she doesn’t want to be with me. She doesn’t say I’m her best friend on the internet. She hates me she hates me she fucking hates me.

My best friend texts me & I don’t respond because I’m busy. She still loves me & she understands. It’s not a big deal. We’re mature enough to handle something so trivial.

I text my best friend & she doesn’t respond because she’s busy. I don’t understand. I know I still love her but my body boils with an anger so deep I think it might end me. End her. End us.

The lines between love & hate are not blurred with the people I love; the lines are straight, black & bold. I love you or I hate you & there is no in-between. I want to see a blurry line for once in my life. Everything is so black & white. I try to learn how to balance things out, hold good, bad & okay all in one hand but it’s all so fucking heavy. Alone each one feels almost empty but together they’re so strong, they knock me to my knees. Can’t regulate my emotions when I feel them so intensely.

I love my best friend even when I hate her. Even when I feel she is going to leave & even when I feel she is there for me. Holding onto the love in moments of pure rage is the hardest thing in the world when that world, this black & white, front & end, bold black lined world, is so sure & so certain & so final.

I’m lucky my best friend loves me enough to see past this. I’m lucky that she still loves me when all I can see in her eyes is a blinding, red-hot betrayal for something so god damn trivial.

Disclaimer: be healthy and be safe!!! If you are noticing loss of appetite and/or feeling unsafe please stop the spell immediately!

Grab some grapefruit oil and put on the bottom of your feet during the day for energy and chant.

Let the sun assist me

With loss of weight

With all the steps I’ll make

It is my will to see

So mote it’ll be!

You will need:

- a piece of paper and a pen

- rice grains

- a bay leaf

- a red candle

What to do:

Cast a magic circle if you like. Light the candle and focus on your goal. Then draw a circle on the piece of paper and in it write words that represent your goal ( e.g. weight loss, vitality, health, endurance, motivation, …) . Use one grain of rice for each word you write. Put the rice and the laurel inside the drawn circle and fold the paper so you have a small paper bag and the rice and laurel don’t fall out. Then burn the package with the candle. Speak:

“Sacred fire, I pray to thee, make these wishes come to me”

Well , nothing I give you can take the place of proper diet and exercise , “if you are like me exercise is the key since eating right just isn’t going to happen. ;)”That being said , here you go, complete the potion just once before you start the meditations , repeat the meditations every few days for the first couple weeks , weekly after that .

You’ll Need :

a dash cinnamon1 cup (crystal)a dash salt (any type)1 teaspoon vinegar½ cup water

Mix all the ingredients together in a crystal glass. Start with the water, then trickle in the vinegar, while doing so say the following:

Add to this glass from which I’ll drinkThe vile taste one would surely think.

The throw in a pinch of salt saying:

And a bit of salt to kill the tasteOf my life I shall not waste

Then toss in a bit of cinnamon saying:

And finally a touch of spiceTo make my body slim and nice

Then swirl the entire mixture around with the cup in both hands. Hold it above your head and say:

With this potion that I drinkI’ll lose the weight that I thinkI need to lose and then some moreThis magic potion born of war.

Then drink the entire glass .~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Now the Willpower meditation , You’ll Need :

1 candle (large and light blue)1 candle (long and white)1 candle (small and purple)incense (any type) or potpourri (any type)matches

This spell can be cast anywhere where you can remain for a period of time (the longer the better) and where you will be undisturbed and comfortable. Light the candles and start the incense or potpourri (you don’t need both, just one, or if the candles are scented that works as well).

Lay down in your comfortable place and chant the following chant:

Give me strength and guide me right,To my goals when they’re in sight,But even when they’re far away;Guide myself towards the dayWhen I shall stand upon the shoreMy conflicts gone forever more.And guide myself to make the choice,That I can’t bring myself to voice;And calm my tormented, ravaged soul,From right now till forever more.

The more often the chant is spoken, the more will power you will be given. The spell will fade over time and it is best if it is cast at least weekly .

Also ,remember with all spells intent is key , don’t doubt, don’t try , just do .

Well , nothing I give you can take the place of proper diet and exercise , “if you are like me exercise is the key since eating right just isn’t going to happen. ;)”That being said , here you go, complete the potion just once before you start the meditations , repeat the meditations every few days for the first couple weeks , weekly after that .

You’ll Need :

a dash cinnamon1 cup (crystal)a dash salt (any type)1 teaspoon vinegar½ cup water

Mix all the ingredients together in a crystal glass. Start with the water, then trickle in the vinegar, while doing so say the following:

Add to this glass from which I’ll drinkThe vile taste one would surely think.

The throw in a pinch of salt saying:

And a bit of salt to kill the tasteOf my life I shall not waste

Then toss in a bit of cinnamon saying:

And finally a touch of spiceTo make my body slim and nice

Then swirl the entire mixture around with the cup in both hands. Hold it above your head and say:

With this potion that I drinkI’ll lose the weight that I thinkI need to lose and then some moreThis magic potion born of war.

Then drink the entire glass .~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Now the Willpower meditation , You’ll Need :

1 candle (large and light blue)1 candle (long and white)1 candle (small and purple)incense (any type) or potpourri (any type)matches

This spell can be cast anywhere where you can remain for a period of time (the longer the better) and where you will be undisturbed and comfortable. Light the candles and start the incense or potpourri (you don’t need both, just one, or if the candles are scented that works as well).

Lay down in your comfortable place and chant the following chant:

Give me strength and guide me right,To my goals when they’re in sight,But even when they’re far away;Guide myself towards the dayWhen I shall stand upon the shoreMy conflicts gone forever more.And guide myself to make the choice,That I can’t bring myself to voice;And calm my tormented, ravaged soul,From right now till forever more.

The more often the chant is spoken, the more will power you will be given. The spell will fade over time and it is best if it is cast at least weekly .

Also ,remember with all spells intent is key , don’t doubt, don’t try , just do .

Here’s a quick and easy chant to encourage weight loss.

It’s good to massage the areas of your body that you want to lose weight in. So, use your power hand and massage your stomach, thighs, arms, where ever.

~massage counterclock wise~

remove the fat that has clung to my body

i vow to never eat anything rotten

~massage clockwise~

make me skinny like i used to be

now i will be skinny, mote it be.

Repeat 3 times.

If you wish to massage serums that encourage weightloss while you chant, that’s totally okay! It may even boast your spell.

Thanks for reading, be safe ✨⭐️💫

Results will be recorded as I use it

sept. 15, 2019: my appetite and unhealthy cravings decreased

sept. 17, 2019: there’s now a 1 inch gap in my calves and my stomach doesn’t protrude much anymore

sept. 30, 2019: i came down with a sickness that lasted only a day and forced me to fast. now my appetite has changed and so has my tolerance to large portions

If you’re like me, you start working out and after a month – or when you go on vacation, or get super busy – you lose your motivation. You stop working out. And then, in about three to four months, you start the cycle all over and it’s like you’ve never worked out a day in your life. Frustrating, right?

Well, luckily, if you’re still like me, you do ~witchy things~, there are some things you can do to help keep that motivation going. Oh yeah, magic is awesome. Now that I’ve said that, let me clarify: this spell isn’t going to “work like magic”. You’re not suddenly going to become a super fit gym and/or yoga rat. You’ll still have to work for it. But, with this spell, your desire to quit will be replaced with invigoration! 

(There’s also the added bonus of this being a very practical fitness mat cleaner… two birds, one stone.)

You’ll Need:

Rain water

Sandalwood Essential Oil

Coconut Oil

Spray bottle

Begin with rain water. Ensure that is filtered. It doesn’t need to be drinking quality, but as this is a cleaner, it certainly shouldn’t be dirty either. Add one to two small spoonfuls of coconut oil. Pop in the microwave for 30 seconds, stirring halfway through. Then add 0.5mL (about 12 drops) of sandalwood essential oil. Stir clockwise. As always, remind yourself of your intent. Performing this spell post-workout would be great since you’ll be in the workout mindset already. 

Once complete, pour mixture into a spray bottle.

^ That’s mine. I would actually recommend a glass spray bottle, but plastic works too! Glass will just help it stay fresh longer (and its better for the environment). 

Then, spray the shit out of your fitness mat. And by that, I mean give it a few generous little squirts. Then, take a damp towel and lightly scrub your mat. Let it dry (and this is important because coconut oil is slippery, so if you don’t get some of it rubbed in with the cloth, you could hurt yourself by slipping). 

While it’s drying, you might choose to take a seated meditation pose on the mat. Or, if you’re in a rush, no worries. Just continue on with your day and come to your mat tomorrow! The important thing is to return to the mat, even for a couple of minutes, within the next 12 to 24 hours from its cleaning. This will solidify the spell. 

Once the spell is complete, relax. Enjoy!