red river

bro what if i was the only person to successfully pull you back from the edge . bro what if , despite everything , it started with you and me and it ended with you and me . what if our parallel was that just like you ended up “ killing everything you love “ i had to kill you because i loved you and i truly don’t believe you’re the monster everyone else says you are . what if i hold you in my arms and try to stop your bleeding as you gaze at me and you know everything is finally over . what if if you’re uttering out your last to me , i’m holding onto your hand , the same hands that have caused so much harm , the same hands that have caused me harm , and i’m smiling for you because you’ve always been smiley and cocky and brave and just for once it’s my turn — what if i was the first person you spoke to when you were introduced to and the last person you spoke to when your arc was complete . what if the last thing you heard before everything faded to black was my guttural sobbing , and then my sobs echoed in that darkness . what if you dragged me into all of this , you dragged me into and all through hell , and my final act of loving you was letting you leave first . what then . what then bro 😳