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every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

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im not suicidal but i have a very specific plan to kms if i need to and have come very close to doing it and think about how much i dont want to be alive all day

on this topic does h4nging hurt….

so crazy how part of me was sperm once. like damn why was i trying so hard to be a person this sucks

i just hate feeling so forgotten and unimportant

we are so back (relapsing)

Theres nothing more disturbing than being self aware while you have severe mental illness. Like I’ll be breaking down, bleeding out, about to off myself and then remember that normal people don’t do this shit and any sane person would go to the damn hospital.

i hate everyone and i wish i never made any connections to anyone

crazy how putting your mental health before your future is great until it affects your future which affects your mental health which affects your future

I’m sick of seeing everyone else get what they want, or worse, seeing them get what I want.