Dream Girl

Also, when we move too much during an argument, or lean forward, it’s scary, and I never knew. I was even a little insulted at first, because surely she didn’t think I would hurt her. But see, that doesn’t matter. It wasn’t a sign that she mistrusted me specifically; it’s a conditioned response. (Although if you keep doing it once you realize it scares her, she SHOULDN’T trust you.)

Not every woman has been physically harmed by a man she trusted, but every woman KNOWS a woman who has.

I used to be horrible about this, because I didn’t realize how intimidating it was. I didn’t understand why the woman I was with clammed up or tried to tell me what she thought I wanted to hear, and I only got angrier, and acted even more like an asshole. It was wrong. It was abusive. It didn’t matter if I INTENDED it that way; it was still emotionally abusive. And it was inexcusable.

I get that when passions are high, and when you’re frustrated, it’s a natural tendency to let your voice get louder, to shout and gesture and lean forward. But you can train yourself to do better. You can train yourself to keep more of an even tone, to refrain from large and fast gestures, to not lean into her personal space. I did. I’m not perfect at it yet, but goddamn it, I WILL be.

Teacher:

ok i will tell the tale

so im taking this spanish class, spanish professor wanted us to go out to eat to practice. im all prepared, i punch in the address and drive 2 the place. turns out this place isnt really a restaurant so much as it is a small habitable zone at the back of a vast, empty mall

there was dead silence and darkness. 90% of the outlets were shut down and blocked off

it was 2 o’clock on a Saturday, but this mall was COMPLETELY barren. an air of powerful curses hung in the air. none of the escalators were working, i had to hike up one like stairs

of course once i got to the restaurant i had a nice time and some p good food and a guy with a saxophone serenaded us with covers of pop hits

for the most part, it is still the creepy empty mall it has always been. but this time even less stores were open, even the columbian restaurant was closed.

the food court, which was slightly open before, was utterly barren, and for some reason slightly sped-up mexican sounding music played over the completely empty venue

What scene is shown simultaneously with Padme giving birth? Anakin being put into the suit. And going by this, Padme dies at practically the same moment Anakin’s transformation is complete. And here’s why that’s significant: Palpatine’s master was said to have been working on (never says if he figured it out) a way to lengthen life/bring someone back. By using the Force, the very thing that flows in everyone. Therefore, it is safe to assume that Palpatine either finished what his master started or just learned the knowledge. Palpatine literally drained Padme’s lifeforce and gave it to Anakin. There is literally no way he would’ve survived otherwise. And there’s definitely no way Padme would’ve just keeled over. No. Palpatine was the reason she died and the reason Anakin didn’t. It also explains why the droids couldn’t find anything wrong with her. They can’t sense the Force.

And in case you need further proof: When Anakin comes to, he immediately and expectantly asks where Padme is because he felt her presence. And Palpatine responds that “it would seem that in your rage, you killed her.” Now why would he say that, when we all know full well that Anakin left her alive and well?? It’s because in a way, Anakin was the reason for her death. This also explains why Palpatine looks so utterly gleeful in this scene. Because he knows that a) he’s got a new puppet of course, but b) he just gave Anakin his final, fatal push to the Dark Side. Had Padme been left alive, Anakin never would’ve truly succumbed to the Dark. And even if they were to lie and say she died, chances are Anakin would’ve felt that she was alive, somehow. No, Padme had to die. And by killing her this way, it kept Anakin alive, and gave Palpatine a legitimate excuse to tell Anakin that he himself was the one who killed her. That alone was the only way Anakin was going to completely relinquish the Light: if he believed that in his attempts to use the Dark to save his wife he had instead killed her, he would believe he was too far gone, that there was nothing left for him but this dark path he had set himself on. (This is further proved by what he says to Luke in VI, and by how simply finding out he had children, something to actually live for, was enough to make him come back to the Light.)