im so happy to have created something new today. im so glad that the project that was weighing me down most, for other people's sake, is over. im detaching from it and moving forward to making what i really want to make. im so happy to work with someone who values my ideas and trusts my intellect and experience. im so happy to keep working towards my goals.

i feel myself calcifying under the rot of male subordinance. i love being soft. i hate being rotten to stone. if only i really wanted to be alone.

bittersweet day today. my short film premiered but im so disappointed with it. im ashamed to have my name on it. and I'm going to blame the producer. its not what i wanted it to be, and its sloppy, and the whole experience with a few of those people was a traumatic nightmare. i cant wait for my next films. where i am actually valued and respected.

im mad at my bf so i dont want to look cute for him but thats impossible for me