kitt

Having a personality disorder is weird because you’re always going to extremes to try and make yourself happy but all you ever do is gradually destroy yourself and you can’t explain to anybody why you do the shitty things that you do.

when Lemony Snicket wrote “I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you everyday” that hurt me

Am I cute? No. But do I have a nice personality? Also no

i don't get anon hate simply because everyone loves me and im their favourite. this is true

what the fuck is Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, I thought EVERYONE fell into a self-hate spiral when they thought someone hated/was angry with/was annoyed at them???? like what???????????

i hope that you still think of me, even after all this time.

i basically assume that people don’t like me unless they explicitly tell me they like me and then periodically remind me

Is it just me or does bpd makes yall get like a sort of depressive jealousy (If i can even call it jealousy) when your fp is doing something with someone else as well? I'm usually pretty chill but I get sad when I see my fp out with someone or doing something she doesn't do with me. I wouldn't say it's jealousy because I don't want to be them but i'd still feel bad after seeing it. I usually try not to think about it to avoid being more sad. Is this just me or can yall relate?

I don’t understand why you’re so kind to me. You’ve never raised your voice, you don’t force me to talk about the bad things, you don’t manipulate me into doing things and I just don’t fucking get it. Why are you so fucking kind. I don’t deserve it I don’t deserve it I don’t deserve it I don’t fucking deserve it