a small bean

not to be dramatic but life is feeling a lot like that time Edward broke up with Bella in twilight and Stephenie made all the chapters during the break up empty pages with just “September.” “October.” “November.” written at the top

alternate narrative: it’s actually fine if someone found me a little weird or even off-putting. i am a little weird and it’s no big deal

supporting questions: how many genuinely delightful people who you like spending time with are, themselves, a little weird? perhaps even capable of being interpreted as off-putting? would you characterize those peoples’ weirdness as inherently bad, or something that makes you not want to be around them? or do enjoy their weirdness because that’s part of who they are? if someone came up to you and was like, “ew, that friend of yours is so weird, what’s their problem” how would you react?

hey babe did it hurt when you fell from heaven? it did huh, emotionally, right I get that, because of the– yeah the irreconcilable separation from goodness as a result of a single decision that can never be undone or atoned for, uh huh, sounds rough