où est squeezie quand on a besoin de lui

yeah actually thats kind of what i was thinking?? im really not comfortable being qualified as gay (even tho technically i Am in a gay relationship) or even just with my gf saying stuff like “cécile thats gay” for example.. im a bit more comfortable with bi bc it feels closer to my case so thats y ive been using it?? or at least thinking about it

yeah like… what bothers me is that i know my orientation and sexuality are a part of me but… i dont consider them a part of my personnality?? its just… smth thats there.. but i dont want it to be such a big part of me to others??

youre right… to ever manage to accept myself i guess i have to look for things thatd more make me comfortable in the situation im in..

yeah im like….., turning 15 next month!!! so i know i really have a lot of time ahead but its kind of stressing me out..,,

im…..,,,,,,, trying to but i think i sound more depressing than anything else;;; idk how she even replies to me……… so brave..

yea i mean i know its just feelings and that im not ill or anything but i cant help but feel like i played myself?? that i was like… betrayed?? by my own self?

thats actually an excellent comparison…. ill remember it..!

its ok if you dont know russian!!! i still very much appreciate the fact that you took the time to write an ask alone!!!

i mean… i felt like she was like a very very good friend for a while and i sometimes thought about kissing/hugging her so i assumed i probably had a crush but.. in the end i just dont know what it is exactly that i feel..

“Also it’s okay to be like 99% straight and be attracted to just one girl!” THIS IS TOTALLY HOW I FEEL ive never thought about falling in love with a girl before and even in general i may find girls pretty aesthetically speaking but not like… attractive to me??? idk if im wording this correctly

anon…. i just dont know what to say besides ty…..

i just dont know what to do anymore… i feel like a monster and its just been like 24h that weve officially been together but i just.. feel revulsed by myself.. i thought confessing to her and getting friendzoned would make me healthier but since that didnt happen its been even worse……. and i feel so guilty saying that bc shes so sweet.. i really dont want to hurt her…the worst is i just cant stop thinking about it.. ive always liked boys.. i liked boys so much that all of the characters or the webcomic i plan on making are boys but i guess that may be another subject ha..

what will i tell people around me… what will i tell my parents.. as soon as i tried to tell my mom that i was probably bi she said shed accept me for who i was but ended up talking about oedipus assuming that if i was that id come from a complex or smth..