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Here I am logging in just to grab something, and now Iâm back to sulking cause I miss Espion. ; n ;
HECK YES!!!! I FINALLY RECOVERED LYLAâS ACCOUNT!
I had used a very old email for Lyla, so I was locked out cause tumblr forced me to change the pw but I couldnât even access her email for the longest time. BUT NOW I DID IT...
Iâm still trying to recover Seraâs account tho... orz I just donât remember which email I used for hers...
Hey there, Mickey Mouse
OPEN STARTER
Itâs been a while since she had returned to work, and gradually, she was back on top of her game. Yet her inner turbulence, despite dropping down to more manageable levels, nonetheless still fuelled her fear that she was not putting in as much effort as she should be. And so despite practically living inside the underground base, she still continued to over compensate.
But of course, that comes with its own fair share of physical strains. She felt weak, and the headaches were a constant condition nowadays, along with keyboard impressions on her cheek when her head simply plopped down every time she crashed. And so, even though she preferred to avoid coffee to help her control her nerves, she couldnât care less anymore and was ready to down a gallon of it.
And so, there she was back again in the break room, prepping the-she-lost-count-th pot of coffee that day, and unaware of someoneâs presence, she continued the conversation she started with herself back in her lab, giggling every now and then, even throwing her head back as she laughed heartily, then pausing, staring at nothing specific for a few moments before she shook her head in defeat.
âLook at  you, Lyla... youâre gonna be put in an asylum... youâve so lost your mind...â

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Fighting Intimidation. || Open
kyuhyun nods, preferring to look away as lyla gets herself back into sorts. he nods his head towards the direction of the exit and leads sera along, his hands clasped behind his back as he walks.
âi know this great cafe down the road, itâs about a block away and has the best chocolate cake in the worldâ kyuhyun says to fill the silence as the exit the building and into the chilling air of seoul.
he mainly goes to the cafe because of a certain barista but what no one knows wonât kill him and he indulges himself once a while, well more like every morning but at this point in mid day, there wouldnât be anyone of the morning regulars hanging around and it wouldnât be nice for his routine to seem broken because he was consoling a crying girl. god he had a reputation to protect.
âthey also make killer coffeeâ
It was easier to stretch a more genuine smile now, she nodded, treading on by his side, (and feeling a tad too tiny next to him, sans her heels.) âChocolate cake and coffee would be great.âÂ
She paused for a moment, and then compelled by her natural affinity to blabbing, and fuelled by her anxiety, (silence would only leave her alone with her demons), she went on, âdid you know that chocolate is a natural anti-depressant? Of course they say itâs dark chocolate, the less sweet kind that makes you wanna scrub your tongue after cause the taste lasts so long if you eat nothing along with it and all.. but seriously anyway thatâs so wrong! They ever heard of comfort foods? well your typical sweet chocolate could then fulfill two roles, one to satisfy your craving and the other giving you a dose of endorphins or whatever the name of the happy hormone isâ
Mindless chatter, she went on at a high speed, interrupted only by her dwindling sniffles, and occasionally wiping her nose with a tissue.
If Kyuhyun was hoping for a silent, relaxing break, he mightâve just picked the worst partner for it.
Tracker. [022816]
Awaiting:
@spxsuho [ Moving Forward]
@spxkyuhyun [ Fighting Intimidation ]
@spxjinhee [Out of Commission ]
Plotting:
@jiminspx
@leesungyeolspx
@kimheechulspx
@jinyoungspx
@spxmurklass
@spxsoohyuk
You? [ please come at me, Iâm desperate for threads! ;; ]
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Answering meme questions
out of commission,
spxjinhee:
âgod, whatââ oh she beat her to it. a laugh bubbles from her throat, âman, i was about to ask you the same thing.â jinhee eyes the granola bar in lylaâs fingers, and then flicks her focus back at her colleagueâs face. âif i wouldnât die from sitting on my ass, typing code all day and night, i would definitely die from eating just a breakfast bar at this time.â
she takes it upon herself to settle herself down onto the same couch, bringing her feet up to cross her legs. she smiles. âi donât really know what iâm doing â guess iâve got extra energy from playing trapped baby here in HQ.â she chooses to omit how creepy she couldâve been perceived just wandering around at night. the thought hangs in the air, but is waved away by her hands in an exaggerated stretch of her arms. âdo you wanna go out? have some real food?â and itâs then where jinhee moves from her place, toward lyla, slowly taking the snack from her hands, freely taking a bite to claim it. she speaks, mouth half full. âyou need it.â
Lyla simply shrugged in response to Jinheeâs question, a soft smile remaining on her lips as the latterâs warm demeanour eased her own anxiety of interacting with her coworkers considerably. âIt has lots of chocolate though.. and handmade!â She took another bite off of her bar and continued to chew.
âOh... which Mother Gothel is trapping you here now? What did you do?âÂ
She watched Jinhee take her snack from her fingers and eat in on it with agar, and frankly quite surprised lips, âbut...â she protested with her facial features, âI was eating that!â She pouted, though suppressed a smile as the obnoxiousness of the other female felt strangely relieving; (she thought it a very odd thing to do, but that was perfect, as she herself was quite peculiar in her own way., and it sometimes made her self-conscious.)
Grabbing some real food sounded like a great idea, and she almost agreed thoughtlessly before the realization of the hour dawned upon her, and she hesitated, fuelled by a post-traumatic fear of being outside at night. âIâm not against something delicious, but maybe we can just order online and have it delivered?â
Obligatory Semi-Hiatus
Hello everyone!
This is just to say that Iâm putting both my girls (Sera and Lyla) on a semi-hiatus (and perhaps even a full one) as the Internet in my dorm has been absolutely terrible for days, but today it just reached another level and itâs driving me crazy. OTL
So until then, my activity will be quite limited as I wanna save my phoneâs data for later. :(
Thank you and happy rping!
Hello everyone! I hope youâre all surviving the winter better than I am. ; u ; I know Iâve been kinda slow, (mainly due to being sick + having midterms), but Iâll try my best to get to things asap.(including the questions! which btw, each person that reblogged should have received an ask from either Lyla or Sera depending on which account I was on at the time.)
That being said, I would really like to pick up some more plots/threads for both my girls, so if you could please like this post, I will come straight to you and we can plot!
They each have a plotsâ page too: ( Sera + Lyla ), so feel free to check them out.
Aaaaand, happy rping!

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CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT MEME
Greetings, Espion! We thought it was about time for another meme! This time the focus is on character development! Send a number to your fellow members and answer some questions you receive about your muse you may not have thought about before! Reblog this post to let people know youâre keen to do this, and remember to send as many numbers as you receive; donât leave people out! Prompt ideas credited to apeacebone.
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Fear is like a fake friend â it warms you up and takes you in. You mouth the words but no sound comes out.
Foster the People, âWarrantâ, Torches (via wnq-music)
out of commission,
hiatus from missions mean being stuck back at base. and while it may not necessarily be a bad thing, after all itâs ensuring her safety and recovery, jinhee was also a soul who would be struck by boredom if she stayed in the same environment for more than just five minutes. and would go to say is also a soul that would rather be injured than idle.
in reality, she does have paperwork to do⌠but letâs just say it doesnât exist as long as sheâs not looking at it. thus, she is everywhere it is not, opting to socialise (see: annoy) with her busy coworkers and witness the myriad of responsibilities they go through each day.
âlong time no see!â she chimes, prancing up to her next victim with glee, tidy ponytail swishing from side to side with each step. âwhatcha up to?â
After her mental breakdown, and upon her return from her unannounced disappearance, sheâd been over-compensating, practically living at the agencyâs underground HQ, and only leaving to grab a fresh set of clothes, and shower. She was still suffering from her helpless anxiety, and fear of re-approaching her colleagues with the same energy and liveliness, and so, most of her time was spent facing her screens, (and her collection of plushies and toys when she needed a break.)
But she was finally fed up, she needed a change of sight when she decided to take a short snack break, and it was an ungodly hour to begin with, so she didnât expect to run into many, if anyone at all. And so she plopped down on one of the couches in the shared space, and with closed lids, quietly munched on a granola bar. She was finally realizing just how achey she felt, when the sudden chiming startled her, and her eyes snapped open.
âHi!â She imitated the peppiness without much thought, though her voice came out rather raspy from having not spoken for God knows how long. She smiled softly and shrugged, âgiving my eyes a break, Iâm starting to see codes whenever I close my eyes, you know? Theyâre too bright!â
She chuckled. Being gone so long herself, she didnât have a clue about the otherâs situation, âwhat about you? Whatâre you doing here so late?â
Fighting Intimidation. || Open
right at this moment kyuhyun is even more worried and afraid. he doesnât know what to do at this moment in time. crying is one thing and hysteria is a whole new ball park.Â
the girl in front of him is someone he kinda knows he canât really remember her name but itâs there somewhere in the recesses of his mind. theyâre in the same department, that much he knows for sure.
kyuhyun moves forward, hands on the girlâs shoulder. âlyla-sshi right? calm down. coffee is good yes, it is also some otherâs liquid courage and i think you need more tea than coffee nowâÂ
he wipes away her tears reflexively, her skin soft under his touch. âstop with the tears yeah? how about you buy the coffee and i buy the cake? will that work for youâ kyuhyun says with a soft reassuring smile at the younger agent.
If she were to be frank, sheâd say that the last thing she expected upon her return is someoneâs kindness. It left her rather speechless, her who can talk for hours upon hours without a pause. And so she couldnât help but nod, (though unable to stop the flow down her cheeks, she carefully wipes her lower lids with her sleeves as to not ruin her mascara further).
Besides, his idea of getting out (and away) from the workplace seemed like an excellent idea at the moment, as she really didnât think it would look alright for her to walk into the department red-eyed. And so she attempted a soft smile, sniffling as she nodded, âtea and coffee and cake sound great right now...âÂ
She wiped her sweaty palms onto her pastel mint jeans, and proceeded to fumble with her fingers.
Moving Forward.
@spxsuho
She wasnât sure if acting like nothing happened would actually make it so it really was as if nothing happened, but she did it anyway. Blocking was the only thing that could possibly prevent her from another breakdown, and she needed so desperately to stay as collected as possible; to prove that she was still an asset to the team, and not an expendable liability. And somehow, sitting behind her desk, tapping obsessively at the keys of her keyboard, she was finally calm, serene; she was in her element, and she was back to being mozart rather than the impaired, handicapped, scaredy-cat she was not so long ago.
But then she heard her name, recognizing the addresser as none other than Lancelot. She owed him a thank you, in fact, she might have even owed him her life for saving her during the masquerade, for snapping her out of the trance she had fallen into that would have undoubtedly cost her gravely. She couldnât remember if she had thanked him during the 2 weeks prior to her sudden falling out of action, but she had a feeling he wasnât there to ask for gratitude.
Anxiety bubbled in her chest as she hesitantly responded, âyes?â She could swear she could predict what was coming next; the reprimands she was so dreadful of. (Of course, she had no idea Jonghyun explained her situation at HQ, hence their tolerance.)

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Fighting Intimidation. || Open
spxkyuhyun:
usually he would be at his office right now but pressing matters at headquarters had called him back. heâd just finished discussing matters with another agent regarding weaponry and intended to head for food. he glances at his watch as he rounds a corner and crashes right into another person the minute he wasnât looking right in front of him.
âiâm sorryâ he apologizes immediately, bending over to help the woman up. sheâs dressed very nicely but not like most of the other in HQ. and then heâs drawn to her tear filled eyes.
on any normal day kyuhyun would have apologized and walked away from making a woman cry but the girl in front of him seems so broken and unguarded, like a kicked kitten and he canât help what leaves his mouth next.
âif youâre not busy, iâll buy you coffee as an apology for knocking you overâ immediately kyuhyun already feels foolish, bringing his hand to rub absently at his nape looking somewhat sheepish.
Anxiety is much like a drug that distorts your mind in the most unpredictable ways, and right then, she was overwhelmed.
âIâm sorry itâs my fault I wasnât looking where I was going I-I shouldâve looked but I didnât and itâs my fault Iâm sorryâ She muttered at a rapid speed.
Sweaty palms grasped onto the taller maleâs arm as he helped her up, and it took every bit of her to glance up enough to register who he was. Cho Kyuhyun. She had seen him around the labs, barely interacted with him though. But the simple fact that they shared the same department amplified her anxiety to an insane degree. What sort of rumours went around during her month of unannounced absence? It was ridiculous to fear being hated by her colleagues, as in the end, they were simply sharing the same job. But Lyla being Lyla, she simply wanted to be accepted by everyone she met.
Her lips quivered as she stumbled to deliver a response, tears sliding down her cheeks, and she wiped them away with trembling fingers. An ashamed chuckle escaped her lips, she couldnât believe he would offer her a coffee when she was absolutely certain she had tainted her image in the eyes of every single one of her coworkers.
âBuy me a coffee? I should buy you a coffee Iâm the one that showed up out of nowhere so really if anyone should be buying anyone anything it should be me but you know coffee is bad for you or no not really but caffeine is bad when your nerves are so wired up I think I should just not drink coffee but I probably should drink me some liquid courage why didnât I do that before coming in today oh right because you canât really work while intoxicated and and...â Her speech was naturally fast, but with the amount of anxiety brewing within her, she mightâve just forgot what it meant to breathe while talking.
More silent tears slid down her cheeks, and once more, she wiped them away, exerting the same embarrassed laugh as she quieted down, âIâm sorry... I should stop talking...â