☤professional faggot☤

And if there is a god, dressed in light with lungs full of burning stars, may he crumble to his knees, take my small plain face in his hands, and tell me, “I am sorry.”

“ I got pulled over more in the first two years after my transition than I did the entire 20 years I was driving before that. Before, when I’d been stopped, even for real violations like driving 100 miles an hour, I got off. “

“ A couple of years after my transition, I had a grad student I’d been mentoring. She started coming on to me, stalking me, sending me emails and texts. My adviser and the dean — both women — laughed it off. It went on for the better part of a year, and that was the year that I was going up for tenure. It was a very scary time. I felt very worried that if the student felt I was not returning her attentions she would claim that I had assaulted her. I felt like as a guy, I was not taken seriously. I had experienced harassment as a female person at another university and they had reacted immediately, sending a police escort with me to and from campus. “

“ I am hyper-aware of making sudden or abrupt movements, especially in airports, train stations and other public places. “

“Prior to my transition, I was an outspoken radical feminist. I spoke up often, loudly and with confidence. I was encouraged to speak up. I was given awards for my efforts, literally — it was like, “Oh, yeah, speak up, speak out.” When I speak up now, I am often given the direct or indirect message that I am “mansplaining,” “taking up too much space” or “asserting my white male heterosexual privilege.” “

“ My ability to empathize has grown exponentially, because I now factor men into my thinking and feeling about situations. Prior to my transition, I rarely considered how men experienced life or what they thought, wanted or liked about their lives. “

“ I do notice that some women do expect me to acquiesce or concede to them more now: Let them speak first, let them board the bus first, let them sit down first, and so on…  As a former lesbian feminist, I was put off by the way that some women want to be treated by me, now that I am a man, because it violates a foundational belief I carry, which is that women are fully capable human beings who do not need men to acquiesce or concede to them. “

“ What continues to strike me is the significant reduction in friendliness and kindness now extended to me in public spaces. It now feels as though I am on my own: No one, outside of family and close friends, is paying any attention to my well-being. “

“ Apparently, people were only holding the door for me because I was a woman rather than out of common courtesy as I had assumed. Not just men, women too. I learned this the first time I left the house presenting as male, when a woman entered a department store in front of me and just let the door swing shut behind her. I was so caught off guard I walked into it face first. “

this is what we’re talking about when we say that transmisogynists are literally trying to get trans girls killed. 

They locked a fucking child out of safety during their drill. During their drill, when no one was panicked, when they had time to develop a proper plan and work through whatever bullshit transphobic implicit bias they had. And they still made the call that she didn’t deserve safety. As part of the plan. 

This is blatant, systemic transmisogyny. Fuck everyone who wants to hurt little girls just because they’re trans. Y’all are literal demons. 

But they said. “Even if we aren’t trans in the same way, it’s still giving trans people more media coverage and representation.”

And the irony is that it’s giving trans people representation as non-dysphorics.

I’m still considered some tranny freak and if I’ve not made loads of effort people still laugh at me in bars and threaten me.

All people have come to terms with more is that some people don’t want to transition and will still change their pronouns because of their feelings. Right now that is the loudest group online and in university cities.

I am still seen as some pointless shemale pervert and “Oh it’s one of the really weird ones lol!! Wonder if he’s had the snip!!!” I am still a laughing stock because the point of transitioning being an essential part of trans life has taken a backseat further than everything else.

Cross dressers are now trans, drag queens are considered trans by some groups.

I’m trying my best to live as a woman and be respected as transgender and I literally can’t be while the loudest voices have literally nothing in common with the transsexuals the term is affiliated with.

I got yelled at because they got mad when they couldn’t tell me how that is different from crossdressers.

The answer is: It’s the same thing

Enjoying being seen as the opposite sex or androdgynous is a common thing to a significant amount of humans.

That is curiosity, playing with gender roles and enjoying clothing not typically associated with you. It will make you feel happy and unique and special because it does that to everyone to stand out and be interesting in a culturally attractive or shocking or popular or controversial way.

It isn’t a neurological condition that makes your life hell where you wish you could just leave this shit at the door.

You’re reading far too into your emotions and linking it to the growing group of people who also don’t know what being trans is… but it makes them feel good to have a group which is all considered progressive and “challenging gender norms.”

The irony is that it’s a popular aesthetic and heavily accepted in a lot of places whereas pre or during transition transsexuals are treated like dirt and seen as freaks.

Your feelings are a pack mentality of feeling unique and expressive and gender non-conformity.

Not a legitimate struggle between brain and body which forces you down this path.