sam and dean’s first kiss not being a kiss, it’s Dean clutching desperately at Sam’s shirt after a hunt, nose to nose, breathing each others air with their lips barely parted and Sam’s eyes on Dean’s mouth, Dean’s eyes shut
Dean keeps nosing against him, keeps asking, “You okay? You okay, Sammy?” and Sam’s nodding and panting and tipping his head to the side, leaning forward when Dean pulls away just slightly, and parts of them keep brushing but they’re not quite kissing and Dean won’t really let them but he won’t let go either
Sam digs his fingers into Dean’s hips and hopes it bruises, and Dean’s hands slide up to the back of his neck, and then they start tugging, still not getting close enough to be mouth to mouth, but there’s something even more desperate in the way they just end up swaying together, right on the verge of collapse
and then Sam’s “I’m okay, I’m okay”s turn to “Dean, please, Dean,” and Dean shakes his head but won’t lean back and he won’t let Sam lean back and later on when they’re out of their heads Dean will pull Sam across the front seat and kiss him hard on the mouth, because even if he said no before, he can’t get the taste of sam’s breath off his tongue anyway
