spkinginbodies

But that’s not the scary thing

I’m not scared about that

What I’m scared of?

To know, to be conscious of how much I’m sinking.

May I know that I’m drowning, may I think I’m closer to a boat

But things change when you realize that there’s no boat

That you’re swimming to nowhere

There’s just a big ocean, and you’re going deeper

And soon, you’re in the bottom of the most dark, void and lonely place.

Just you.

they tell me I am strong that I can part my seas with blood-stained hands

some days I believe them some days I just throw up my hands and submerge myself in the sinking

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself 

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself

I need to destroy something before I destroy myself