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-it will never be enough

-i am cursed with an eternal life of purpose

i am joyful

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also are you plural ?

during the long weeks of surgery recovery, the boredom of rest pushed the productive and ambitious parts of my self - you know her as pandora - into a sort of psychological dormancy. the budding restgirl i’d been building as an attempt to balance my urge to unceasingly perform the Work came to life, managing my daily affairs and spending a lot of time lying down. i love her a lot and getting to know her has been a beautiful chapter in our life. she’s having to do less work as i’ve been healing beautifully, but i’m sure i’ll see her again when i get my pussy installed (hopefully) later this year.

during one of our long internal dialogues, we examined how i’d approached art and the performance of my existence online and how these things intertwine. we did a lot of postmortem examination of girl comic and why it died in me. it’s she who talked me into closing the subscribestar as to untether my art from a profit motive, and it’s she who convinced me that if i am to have a website, it should be more than what it was.

i took this rather immaturely as i was quite depressed at the time, and so i just renamed the main index page of the site something else as to take it down so i didn’t have to think about it. i’d love to rebuild it nicer. we’ll see if i can learn enough web dev stuff as to make something up to my own standards.

i hope this ask finds you well, and that you continue to be if it does