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WHERE HAS THIS BEEN ALL MY LIFE.

WELL HELLO THERE, LONG TIME NO SEE

Why am I just now seeing this?

not to sound fucked up but i will never be completely at peace until my outer appearance is satisfactory to me

I wish I hadn’t eaten so much when I was younger.

KUZHXBX I can’t express how many times a day this thought runs through my head

lmao same

i wish i was thinner but i also wish that i didn’t wish I was thinner

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Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.