Willow My Beloved

Hi, I am Sean Matthew O. and I am a minor, that’s all you get on the age part. I use he/him pronouns, I am omni-achillean and polyamorous. I like to perform on stage with both music and acting. Following the last bit there yes I love musicals and my favorite is Dear Evan Hansen. I am also the owner of a YouTube channel that is music based. The channel is called Caffinated Rock Studios. Subscribe if you want. Or if you don’t. Idrc

I hate MAPs and really don’t feel comfortable talking with people who are adults. The oldest I would talk to would be 19 cause I am friends with 19 year olds currently.

Uhm for my beliefs I practice a craft but don’t necessarily believe in a god. I believe that the earth is a higher power and that the inhabitants can be gifted some power through good will and karma.

But yeah this is me sort of…

04/21/2022

Also me when they say their parents are unsupportive: IM THE PARENT NOW!!!

“You can’t see your friends, you have a list of things I need you to do. Maybe next time.” But next time comes and it’s the same story.

I’m so tired. I want a break. I want to sleep. I want to stop pretending I’m okay. There’s answer staring me in the face. I want to do it but yet again the “priorities” of my life that I don’t desire hold me down. People and work. I want to have friends and people around me but they are always the same kind of people. The kind who just give me more work. Even “friends” seem to do it too.

“Can you go get this for me at lunch? You’re the only senior I’m friends with so you have to do it.” Is usually what I’m asked. If I say no I get guilt tripped and made to feel like I’m in the wrong for not wanting to do something.

But the grades and schoolwork are what have me on the ground. The school determines my worth by a damn letter. My parents definitely do. And right now it seems the letter is an F. How lovely…

My parents are another thing too. I tried to tell them my preferred name. Oh how it failed. My dad claimed to support me but won’t make any effort to actually do so. He told me I have to hide who I am. He told me if people saw who I really am they’d hate it and put me in a hospital permanently. Thanks dad, I really appreciate it…