Fuck Off

Why did you lead me on

Why did you play with my heart

Why did you make me fall for you

I just wanted to love you

That's it

I wasn't asking for much

Just your love in return

You said you loved me

I didn't believe you

Each time

I felt I was being lied to

I tried to talk to you

Told you i would do anything for you

I only wanted your love in return

You said do you believe me

I said I want to

You asked again

I quietly said yes

Which was another mistake

I was going to bed and I stupidly told you I loved you

Then you let it all out

You said you didn't feel the same

You weren't ready

You weren't over your ex

And you didn't love me in a relationship way

Only in a friendly way at most

You said it's not my fault

But how can you tell me it's not my fault

When I feel everything is

Everything I did I feel is my fault

You told me not to beat myself up

And to not hurt myself

I told you....I couldn't promise anything....

And I didn't

I took more pills

I haven't been to bed and I'm not planning on it

I smoked more

I drank

And I broke down multiple times

Cuz I feel it is my fault

That I'm not good enough

Or that I'm not pretty enough

Or thin enough

Or anything i just wasn't and arent good enough for you

I'm going to miss your lips

And your hugs

Our dirty late night talks...

I want to go and delete all the pictures of you

I have a folder full of them

Ones where you are smiling

God I love your smile

Ones where you are smirking so adorably

I have dorky ones too

Pictures of you with funny filters

Pictures of with doing silly things that always made me smile from ear to ear looking at

I'm gonna miss you

I just hope we don't become strangers to one another

You broke me so many times but I kept going back

Over

And

Over

And

Over

And

Over

That was a mistake

It was all a mistake

You were using me

From the very beginning

It was all a lie

Everything

Everything you told me wasn't true

Granted i didn't believe you when you first said them

I love you so very much

I wish you the best of luck with everything

I hope you can actually find some to make you happy

unlike me

Someone prettier

Probably thinner

Probably smarter

I love you...

And I'm sorry...