it really is just me and my spotify premium account against the world huh.....

me putting my fuzzy socks on:         :-)

I just wanna lay down and like have a tree grow through me

you know that scene where Howl takes Sophie to the fields of wildflowers and she feels so wonderful that she regains her youth and smiles like the sun? I want to feel like that.

actually you will not enjoy hearing this but you literally have to abandon your self deprecating humor. besides the fact that it can drive people away you literally are only hurting yourself by constantly making jokes that further cement the idea in your head that you are not good enough. I do not care that you think its a good coping mechanism it is absolutely not and you need to start challenging negative thoughts instead of feeding into them.

really wish i could hide from the world inside a giant tree within a quiet forest while it rains rn