I AM THE LIZARD QUEEN

I should not be this sore after a very light intensity 45 minute workout yesterday, but here we are. Getting ready to go jog around the lake before I have to go to work

I have been feeling very dizzy lately. I don’t like the feeling. Not sure if it’s from excessive dab pen hitting (probably), anxiety, muscle tension in my shoulders, fucked up temporalmandibular joint, and just yeah all these things. Also shark week, it was the worst on shark week I was in so much pain. But yeah idk I started journaling a couple months ago and didn’t feel like putting all my shit on here but now I haven’t journaled in a couple weeks so I’m spilling all my shit here

Had some mental resolutions ideas that I was thinking of earlier and now that I’m going to write them down I feel like im forgetting one and it’s bugging me so badly

Ya know, it’s super unfair that I spend hours researching for and writing papers for school when so many of my classmates clearly use ai for all of their submissions. Frickin ridiculous

quite anxious tonight, not fun

I don’t want to be perceived today

Been doing so badly, and so tempted to just fast but I think that will make me binge again. Idk I just want to be able to not eat but that never lasts long. Something has to change this is not ok for me to be doing so badly at this. For someone so obsessed with losing weight I’m really bad at it

getting back on my sourdough bullshit after too long of a hiatus

just ate a single serving packet of crisps and they were so greasy I feel so disgusting now. hopefully I won’t crave crisps for a while now after this gross feeling

Very overstimulated currently and feelin quite punchy I need a punching bag