Therefore, I am

Despite having suicidal ideation at the beginning of the year and not knowing exactly where I’m going to go moving forward, I cannot believe the improvement in my fitness level in the past year. I’ve been doing weight training with a personal trainer for about a year now, never going more than a month without seeing him, every week being more common.

🥲🥲🥲 I've changed so fucking much. I do extreme and endurance sports on a regular basis. I go to the gym several times a week. I work in the outdoor industry doing ski and mountain bike photography/videography.

This guy I went on a first date with Saturday sent me multiple photos of him lifting at the gym on Sunday. No text. No explanation.

Several months later and we are actually really good friends and he’s a super sweet guy that helped me through a drug induced panic attack.

Over a year later and I’m head over heels in love with this guy. He’s never missed a “good morning” text and this is the second year he’s sent me Christmas gifts even tho I live across the country. This fall, we traveled the northeast together and it made me realized just how much I was taking him for granted. He’s such a good guy.

Several months later... I still think about him when I masterbate.

This guy I went on a first date with Saturday sent me multiple photos of him lifting at the gym on Sunday. No text. No explanation.

Several months later and we are actually really good friends and he’s a super sweet guy that helped me through a drug induced panic attack.

Several months later and she’s no longer in my life.