Freelance Rant
People are annoying, they mean well, but theyāre annoying.Ā
āAre you applying for jobs?ā,Ā ātake a course!ā,Ā āWhat do you wanna do?ā.
Nothing, for once, I donāt want to do anything. All Iāve done is work, and now that I want to sit back and review the absolute fuck fest my life has become, everyone is kindly suggesting IĀ āget a jobā, as if itās that easy.Ā
For context, Iām a freelance artist. In details, prior to the pandemic I was producing live events, then the pandemic hit, and everything flipped upside down.Ā
I did virtual events here and there, I got picked up by a speakers agency, I do part time work, but somehow thatās still not enough? I pay my bills on time, I got a grant, Iām finally able to rest, and for the first time I feel like Iām not being supported? Yet in the same breath the very same people are asking me to relax.Ā
Forgive me for being confused but do you want me to work a corporate job, or rest because the two are exclusive. Maybe Iām projecting my fears, but I genuinely feel like Iām being asked if I have a plan B. I feel like people who are not solely artists/freelance, simply donāt understand the amount of work that goes into being freelance.Ā
Itās not that I donāt want the comfort of having a steady income, but it comes at a hefty price. My sanity is hanging on by a thread these days, the last thing I need is hours in a structure I canāt seem to fold to.Ā
The other issue at hand is that my father passed and I have to manage his estate which is a full time job in itself.Ā
I just donāt fuckin know.Ā











