Steeped in Sin

Everything I read about recovering from burnout is like “it takes months or even years to fully recover” and it’s like okay…. I have a weekend before I gotta clock in on Monday

yeah the doctor said they found the source of my guilt and quiet agony deep within my core. Yeah turns out there really is something physically and fundamentally wrong with me that I've been carrying my entire life. No they said they're not gonna remove it. Said its an "elective surgery" so insurance won't cover it. Anyway how are you

if neglect is a horrible, visceral experience for a child then is it not possible that, in being shown a world where being left to their own devices & simply existing is almost the worst thing possible, they will subsequently do everything in their power to avoid ever “just existing,” even if it means never letting their thoughts settle on any matter; never arriving at the simple & effective conclusions on anything & thus having to set them down; & inventing the worst tortures for themselves - making these tortures the whole substance of their life - so that these at least can always be happening

hey what’s up i never fucking learned how to regulate my emotions

If you don't follow through with plans we share and expect me to wait forever, you'll be in for a rude fucking awakening.

I'll fucking gut you using my teeth.

I can’t keep doing this