Whispers in the Dark

Maybe I'll see you again, maybe I won't... both options scare me equally...

Could someone please take the pain away? It's killing me... And it only gets worse... I'm terrified that there will be a time when my meds stop working...

Isn't it funny how you tell me that we should have a break because I'm about to fall in love with you and you aren't ready for it... When you're the one who has asked me several times why don't I love you and once you even said that you love me a little. Perhaps the truth is that you're afraid of what you'd feel if you'd let me close...

I'm just a line in a song...

In the end of the day I just want to feel something... That someone would make me feel good.

I had a dream and it really disturbed me… It started out all nice, I was making out with a hot guy from some band and it got hotter between us and we ended up having sex. And then I got hit by guilt, the feeling was so intense and overwhelming… What the hell do you call it…  Insanity? I’m single, I can do whatever I want and it shouldn’t have been possible to feel like this…

We would so totally go on a date if you were single...

Why is it so that when I want to go out none of my friends want to join me? I want to have a drink or two, dance, flirt and have a good time. Really fucking frustrated...

I miss you.

Love... It's the weirdest thing ever... How comes that it's so easy to love things? I love this dress, I love these shoes, I love this restaurant, I love this ice cream... And when it gets to people it suddenly becomes so difficult and complicated. It's not love that I feel towards him, maybe I love him a little, no it's definitely not love...

I wish you would not excist... Or that I could delete you from my brain... Why am I not capable of forgetting you!? It makes no sense at all...

Now that I've stopped wanting you, I feel free.