{🖤Gilka🖤}

I know I'm gonna sound horrible but I'm past the point of caring tbh I genuinely just want someone to commit suicide with. Like since last year I've said to myself that if I'm not dead by the 13th of April 2031 then I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself. I just want to die and like when my dad says things like "when your my age" or "you'll understand when you have kids" I just cringe and laugh along cause I feel it in my heart I won't live to see that. I dropped out so I haven't even gone to college so idk if I'll be able to get into university. And I feel so bad cause I want to commit suicide but I don't want to go alone, yet, at the same time I don't want to drag someone along with me as that's cruel. I can't even swallow pills, there's no trains near me, there's nothing to hang from in my house and honestly I'm TERRIFIED of heights. Yet I know if I got my hands on some drugs and a high-rise I wouldn't live long. I probably explained this horribly but oh well.

How to stop binging no glue no borax

My parents fucking piss me off so bad when ever I'm in a mood or don't say anything they always assume I'm on my period or some shit

I wish someone loved me enough to die with me..👀 I SAID I WISH SOMEONE LOVED ME ENOUGH TO DIE WITH ME.. 👀

Fucking hate my dad so much, just because he has "anger" issues and short man syndrome and likely a tiny dick. He thinks he can act like a dickhead all the time without consequences, or act like every thing is okay without apologizing. Might kms just to get at him.

Literally left school at 15 this year so now I'm gonna be held back a year in college when I end up going, that's if I'm not dead by then. Genuinely why can't I just go to sleep and never wake up? I'm too much off a pussy to commit, though I know I absolutely would if I got my hands on some drugs and a highrise apartment. Though heights are my absolute worst fear, I'm also scared to go alone.

In another life I'm loved for who I am.

Can't wait to get the fuck out of my parents house and never see them again <3

Literally what the fuck is the point of my life? All I do is sleep, starve, shit, piss, eat, cry, walk and masturbate. Nothing to do. 🫶💔

Everyone pissed me off.

Haven't eaten for 2 days! Streaks lol

I miss my vape so bad

I feel like when I'm alone it's the only time I can get peace because if I'm alone the only person that can hurt me is myself, and even then I'm too tired too. I'm not aloud to be home alone because my family is worried I'll kill myself so I never get this time anymore ffs. And some girl from my school died on the 6th (may she rest in peace) from a believed suicide so that's made my family even more strict on the situation like..