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These will be headcanons about a reagent insecure about their body. Please enjoy, and consider this a 400 follower special! I appreciate y'all beyond words. Thank you so much for all the support and kind words. ♡
⚠️ WARNING: Talks of self-inflicted injuries, eating disorders, and small mentions of sex.
Leland Coyle:
* Being insecure would make you more susceptible to his manipulation. So, he would take full advantage... up until a certain point.
* Coyle would want you just insecure enough to make you feel like you're less than him. I mean, in his mind, you are anyway. You being insecure just helps him reinforce that idea.
* However, the tides will turn a bit when he sees that you genuinely start struggling. Whether you start hurting yourself (eating disorders, visible injuries...) or start becoming depressed, he'll notice.
* Only he's allowed to hurt you. You can only hurt yourself if he tells you to. Watching you suffer without his permission doesn't just show you're disobedient. It hurts him, too.
* "The hell you doin'?! Stop!"
* The thing is, Coyle can't be seen as weak. His ego is too big for that. So, he starts getting stern and angry with you.
* Coyle would start by incapacitating or cornering you in trials. He would demand you stop hurting yourself and/or tell you to "toughen up."
* If you didn't listen to him, or you got worse, Coyle would become more violent. If he found any self-inflicted injuries, he would target and shock them. No matter how fresh they were.
* If he noticed you weren't eating enough and losing a lot of weight, he would force you to sit in the cafeteria until you ate something. I do mean force, by the way. He would threaten to shock and injure you. Coyle would be there waiting on you all night if he had to. It's not like he gets good sleep anyway.
* If he noticed you were eating too much, I don't think he would understand it was a disorder at first. He would accidently make it worse by poking fun at you. He wasn't even trying to be seriously mean. He just loved watching you get embarrassed, or that's what he thought you were. Maybe it was shame.
* If your weight gain started causing issues, he would start chasing you longer and faster. Then, when he caught you, he would electrocute you until your body gave out (making sure to keep you alive). Oh, and expect a lot of vigorous sex.
~ (For context, electrocution does burn calories. Your metabolism stays elevated for minutes afterward too. Anyway, this shouldn't have to be said, but DO NOT try this at home. Electrocution can severely damage your muscles.)
* If you got bad enough, he may even consider notifying the doctors. Either that, or he'll start trying to keep you in his trials/sneak you into his sleep room. As much as it may not seem like it, he adores you. The last thing he wants to do is lose you. That being said, if someone needs to have eyes on you? He'll (gladly) make it happen.
* Behind closed doors, he may show you some sort of affection. Usually rough, tender kisses that lead to you against the wall. On calmer days (when he's too exhausted), he'll just give you hickeys and some love taps from his baton.
Mother Gooseberry:
* She's the sweetest of the bunch. Genuinely. She notices your mannerisms and pays close attention. The way you always try to cover or hide what you're insecure of.
* Mother Gooseberry is slightly more gentle with you. Both physically and mentally. When she grabs you during trials, she avoids touching the part of your body you're insecure of.
* If she has to touch that part of you, her grip isn't as rough. It'll be strong enough to keep you still, but no more than that.
* During the trial, you'll hear her compliment your body. Not in a weird or creepy way, mind you. She wants you to know that you're gorgeous just the way you are.
* "Daddy, did you see them? That little darling is so beautiful!"
* Mr. Futterman would be the exact opposite, feeding into your insecurities. He would insult you, but he would point out specific "problem" areas of your body. (There isn't any issue with your body. He's just a jerk.)
* "Beautiful? Just look at their teeth! Yellow and crooked."
* If Mother Gooseberry realized you had started hurting yourself, all bets would be off. She would be hesitant to even let the doctors near you.
* If she noticed any self-inflicted injuries, expect gentle lecturing and lots of bandages. She understands you get hurt in trials, but you shouldn't be doing it to yourself.
* If she noticed you were losing lots of weight fast, she would make you sit down to eat. Gently, need I mind you. She would sit right beside you the entire time, or maybe even eat with you. She would reassure you that you will always be beautiful, and food isn't anything to be afraid of.
* If she noticed you seemed to be eating too much, she would try harder to keep you with her so she could help regulate your diet. She'd be very subtle and sweet about it, offering you lots of fun distractions from eating. Bonus points if that distraction includes exercise, no matter the form.
* When everything is said and done, you are Mother Gooseberry's sweet angel baby. She will do what she can to keep you healthy. At least, relatively. Injuries and body changes are unavoidable in the Sinyala facility, but she'll make sure you live to see the next day.
* During more intimate moments, she'll shower your body with kisses. Paying special attention to your insecurities and leaving dozens of lipstick prints all over your skin.
Franco Barbi:
* Similar to Coyle, Franco needs to feel "bigger" than you. In his mind, you being insecure keeps you vulnerable and weak(er).
* He doesn't resort to poking fun at your insecurities a lot, but if he needs to? He will. If you get too confident and violence won't take you down a peg, he'll comment on your insecurities.
* Franco has insecurities of his own and understands feeling ugly, so he tries not to beat you while you're down.
* If Franco noticed you were harming yourself, the first thing he would do is force you to speak. Cornering you, holding you at gunpoint, asking why and how you got those injuries. Once he realized it was because you felt unattractive, he became more gentle with you. Hunting down bandages for you and forcing you to patch yourself up.
* If Franco noticed you weren't eating, that would concern him. He wants you to be healthy at the very least, but we all know he likes people who are more plush. Though, it's not even just your appearance. He'd also be worried about your lack of energy. So, he would try to save his food for you or intimidate the doctors into providing food for you. He would set up a date for the two of you in a trial, refusing to end the date until you've eaten enough.
* It would take a while before Franco would become concerned with you eating too much. As I've said, he likes you plush. He would, however, start getting concerened if you got sick or if you became depressed. If it came to that point, he would also attempt to distract you more often. Only with him, it would include more relaxed activities like cuddling and sleeping.
* During intimacy, Franco would subconsciously give special attention to your insecurities. Sucking, biting, licking, and lots of squeezing. Expect to be absolutely covered in his saliva. Bonus points if it's your chest or stomach, but he finds every part of you attractive.
* If you're having a particularly bad day, he may even give you some compliments. A lot of them would be lewd or concerning, but you'll get some sweet ones too.
* "Ya' know I like nice things, and you're the nicest thing I got sweetness."
* If you played nice, I could also see Franco trying to avoid injuring the areas you're insecure about. He wouldn't succeed all the time because Lupara is a sawed-off shotgun, but for you? He'd try. You're already insecure about that area. Why potentially make it worse? Sex with you is better when you have some confidence anyway.
Kress Twins:
* If the Kress Twins truly like you, they would be heartbroken by your insecurities. You know how Otto tells Arora, "Even if you were standing on your own legs a mile away from me, you couldn't hurt yourself in the slightest without torturing me. Please try to put on a smile, Arora."
Yeah. It would be the same with you. You deserve better than what your mind is telling you.
* Thankfully, they work for Murkoff. That makes it easy for them to get their hands on you. If they ever found out you were struggling with self harm or eating disorders, they would be quick to keep you in their trials/sleep room.
* Once in their care, the first thing they would do is examine you. Let's be honest, your examination wouldn't be on a strictly professional basis. They would touch almost every part of your body they could get their hands on. Don't worry, they would be soft and gentle with you.
* If for some reason they can't treat your injuries or nurse you back to health, they would allow the doctors to help. They couldn't separate you from Otto and Arora, but they would be allowed to aid you.
* I could see them trying to discuss your insecurities with you. If you were insecure about your weight, they would help you come up with a meal plan. If you were insecure about your teeth, maybe they'd give you prosthetics or more/stronger dental hygiene items.
* "You're more than beautiful, darling. Sexy, strong, and desirable. Anyone who says different, I'll disembowel and flay."
"Otto's right, love. You are powerful and stunning. Right beside us, as you are, is exactly where you need to be."
* Otto and Arora would let you pick out clothing that makes you feel beautiful and/or sexy, then buy them for you. The only requirement is that you need to wear the clothes in front of them. Especially if you get something sexy like lingerie? Their eyes would be all over you.
* During sex, they would focus more on you for a time. Entirely. Not even just your insecurities. They would intend to prove just how desirable you really are.
* Otto would make good on his word, too. If any reagent made you feel insecure or said anything nasty, they would be a gory mess by the time Otto was done with them.
Liliya Bogomolova:
* Although not quite like the Kress Twins, Liliya would also be heartbroken. You were her beloved, her lamb. You were more than gorgeous to her.
* If she noticed you weren't eating, I think that would concern her the most. It would remind her of her own mother and how she was abused. One of the ways her mother abused her was by starving her. Liliya did not want you, her love, enduring the same pain. She would grab snacks and replace the useful items in trials with them. Only when you took or ate the snacks would she put the useful items back out.
* If Liliya noticed you were eating too much, she would try and scare you more. Frequently blending in with the mannequins or popping out of hiding spots.
~ (For context, being scared can potentially burn calories due to an increase in your metabolism. If nothing else, fear can act as an appetite suppressant. Everyone's bodies are different, though. I'm just trying to get creative.)
* Like the others, I doubt Liliya would notice self-harm quickly. I mean, there are so many ways one person can get injured in the trials. If she did notice, she would give small comforts. Press the teeth of her mask to your scars/cuts to mimic kisses or gently wrap her hand around your scars/cuts. She wants you to know she cares without being overwhelming.
* If you became sick or if your mental health kept declining, Liliya wouldn't hesitate to manipulate anyone. If it meant seeing you healthy again, she would do it.
* If there was someone else making you insecure, she wouldn't think twice about tearing them apart or forcing them to tear themselves apart. I think Liliya would prefer to mutilate them herself since it would be more personal and satisfying.
* Liliya would attempt to "persuade" the doctors/Dr. Easterman into letting her in the same trial as you. It didn't matter who's trial you were doing. Coyle, Franco, Gooseberry... she wanted to see you. She'd be determined to monitor you.
* When intimacy calls, she may start carving hearts or crosses onto your body. Unless you've been dealing with self-harm. If you have, then she would try her best not to cut you. It was unavoidable, but she was more delicate than usual. Instead of serious cuts, they were scratches.
* "You are divine, my angel. You are worth more than your body."
* While Liliya loves to see you in pain or intense pleasure, she understands your need for more tender moments. So, she'll give you compliments or try and set aside some calmer moments for you. The compliments she gives are always genuine.
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Pusher:
* Pusher doesn't really understand why you're so insecure. He isn't upset or insanely heartbroken. He just wants to know why. He loves your body. It makes him feel good, he's able to make you feel good, you can both get high... what's the problem?
* Depending on your body and how it reacts to the drugs, he may use it for different things. If being high makes you hungry, he'll drug you if he notices you aren't eating. If it makes you relaxed or exhausted, he may use them if he notices you're eating too much.
* He wants to help, but he can't do much. If you're seriously in danger of dying, he'll try notifying the doctors. If he can't take care of you, someone has to.
* For self-harm, his methods aren't much different. Though, he does know that reagents suffer/hurt when faced with full psychosis. So he figures, if you're going to hurt yourself, why not get high too?
* Despite how it may seem, he cares about your you and your insecurities. He'll try and make you question why you're insecure about yourself. If that doesn't work, he'll give you some casual compliments instead.
* "C'mon, baby. You're enough for me, why not for yourself?"
* Pusher would find you in trials and lead you to a quieter, darker area. Not to do anything too scandalous, but just to chill. Maybe you two will sit on the floor and get a little high, not enough to put you into full psychosis. Something to distract you or calm your nerves, y'know?
Pitcher:
* Pitcher would be aggressive with you, but lovingly so. He's genuinely a little annoyed about your insecurities, but in a caring way. He doesn't like being touched yet.. he desires you enough to the point of almost wanting to be touched by you.
* Every time you say something bad about yourself, Pitcher will growl at you and shake his head. Be prepared for Pitcher's death stare.
* You know how when he snaps, sparks come from his gloves? Yeah, he's grabbing your body insecurities while his fingertips are still hot. It'll leave burn marks, but it's his way of showing he loves those parts of you.
* If Pitcher notices you aren't eating or eating too much, he would attempt to interrogate you about it. Unfortunately, Pitcher struggles to communicate. Which also means that if he wanted the doctors to try and help you, they (probably) wouldn't understand.
* Self-harm would also be an irritation to him unless you were burning yourself. Either way, he wouldn't really like it. You're getting hurt enough. Not just by him but by every other ex-pop, prime asset, trap, and trial environment. If he ever found any sharp things or lighters on you, he would take them away.
* I think Pitcher would be the type to patch up any wounds you inflict on yourself. He would go as far as cleaning your wounds with isopropyl alcohol first. Just tell him to be careful. Both the bandages and alcohol are flammable, he may accidently burn you in the process.
Night Hunter:
* The Night Hunter would be ravenous with you. He'll show you love the best way he knows how. Pain and injuries.
* It doesn't matter how he learns of your insecurities (self-harm, eating too little, eating too much, or just communication), either. He'll make you show him each of your insecurities so he can leave some cuts on your skin. After each cut, he'll force you to say something nice about that part of your body.
* I do think the Night Hunter, after learning about your insecurities, would praise/compliment you more. He may be ruthless, but he still cares about you.
* "You shine bright, little mouse."
* Another way he shows his love is by avenging you. If he learns another reagent was harassing you, he wouldn't hesitate to hunt them down. The Night Hunger enjoys the chase anyway. It's just more fun for him.
* I could also see the Night Hunter becoming a lot more touchy with you during trials, grabbing any bit of skin he can get his hands on. It's his way of showing just how sexy and desirable you are. He won't just show you he wants you, he'll show you he needs you.
* He'll come up behind you in trials and wrap his arms around you, then steer you over to the nearest wall. It doesn't always end in sex. Sometimes, he just wants to make you all hot and bothered to distract you from your insecurities. If he can make you as ravenous as him, you'll have no time to think about what's bothering you.
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I feel like I need to say that I do not condone self-harm or eating disorders as someone who has gone through both. Please take care of yourself and, if you're struggling, try talking to someone.
One more thing, I have gotten multiple questions about if and when people are allowed to ask for requests. Here's what I say: if my inbox is open, request to your hearts content!
That being said, I'm sorry to all my insecure honeybuns out there. Trust me, I empathize. Remember that you are beautiful/handsome, stunning, and so very gorgeous. Be gentle with yourself, have an amazing day, and I'll see you next time! (Hopefully.)













