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It may not look the way it actually is, I may not act like it because I have been faking it, but truth is lately I feel like I've been giving up on everything.

Things have been changing fast recently, Ya Allah protect us in our journey.

Ya Allah, I am in fear and uncertain living in this world. Don't let my heart be attached to what is not meant for me. Move my heart towards what is best for me.

Ya Allah, give me strenght and sabr from being misunderstood. Give me the ability to remain silent while facing hard times. I have no one to understand me, only You can understand me so lead the way for me.

These are the times I wish I could just vanish, vanish some where people don't know me. But I just can't. I can't.

My heart feels genuinely heavy I struggle carrying it on my own.

I am crashing, I am crashing down.

Ya Allah, I am at my lowest.

And above it all, I pray that you keep guiding me until it is time to go and let me leave this world with enough Iman in my heart so I can finally go home.

Only Allah knows the lonely hearts. Only Allah can guide us.

Always choose people who choose you, and always understand that letting go can mean loving yourself more. Stay in your lane. Focus on yourself and those people who genuinely got your back especially your family the rest are just noises. Allow no time for mind games life is too short for that. Dear self, you're doing good and I am proud of you.

Always learn to build your walls back up and love yourself.

What is truthfully behind a smile that looks too good to be true. We all know the answers, yet we carry on. We carry on towards the bridge of uncertainty even with the slightest of hope.

There will be days when I will be at my lowest, bare with me when those days come.