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Sophie as Simon AU

Posted this everywhere and now here, I'll be making more soon hopefully 🙏🙏

AU where sophie is taking simon's role

  THIS WILL BE A VERY LONG POST! I also want to make a Trigger warning before anyone reads this. Texsts will be in swedish.

So, to start with, I know this will be hard for many to take in and accept and I get it to a 100%, but sometimes the people who you look up to as your role model just aren’t good people, enough celebs have proven that and sometimes it’s just hard to believe and understand, but sadly that’s reality sometimes. As a victim and a long time fan of Andreas and his games it’s taken me two years, back when I was still young and had a very rough time coping with things, to accept the fact that Andreas has taken advantage of me, I didn’t want to believe it back at the time when it was happening to me because I admired everything about him and his games. Afraid of Monsters and Cry of Fear are still my favorite game mods that exits to this date and always have been and the day we came in contact and gave me his number and Skype and we just chatted I slowly grew very fond of him. As much as I hate to say it, I developed a hopeless crush back then. He saw my vulnerability and saw this as a chance of manipulating and grooming me. At the time when all of this happened to me I chose to turn a blind eye and brush off the things he had said until I realized how wrong everything actually was. Today he’s taken the last straw and I don’t want others to fall victim to him like I have after all these years.

It all started when I first contacted Andreas over Facebook. I was 17, close to turning 18. I contacted the Cry of Fear page regarding a photo project I wanted to do for school. I studied Photography in High School here in Stockholm (where I live) and as our final project before graduation we had a photo project of our own choosing where we basically could do anything we want. Being the geek I was, I saw this as an perfect opportunity to make a reality compared to fiction series out of Cry of Fear, which takes place in Stockholm/Sweden as many of you probably know already. So this was a very fun and easy project I came up with i thought, and it was!  However, first I needed Andreas’s confirmation that this would be fine as I would use content out of his game, just incase as I didn’t want to get into some sort of trouble as this would be published online. Least to say I was STUNNED when Andreas had contacted me back, allowing me to do my project, providing me with not only every location but as well as the code to the apartments (The scary apartment in the game) so I can get access. I was stoked and out of words, I was shaking of happiness. This is where things started to go south. He wanted to take our conversation further about my project on Skype as he claimed it’s easier to talk through there than through Facebook and of course my fan ass back and the time couldn’t contain myself and handed my Skype to him.

Things were very innocent at first, just us casually talking as friends and how my project was going. I showed him progress and he provided me with things I needed for it like individual comments about his decision as to why he put certain locations in his game. Things were friendly between us. He suggested to me that we should do a fan meet up where he would take me out for dinner. He told me that he does not have a lot of fans like myself within Sweden and how could I say no??? I was meeting the damn gave dev of my favorite game mods?? How lucky was I?? Well, not at all. I sadly could not restore this conversation from my Skype and phone as these did not get backed up but I have enough evidence to prove that we met up thanks to a little drawing that I made and gave to him in person which he posted to his Facebook.

This is an important note. I’m AFAB, identifying as nb/agender today but back then I was still going as a female so he saw me as this young fangirl basically.

After our meet up he was slowly flirting with me, making comments of me being a very cute fan of his and that he’d love to meet me more but that he’d be worried that his girlfriend would know and get jealous. I wasn’t sure how to take this really. Things started to get personal where he began talking about his girlfriend not giving the attention he wants and him being unhappy, him falling into bad depression. I genuinely felt bad for him. He told me he was slowly getting ”interested” in me and I almost couldn’t believe it. This guy I’ve been looking up to for years seeing something in me??? I was excited and developed a different interest in him myself so I was being very flirtatious back as the hopeless romantic I was back then, thinking maybe we could make something between us. Little did I know his intentions were different and he was after something else. Things started getting sexual very fast. He knew I was lonely and had a very rough time in HS and needed ”somebody”. He took the opportunity to abuse this by getting what he wanted. I do not have the messages where it lead up to me sending a nude to him but I have enough to prove that he got it and how much he ”enjoyed it” which i will provide screenshots later in this post. As I turned 18 he tried to urge me on into meeting up with him and have sex and lead me on. I wanted this back then as I was love struck with him but I was scared as I was a virgin and he loved the idea of wanting to be the one to take my virginity. He was very much aware that I  had developed a crush for him as I had told him, I told him i wanted a relationship if we were going to take things further. He didn’t want that and like every cheater says, ”I still love my girlfriend tho! I just want something a bit more” This guy wasn’t getting sex from his girlfriend apparently so he wanted that from me. From here on I started feeling more bad for his girlfriend, coming to realization that this was actually very bad. Not only for me who’s already gone through verbal sexual abuse by many exes (only been in long distant relations so nothing physical but I’ve been guided into doing things i didn’t want to) but for his girlfriend as well. I didn’t want to get used again so I declined him even though it hurt me as I didn’t quite move on from this so I further on kept talking to him sexually because I felt lonely and desperate. Most of the times he would hit me up. took this concern to reddit actually because I felt lost and felt like I just needed some guidance and for people to hit me out of my false dreams, I’ve never been in a situation in where I’ve almost had a thing with someone who I’m idolizing. My friends didn’t have the answers on what to do and neither did I. I just needed help somewhere: https://www.reddit.com/r/relationships/comments/40mzba/me_18f_is_having_a_sexual_relationship_with_my/

proof that the account belongs to me;

August 2016 

I thought with him agreeing on things with us remaining as friends and nothing more would have settled that between us, however he was showing clear signs of being displeased that he didn’t get the chance to fuck me and has throughout these years tried to check up on me if I’d still be interested on it as he fantasizes about doing me every now and then. When my best friend, Tumblr user, tothepark first came to Sweden, us meeting for the first time and have a golly time, I would get constant messages from him as me and Simon were hanging out. Apparently he had seen me posting pics of me and Simon on Facebook, actually stalking me, and was wondering if Simon was my boyfriend and if we had ”done” it. Which i really fucking weird for someone who’s wanted to bang you to ask that as a ”friend”.  Me and Simon had a little personal thing happen between the two of us involving another person within the issue, we sorted out but i had told Andreas about that we solved it in which I let him know that things were platonic between me and Simon and that Simon was gay in which he made a very homophobic comment. ”Isn’t gay a mental illness?”.

At this point I wanted to see how far Andreas would really go as he had proposed to his girlfriend in July.  I still had a bit of feelings and false hope for him left so I was still talking sexually with him. I let him know that relationships were weighing me down and that I’m not interested in being in them and he tried to help me out by suggesting maybe trying out Tinder. I told him I don’t like dating apps and I’m not interested. I took a snippit further to really confirm for myself that he was still feeling things sexually for me.”Who wouldn’t want to have sex with you ;P?”shortly followed by a very racist comment when I told him I had someone yesterday who had told me they wanted to fuck me. ””Probably a n*gger? that breed usually wants to take someone from behind and give birth to more shit.”here are a couple of more pics from that convo. Keep in mind he had proposed to his girlfriend just one month before and is talking to me like this.

Shortly later in August after Simon had left sweden: Me: “I dont know, dont like to ask a person that really, he briefly pointed it out from a long time ago that he was diagnosed with some sicknesses but that he doesn’t think that it matches with what he has. I’m a bit confused myself” Andreas: Isn’t gay a mental illness? but okay weird. Why would you have BPD? do you think you do yourself?”

me: “I really don’t know, i just know I’m sensitive and pretty desperate when it comes to things like these..I try to hang onto the person as if they were my lifeline. ” Andreas: “Ah okay, you should do onlinetests and see if the result is worth enough to take it further to the Health centre. Could be nice with a diagnose and so on.”

Andreas: “Hahaha. Yeah yes I’m a little tired too. Haven’t slept much, can’t sleep either and decided to check up how things are with you.” Andreas: “But fuck, it wasn’t the biggest relationship anyway? It’ll pass.” Me: “No but I’ve lost hope in being in relationships so I only care about friendship atm” Andreas: “Meh nah. It isn’t that hard to get a relationship.” Me: “I’m a bit special lol.” Andreas: “Talk to someone you like then he will like you back. Continue it like that and then eventually you’ll be in a relationship. And make fucking sure that the guy lives in Stockholm, otherwise nothing will happen. Maybe it’s there where the problem lies in.” Me:” Too bad there’s nobody, like I’v said I never hang outside and it’s hard talking with people.” Me: “I cannot bear with those things tho.”

Andreas: “One symptom is that you managed to fall for him who doesn’t really look attractive.” Me: “I don’t fall for people based on how they look but more on how they treat me and their personality.” Andreas: “ haha Exactly what I mean!” Me: “Fff I know that already tho.” Andreas: “I’m the complete opposite with that. I have no empathy or emotional ability for other people.” Me: “Noticed that.” (I realized I kinda need proof that these are our convo from Skype. i managed to restore a couple of really old convos through archive in which Andreas will later confirm about having received my nude. What’s disgusting to me is probably the face that he still has it..)

Andreas: “Tried Tinder? type to someone random on fb?” Andreas: “As an example you wrote to me. If I had been single than we would probably be in a relationship.” Me: “Lol dejting apps isn’t something for me. Yes but I contacted you because i felt that I had to. I didn’t think that we would take it further than that when we began chatting with each other.” Andreas: “Myeah, but do the same thing with someone else. Happens a lot more than one can imagine.” Me:” Lol yeah but what if I don’t want to? because I don’t want to right now.”

Andreas: “Eh Tinder is fun. Tried it out just to see if I could nab someone. Got tired after an hour but that’s another cup of tea.” Me: “fff.” Andreas: “Yeah okay, if you don’t want to you probably shouldn’t.” Me: “Not to have sex with them like you wanted to with me?  Nah and I won’t.” Andreas: “Noo, was just curious what the whole thing with Tinder was. And who wouldn’t want to have sex with you?” Me:” I don’t know. Why do you? Had someone yesterday who told me they wanted to take me from behind lololol.”

Andreas: “”Probably a n*gger? that breed usually wants to take someone from behind and give birth to more shit.”

Andreas: “Lol that you succeed with that.” Me “Yeah I don’t know.” Andreas: “Well you got talent at least. As said, if you really want a relationship you can fix that easily.” Me: “Eh what kind of talent?” Andreas: “Boymagnet.” Me: “I don’t even know what the fuck i’m doing hahah” Andreas: “Even better…naturally talented. Andreas: “Like me. I’m the biggest weirdo but manages either way.”

Me: “Tell me what was it that got you drawn to me?” Andreas: “Well, I like when someone admires the things I do, or are fans. Think it’s hot. Also that you’re from Stockholm and you’re cute. Me: “Haha just that?” Me: “What about other girl fans than?” Andreas: “Yeah it’s difficult. Haven’t managed to found another swede who’s good looking.” Me: “Wish i thought so myself.” Andreas: “I think you subconsciously do it, otherwise you wouldn’t have any issues with putting out pictures of yourself.” Me: “Maybe? I’m weird.”

Andreas: “But on topic. Did you have sex with the guy?”

Me: “Nope. When he came here we were still besties.” Andreas: “Ah okay, good. Better to get rid of it (virginity) with someone who looks good.” Me: “I thought you said you didn’t look good? haha.” Andreas: “Of course I look good! Hunk 3016.″ Me: “LOL.” Me: “No don’t get any wrong ideas now I think you’re good looking.”

Andreas: “But anyways think you should let go of that young guy, he doesn’t seem like someone you should hang onto.

Me: “That he broke up with me wasn’t why I got depressed. Mostly because he was my best friend and i didn’t want our friendship to get dragged down because of this lol.” Me“(did a typo here but think i meant:) I Have lost the only bestie I’ve had in Stockholm already and that’s enough.” Andreas: “Yeah okay but friendship usually breaks after you try to get into a relationship (which you shouldn’t have) but he seems to want to be friends again. Give it some time and it should be good again. Andreas: “Eventually you guys can laugh about it together.” Me:” Yeah sadly, but it has worked between me and and a couple of exes I’ve had. So yeah if we’ve spoke today I don’t see any bigger issues.”

Me: “Lol wow five in the morning.” Andreas: “Myeah, have almost been awake for 24 hours with 5 hours of sleep, not even tired. Piss sleep.” Me: “Do you have insomnia?” Me: “Or are you just like m lmfao.” Andreas: “Don’t know. Constantly jet lagged it feels like.

Me:” Ugh what a pain. I feel tired in my head but I don’t want to sleep haha.

Andreas: “For me it’s just i’m tired when I should sleep and  spirited when I should sleep.”

Me: “Rip” Andreas: “And then it goes on like that.” Andreas: “Eventually you’re up for the rest of the night instead.” Andreas: “I get really drugged up from the sleeping pills and can sleep for a long time. Which fucks up even more. So I try to quit with that.” Me: “I sleep under the day so that I can be sprightly in the evening hahaha.”

Andreas: “Especially after the doc has told me that I can get a cardiac arrest if I take them because of my new medicine. Didn’t know about that, would take ten times more the dose.” Me:” Yeah if you don’t want to die haha.”

Andreas:” Nah would kinda suck.” Me: “Probably would be.” Me:”Especially when you haven’t made another game yet. How’s it going with that?” Andreas: “Haha you fuck.” Andreas: “Started with that again.”

In this screenshot Andreas suggest I could send him another nude in order to know about his secret project and if I would leak any info out about this he would leak my nude. Andreas: “Later after Dystmi  I’ve started with my own games again.” Me: “Oh really?” Andreas: “But it’s top secret.” Me: “Please, I’ve gotten to listen to your album first before you even released it. Can I know a little bit at least?” Andreas: “Mnah, only for some nice services back (Is a swine)” Me:” haha and what would that service be?” Andreas:” You get to fantasize about that (me)”

Me: “What you’re to worried to tell?” Andreas: “Nah I’m scared for it to get leaked.” Me: “That’s now what I meant but haha I get that.” Andreas: “Yeah haha.” Andreas: “I could get a picture as a “pledge”. If you leak anything I’d leak it out. Mohaha.” Andreas “No fuck now I’m manipulating again.”

Me: “Lol it’s fine it was me who dragged you in.”

Andreas: “Haha I tend to manipulate a lot.” Andreas: “Typical psychopath.” Me: “Not so many who can manipulate me tho, I do things out of my own will.” (I tried to excuse and lie to myself about his behavior) Me: “When I first sent you pictures it was because I wanted to do it.” Andreas: “Yeah, i got pretty fucking surprised actually. Didn’t think you would do it.”

Andreas: “But I had a nice time with it anyway. Appreciated!” Me: “Yeah if you came to them twice than you had it more than  nice.” Andreas: “Could gladly have a bit of a nice time again.” Andreas: “Haha exactly.” Andreas: “You will probably do it now just because of it?”

Me: “Haha is that an challenge?” Me: “haha lol you got outdated memes.” Andreas: “Haha yeah I know..”

Me: “Well you have my Jeff account (My facebook account back in the day. i used to be very active on social media and post a lot. This was an personal/roleplay account.) So I will hold you updated, no worries.” Andreas: “And yes it’s an challenge. You could maybe keep me awake for a couple of more hours.” Me: “Maybe that maybe.” Andreas:”Haha as if you’d upload anything like that.” Me: “Christ no nothing like that.” Me: “Memes.” Andreas: “Ahaaaa. Haha my head is too slow right now. Me: “The only thing I’v uploaded that comes close is some panty pictures.”

Andreas: “Ah yeah I saw those.” Me: “Have you stalked me.” Andreas: “Noo, Looked through your pics when you added me.

Me: “Now I’m getting flustered.” Andreas: “Wanted to see if my mistress has uploaded anything new.”

Andreas: “Do warn me tho before you send any pics. Don’t want to get fired at work. Will stay at home tomorrow tho (today) Me: “Would you really look at those pictures while you’re at work?” Andreas” Nah but the thumbnails shows up. Me: ”Haha yeah maybe it’d itch in the fingers.” Andreas: “Yeah especially when you’re holding a presentation.” Me:” And it accidentally happens that you do.”

Me: “Don’t want to ruin your life Me:” God hahaha.” Me: “Fuck that’d be awkward.” Andreas: “Yup!” Me: “Could only imagine that infront of me hahaha.” Andreas: “#Whenyouforgottoclosedownskypeandthesquredownontherightshowsup Me: “Yeah hate when that happens.”

Me: I’m a bit more daring than you.” Andreas: “Haha yeah you are. Andreas: “Hmm should I try to sleep again or should i stay up and hope for a miracle?” Me: “What kind of Miracle? pictures from me?” Andreas: “Yeah pretty much.” Me: “ff.” Me: “You can hope when I come back to Sweden.”

Andreas: “Haha okay, Than I can dream about it instead.” Me: “You may.”

Me: “Tell me about your dream.” Andreas: “Bravo!”

Andreas: “Haha sure!” Me: “Haha bravo? Andreas: “Yeah you gave me permission to have wetdreams about you”

Me: “Haha altho I gave you the permission I think it isn’t something you could stop from happening.” Andreas “Yeah I could!” Me: “How?” Andreas: “Just say no asap.” Me: “Maybe you don’t want to say no.” Me: “Then what do you do.” Andreas: “True.”

Andreas: “Haha fuck.” Andreas: “Anywayys. Was fun talking again. Me: “Yeah it was.” Me: “Get in touch with me tomorrow again or whenever you can.” Andreas: “Yeeh okay sure! Me: Sleepsweetly hope you get nice dreams.” Andreas” Sleepwell cutie, see ya!” September 2016 Andreas messages me that his girlfriend has developed an interest in getting a girlfriend. I let him know I don’t want that. He did somehow try to stray me away from this thought by questioning me what I would think could go wrong with us maybe being in a poly relationship. I pointed out he was engaged know which he chose to ignore and not make a comment about. I’m not too sure on what to believe here but I can speak for myself that I’m a very monogamous person and I’d personally would never be handle a poly relation. Yet he was persistent and kept going after me despite me telling him so and explaining to him. He then told me it wouldn’t be poly if it would just be me and her dating and him watching and not get involved???  mmm big doubt especially since  he then brought up that he thinks it would be nice to have a threesome with the girl she’s dating and her. Dude I don’t fucking know shit was weird. Just told him to find someone else who’s interested and he called me a normie basically and that I’m not handicaps like them??.. Andreas is the white box and I’m the blue

Andreas: “My girlfriend wants a girlfriend, interested? haha.” Me: “Eh? I’m not going to question anything haha..but no. I dont really like poly realtions altho I got ships who do but even those are problematic.” ( To clarify. It probably sounds here like I’m saying poly is problematic. I will admit that did have a different view on it back then than i do now. Poly is not problematic at all if all parts can make it work,  With people like Andreas poly wouldn’t work at all LMAO. I personally just like a mono relation! I’m just very mono myself and could never date more people than once or like seeing my partner dating another person.) Andreas: “Haha okay, I think it’s hot and cozy.” Me: “I just think it’s hot if it’s fictional because it’s fantasy and I think that just works in fantasy, especially if you’ve gotten engaged which you have. Not something I would put myself in.” Andreas: “What do you think could go wrong?”

Me: “Alot, depends, I’m very sensitive so in my case my feelings would play a big role into it all. I already feel bad and I don’t want to feel worse than I already do. And apparently you can’t feel or care about others emotions (according to you) than it speaks for itself. Don’t know how your girlfriend would feel eventually, can’t speak for you or her, just myself.” Andreas: “So you mean that feelings could create problems? in what way?” Me: “A poly relation is not what I need in my case at least. Especially when I’m not experienced with irl relationships. A poly relation as my first irl relation is not a good idea. I’m very clingy and could easily get jealous, especially if I don’t get that attention I need. It’s also not something you would want. I can’t take having to try to deal with it or cause more problems.”

Andreas: “Ah okok, but it’s not really a poly realtion as my gf just wants a gf, not me.” Me: “But you’re involved in it plus you’ve told me numerous times that if it wasn’t because of her we would have dated by now sooo, yeahhh.” Andreas: “No, that’s not the goal at least. Maybe after awhile, but to a start I just want to see my gf happy with another girl at the same time she’s with me. I don’t need to get involved. I’m busy anyway with games and it’s a little as to why she wants someone else too. Me: “HAHA WAIT A LITTLE. There’s a term for that. So you’re basically a cuck?” (I go into explaining to this dumbass what a cuck is since he can’t take a second of his time to google it.)

Andreas: “Haha yeah guess I’m a cuck than.”

Andreas: “Sometime it’d be nice tho to have a threesome with the girl and her girl if she likes me.” (here he tries to persuade me into it.) Andreas: “I wouldn’t have anything against dating 2 people. But I can’t satisfy both. So priority number one is that they have each other as I barley got time for 1.” Me: “Find someone else for her tho and do what you want, as I’ve said, don’t want to be in a relation.” Andreas: “Haha you’re too normal. No handicaps like us.” Me: “Nah I’m just careful and know what I need in order to feel well.” Me:” I care too much about others and what they want and it has never turned out well because it has almost lead me to not caring about my own health. Feel like I really need to do that now. Maybe that’s why I  exclude myself so much because I can’t take it any more?” Andreas: “Ah shit that it can go over you so much.” Me: “I’m just very problematic and just sentimental I guess. Guess I’m too kind but not for myself.” Andreas: “I understand, Meh that’s not good, you have to quit being kind.” This part gets detailed I’m sorry!! Later he asks me if I’ve been hooking up recently, I tell him no but let him know i had been making scenarios in my head of how it’d be if we dated. I let him know about a wet dream i had last year involving him and he urges me to tell him which I do in detail. He keeps pushing me on to tell him more altho I tell him he doesn’t need to know more. I tell him everything and he told me he thought it was hot and wish it could have happened between us. He doesn’t stop here and urges me to continue telling him what i did afterwards I had that dream. I told him of course what I did and he was definitely getting off by the thought of it.He admits he’s been doing it and thinking about me and has done it over 30 times. I push him on to tell me if he’s been fantasizing about certain things to do to me and I let him know about my kinks and he still, let’s me know he wants to do all of this with me someday but that I absolutely can’t get feelings for him. I just let him know that I’m not agreeing and promising him on anything. He gets doubtful and once again asks me if i’d take the risk to have sex with him. I let him know I’m unsure and he let’s me know he’d love it.

Me: “Can’t help it. have always been, a bit surprised that I can’t stand up for myself after all these years. I’ve gotten a bit better but I’m still like a withdrawn child who can’t say yes or no sometimes when you have to.” Andreas: “Mmm okok, but yeah be careful and think about yourself in first hand. Are you on the hook up with someone btw?” Me: “Thanks I try. Haha no I’m a single pringle. Just my fictional boyfriends maybe.”

Andreas: “Haha ok like me or?” Me: “Cant’t call you fictional since you exists irl.” Andreas: “But a relationship with me could just be fictional. Andreas: “But it’s not one of yours huh?” Me:” But I mean like game characters or some character from a story or something haha. Yeah I’m lonely.” Me:” I mean I build up scenarios in my head as of how it’d be like to be in a relationship with you. Actually had a pretty cute dream once, pretty lame. Andreas “Aww nah that’s cute. I guess you still like me?”

Me: “A little maybe but the dream i had was last year haha not in the current, still remember it tho.” Andreas: “Aw okay what happened.” Me: “Feels  too embarrassing to tell” Andreas: “Noo, go on.” Here I will not translate my dream but only the parts where I said he doesn’t need to know more but only for him to persuade me on to keep telling him. It makes me so uncomfortable reading this that I pretty much just get what feels like a bad itch in my body that I want to scratch off. I already have once and won’t do it again. as of now so I will ignore mine and just translate the things Andreas is saying. While it’s just a description of vanilla sex I don’t want to think or know the fact that this is what I wanted to do with him.

Me: “Things and stuff that happened later you don’t need to know.”

Andreas: “Naww sounds cozy what happened next?” Me: “that you!” Andreas: “Haha i really want to hear”

Me: “This is difficult to type help.” Andreas: “Keep going.”

Andreas: “Haha fuck how rough and hot! Wish that would have happened!” Andreas: “How did it feel when you woke up?” Me:” I think I was pretty horny when i woke up and was a bit sad that it was just a dream.” (THANK FUCKING GOD IT WAS)

Andreas: “mhm haha Did you masturbate afterwards then or? it’s so fucking hot to think that you did it because of me.” Me: “I would lie if I said I didn’t haha.” Andreas: “Ohhh so you did it after all?” Me: What do you think hehe?”

Andreas: “That you did it ofcourse and that you did it multiple times.” Me: “Maybeeee.” Andreas: “But I have done it too and thought about you.” Me:” Hehe how many times have you done it and thought about me?” Andreas: “Pshhh not sure, maybe around 30 times? Dunno.” Me: “What? shit? hot, have you dreamt about me too?”

Andreas: “Haha I think so but I can’t remember my wet dreams for some reason.” Me:” Is there some kind of picture you’ve imagined in your head you could tell me about tho? maybe something you’d like to do to me or make me do.” Andreas: “Nothing special than the normal stuff you do with sex. Like missionary or riding is my favorite position. Think it looks so fucking hot.

Andreas: “Haha what position do you think is the hottest?” Me: “Haha hard for me to tell since I’ve never done it but I probably woud like —————– dunno”

Andreas: “Yeah of course but what you thinkg would look the hottest. I guess the one you named?” Me: I would probably like —– too tbh Andreas: “Nice, fuck we have to do this someday! As long as you don’t go crazy and get feelings afterwards.” Me: “Can’t promise anything.” Andreas: “If that happens it’s over.” Andreas: “Just gets hard on your part.” Me: “Yeah exactly.”

Andreas: “So would you still do it regarding that risk? Meeting me and have sex that is?” Me: “I don’t know.” Andreas: “Haha I’ll let you think about it, would be nice either way.”  2016-12-20 From here we only have light and friendly conversations and then eventually we don’t really talk  and I got over him entirely. Eventually as time goes by I begin to date David (I LOVE THIS MANS) things of course goes very quiet but i let him know that my boyfriend has gotten into cry of fear because I still want us to be friends at least and he seems displeased as he knows that he doesn’t have that chance of getting to ”take my virginity” anymore. Still tries to by suggesting he’s home alone until 5th January ;)))) I straight up ignore this info lmao. I go into checking up on him instead and how his current projects are going.

Andreas: “Who’s the guy btw?  someone I know?” Me: “No haha, but I got him into becoming a huge fan of your games. He recently finished Cry of Fear.” Andreas: “Ah Nice, how did you guys meet?

Me:” lol through a fandom it’s long distance but he just lives two hours from me with flight and we’ll meet up in may! Andreas: “Ah nice where does he live?” Me: “Netherlands.” Andreas: “Ah okok cool. Than he gets the honor to take your virginity then booo.” 

Me: “How’s things with you anyways? been awhile.” Andreas: “I thought I would be the one to take it! You bastard. Yeah its fine! I’m home alone atm, until the 5th jan.” Me:” lol, why so?” Andreas: “Gf has went to USA and I didn’t want to come.

Me: “Why?” Andreas: “Slept bad and also wants to work with my new game:” Me: “Aha so a new game on the makings? fun! horror?”

Andreas: “Keept it a secret tho!” Me: “It is just me who knows? i promise! another mod?” Andreas: “No a whole game.” Me: “feeling so excited now! when do you think it’s going to be done?” Andreas: “haha meh in 2 years maybe. started in the summer.” Me: “Gues I’ll need to have a bit of patience then, I want to know morreee!” Andreas: “Haha I know.”

2017 4th may Yeah we haven’t talked since and he messages me and wants to know how I’m doing. I tell him about my trip to Alicante and my online friends.He eventually brings David up and is wondering if I’m meeting up with him soon because it says I’m single on Facebook (stalking much). I let him know I want my parents to meet him first before I make it official on Facebook as they didn’t known we were dating and i’d rather want them knowing in person. He said he just wanted to check up on me and went to sleep. ODD.

Not going to translate this first screenshot but summarize it. It’s me telling him about an accident that happened when we were in Spain and I got to meet an online buddy there.

Me:” I just remember a little Andreas: “Yeah it’s like that when you talk once a year.” me: “Haha yeah rip.” Andreas: “Talking about rip, wasn’t it that you’d meet your boyfriend this month?”  Me: “Never text, talk mostly in groups. Yeah he’s coming in 6 days. Haha how did you know that stalker”

Andreas: “You said it a long time ago. I remember you see. Was just wondering since it says you’re single on facebook.”

Me: “I did? Ff maybeee lolol that’s because i want my parents to meet him before I make it official on facebook. They don’t know we’re together.” Andreas: “Ah okay so how does the plan look, be long distance or?” Me: “mhm atm luckily he doesn’t live far away from me. Cheap to go there. Thinking about doing it now soon in the summer.” Andreas: “Ah okok nice, netherlands right?” Some bs about him understanding what UwU means now

Andreas: Well just wanted to check up on you, you may return to sleeping.

Me: “Awh that’s cute I suppose probably for the best I will pass out soon. We can chat more later.

Andreas: “Yeah we can, see ya, nighty night.”

2017 14th May.He asks me if I’m still together with David and how long he’s staying. I tell him and ask him why and he said he was just curious. I tell him we’ve been doing Simon and David cosplays and suggest we could meet up the three of us together. Here’s where he makes the transphobic comment.”I’ve seen pics of your boyfriend and he looks very feminine” was wondering if it’s a she? if i saw correctly. Sorry I like to stalk :D! (GOOD JOB CONFIRMING IT) maybe he’s jut very young. I just don’t know. Sorry if you’d take it in a wrong way. Just  wanted to see. Maybe he’s just young or I’m an oldie. Girl on girl is otherwise hot :)”

Me: “Lol if he now was a she he’d be my girlfriend which he is not. 100% handsome boy.”

More or so or convos fade and I stop talking to him, I don’t have any of these convos restored if there are any but it was me telling him along the lines of that I was getting bothered by him with all of this that has happened. Aswell as entirely shutting my photo project down after I was finished with it a year back when I showed it to him, simply telling me that it isn’t good enough because of some errors that I couldn’t fix. He did post it eventually tho but at least after a year. This being a month after our convo in May. 

Keep in mind of the date:

Me:” I guess its not good enough then?”

Andreas:”Meh I think you should fix the streched out pictures since it looks unprofessional especially if you’re going to show it to your school.”

Andreas: “Lol sounds like you taking this very personally. Just saying you can make it better. It’s good but would be a shame to make all of that work look bad with such a simple fix.”

Please ignore my deadname..

You can find my post when i was finished with it too in the forums here:

http://www.cry-of-fear.com/forum/index.php?topic=5071.0 We don’t talk at all, somewhere later either by the end of 2017 or somewhere around the start of 2018 he joins our cry of fear server in which i’ve exposed him for these things aswell as his homophobic comments he’s made about the 4525 ship. He promises us he’ll change. from here on we became friendly and I’d check up on how his projects were going. If possible that our server can find this convo we will bring it back but I’m not sure wether we cleaned it out after this happened. 

Now in the present. it’s 2019 17th May. Andreas apologizes for sexual messages he sent me a month ago because he was ”drunk, depressed and tired”.It’s been 4 years and to this day he hasn’t changed and is still seeking me out sexually. We were  suggesting on meeting and smoke weed together and maybe do some urban exploring like we’ve done once when we met up for a second time but he suddenly goes into the same old behavior like in my old messages where he likes to mention him being alone without his girlfriend. I picked that up as strange but ignored it until he started acting weird about it like mentioning. ”Our partners would get jealous” and ”Would we dare to make a meet up?” as if something more would happen. This gave me a big red flag. Of course after he just spontaneously asks if it’s weird he’s seen me nude. again with sexual questions and I decide to keep talking with him to see where the convo would lead on and further prove that he’s always been the same ever since 2015. He hopes that I’ve fantasized about it ever since we had that talk and seems disappointed when i let him know I’m absolutely over him. He tells me he  still plays with the thought. Calls me a typical girl for not being turned on by the sexual aspects but love. He let’s me know the offer of us fucking would still be on the table if I’d want to. Last but not least he brings the question wether you can lose your virginity to a transman and if i’d be curious to fuck a cis male instead. Andrea’s apology message:

“Hi just wanted to apologize for my immature behavior last time we spoke. Have to blame it on me not sleeping well and have for the most part been drunk. Went through a though period and was a bit YOLO in style. But I’m ashamed and just wanted to say that.”

Here we were talking about a music video he got in plan  where he’d use a drone and was wondering if i knew any more abandoned places. We went to an abanonned tunnel together once the second time I met him somewhere in 2018 

Here he talks about his girlfriend not being able to smoke weed as it affects her physically and mentions he’ll be home alone for a week from the 25th of April.

I let him know she could still sit with us if we smoke weed and then I was going to leave to the netharlands 1st may so we could maybe meet next week.  Andreas: “Nice! maybe we dare to make a meet up then”

Me: “Sure!!” Andreas: “Haha Nice. Wondering what we could come up with then.”

Me: “ Mm maybe go somewhere? do you know anything special we could do.”

Andreas: “Nah not really nice to smoke outside and freeze in a bush prefer gaming and watching a movie when I puff.”

Me: “aha I thought before that. But yeah at home and gaming is the best if we’re going to do it immediately. Have you tried playing your own games when you’re high. nIght mare mode when you’re high-”

Me:” Noo David wouldn’t have anything to be jealous about he trusts me. He would probably want to be with us too and do it. Your gf isn’t into that?”

Andreas: “Ah okay nice meant more like they will get jealous if we’re alone smoking weed. Who knows what can happen then! She can’t stand it but doesn’t have anything against someone smoking it.” Me: “Haha yeah he would be, he actually said he doesn’t have anything against coming over to you with me so we can hang around together. The only thing that would happen is that i’ll definitely eat your snacks!”

Andreas: “Haha that would be fun dont have any stoner buddies who live close. me:” Now you do.” Andreas: “Haha that easy. Nahh will probably be awkward to meet up for that. Need to be at home at somebody.”

Me: “Haha yeah you got a point.” Andreas: “But I wouldn’t have anything against that.” Me: “Would be fun either way tbh”

Andreas: “Yeah but still our partners would get jealous”

Me: “Just as high as David Leatherhoff and play AoM. Haha it would be fun seeing David play then. He’s played AoM around 20 times at most.” Andreas: “Haha exactly we can try!” Me: “Sure!” Andreas: “I got a question for you that might be a little touchy these days but it’s itching in me to ask and get it done with. Do you think it’s weird I’ve seen you naked? Me: “ Eh that was a long time ago it happened. I’m over it. I mean i got an ex who’s done it too but now we’re best friends. Plus you probably don’t have the picture left. If you did then that would feel weird haha. Who doesn’t send a nude nowadays haha.” Andreas: “Haha yeah okej. I’ve never experienced something like that before. What do you mean that you’re over it?”

Me: “No?? Thought that you’ve definitely received it from  someone else  before lol. Your girlfriend at least. I mean it’s one thing i sent you back in the days when I had a crush on you which anyone else would do too if they got the chance. Nothing I can take back but it’s just whatever to me. Sure you saw it but that was back then.” Andreas: “Ah okok. Have you ever fantisized about going all the way after that? Or are you totally over it?” Me:” A little bit afterwards before I met and got together with David of course but currently I’m completely over it and would never go that far. I see you as a friend, nothing more. Andreas: “Ah okay a bit boring tho. I can sometimes still play with the thought of it. I don’t know if that’s just because I’m a boy lol.” Me: “Could be. I don’t know I’m not only turned on by the sexual aspect at all actually. More love if so. Even then I was more turned on by the thought of being together with you. Weird but that’s how I am.” Andreas: “I get it. Typical girl. And I am a typical boy. Or something. Oh well if the thought ever gets to you I’m still curious to play with the thought.”

Me:” Haha that’s alright. Maybe you can find another fan to play with.” Andreas: “ But it’s not you. Another, question if that’s okay. Have you ever laid with a biological guy? Me: “What am i then. No because all of my relationships have been distance but I’ve had many cis men I’ve been together with.” Andreas: “You’re the girl who’s came halfway into the game. There’s nobody else who’s gotten that far. Ah okay are you curious about how it’s like to fuck with a cis man? (Not trying to manipulate you now, just legitimately asking)

Me: Haha psh someone will come. I have been but I don’t care anymore because I don’t have that curiosity anymore because I’m not a virgin anymore. I’m okay with what ever.  Andreas: “Someone will come, like me. Haha nah. But does it count to lose your virginity if you’ve fucked with a trans man? (Is it called that?”

Me: “Yeah, to me at least it wasn’t only the penetration the way I look at it. Other things I have never done as well.” Andreas: “I understand.” Me: “Think everyone looks at it differently.” Andreas: “Haven’t thought about it. Have always looked on it as losing the virginity when you get penetrated.” Me: “That’s how most see it but I think that’s a bit individual.” Andreas: “Yeah okay, interesting.” Andreas: “Well good, now that’s in the way at least. So nothing naughty next time we meet.

I never met up with him.

Do you think he has uno?

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