Jay

-flower

it's hard to look for the good when the bad outweighs it most of the time. it's hard to be thankful when all you wanna do is scream at the top of your lungs and ask "why is this happening to me?". it's hard, but we move.

and when i give up

locked in a cage inside of my brain

you're etched deep in my mind I can't seem to get you out nor do I have the power to.. "is it good?", you ask. "well it's bittersweet I get to see and hear you but my mind is too tired."

Will I ever?

"It hurts!" She cried. "Everything hurts."

She was like a star Pretty fragile and elegant from afar Once you get close She burns She’s fire itself That’s why she’d always stay far For you to only admire how aesthetic she is For you to only see her pretty facade And she liked it that way.

I woke up gasping, sweat drenching my sheets. It was horrid this time no one was here to wake me up he usually does but, he’s not here anymore the thought of him makes me curl up in my sheets closing my eyes while trying to imagine that he’s next to me soothing me while whispering calming words in my ears.

They told us we were a match made in heaven if only we knew we’d end up in hell.

I have a memory of you Behind my eyelids For when I close them I only see you Nothing but the faintest memories Brought by sweet melancholy Wrapping me in a blanket of nostalgia.