Moonchild

and i’ll fool myself 

into letting you see me bleed

from these eyes frozen in time

bizzare lies during the summertime

underneath a tree of gleam 

and burning sunshine

we danced

but, i hadn’t noticed how easily it’d be

to walk away from me

quietly, quickly, you’ll falling down 

upon me as summer rain

and i let myself bask in the warmth too long

a smile wide across my face

eyes transfixed upwards towards forever

“the skies have blinded foolish men like you before”

i thought i was powerful enough to keep someone close

closer than my atoms can touch the back of a chair

open wounds turning to open spores

my heart soaring towards and unknown destitionation 

at the singual mention of your name

and image pure white light

someday i would no longer feel this way

and you’d turn away so easily

the rain has dried up 

left a desert of this land

we called friendship

it’s not that easy for me

it’s not that serious for you

but you’ve wounded me again

at times when i was at my lowest

i thought i would still have you

i was a fool

i am a fool

young and dumb and wrong

and at every year, a surge forward in this unceasing life cycle, i notice i have taken a lunge towards a new age of wrongdoings

foolish age of youth who thought they would be young and fresh and free forever

and you may seize the day without me

God gave us the freedom to be this gay

But life has an ending day

All great things must come to an end

And I will no longer lie to myself

Or hate you

Instead I have become my own summer rain

And bright sunshine

How am I still not used to this heartache

Of being young and dumb and wrong

Why open my mouth and let it all hang out

It’s not right to say such meaningless things

Stop putting words in my mouth

Before I get a chance to lay it out

Stop leaving me so quietly

Before I get a chance to lay it all out

Why do I treat myself in this way