god fuck i just want to die!!! I feel trapped!!!!!!!!!

genuinely too embarrassed to tell any of my friends aboyt how transphobic my partner becomes when theyre mad at me!!! and its such a huge red flag to me idk whst to do!!!

Oh also i HATE being afraid of the sound of footsteps or movements in my own house! Makes me way fucking anxious and on edge!!!!!

cant really say this anywhere else but man am i tired of feeling bullied and shut down!!!!

Ill be so lucky if i make it to 25 tbh

idk how im not supposed to feel worthless rn. but my cat keeps checking on me or wanting me to be around him. it is keeping me together enough

Please god help me today idk what to do!!

Well! This is traumatizing!

Where do i put it all? Is god the only one who can tell me?

idek how to grieve anymore like my emotions are so fukex up!!

idek how to grieve anymore like my emotions are so fukex up!!

soooo sad hate how harmful i can be hmm m:(

I have to keep reminding myself that i just need better medication and im not always this abusive underdeveloped monster

Im just another fucking selfish asshole on this planet like im not doing anyone any good

everything is fucking hopeless i hate this place

she just looks at me like im so ugly now

I wish I had a mom to talk to when I get scared like this