Aspiring Lexiphile

Shit ka! Wala pa ba ka gikapoy?! As in, everday nako gahuna-huna nimo. Pagmata hangtod pagtulog, IKAW RA GYUD! Unsa naman ni ui? Feeling nako na-in love nako nimo. Which is grabe ka-shit! SHIT!

Pagmakita ta ka, kabalo ba ka na muambak og kalit akong dughan. Like as in mura ko og gi-kuryentehan, kalit ra dayon musakit. Memeng! Grabe nako ka-corny pero mao gyud ni akong ginabati karon towards sa imoha. Gusto nako muhilak kay kabalo ko na walay paingnan ni siya na feelings nako para sa imoha. Kay feeling man gud nako na gina-test ra ko nimo. Na kanang paasahon ra, biyaan dayon. Most of all, dili ko gusto ma-friend zone. Shit kaayo ka!!! ARGHH!!!

Naglagot ko nimo kay you're showing affection towards me man gud. Abi siguro nimo wala nako na-feel, pero buwesit ka, hapit nako mabuang diri sige huna-huna sa mga nanghitabo. Ga-wonder ko nganong ning-dungan ka og lakaw sa amoa. Ning-abay ka sa akoa sa klase. Like shit ka, unsa na? Nagparamdam ka? 

Please, if ever man kung nakagusto ka nako, ayaw ko paasaha bi. Ayaw ko ipaabot sa point na mahulog na gyud ko sa imoha. Dili pa galeh ta uyab, FRIENDS ra ta, my God!!! So please lang. Kung nakagusto ka, i-ingon na lang bi. Straight from the heart, dili na kung ma-guess2x pa ko. Kapoy na kaayo. I'm so tired na of waiting. Haponan na!

Karon Sunday, I'll try my best to attend sa defense ng Marketing Academy para magkakita ta and of course magka-storyahanay. Para ma-clear kung unsa ba gyud, kung naka gusto ba ka nako o wala. I hope unta, ma-end na. Kay as in, kapoy na kaayo! Sige ra ko huna-huna nimo. 

I don't know lang pud kung ga-huna huna ba pud ka sa akoa. Pero I do hope na tumatakbo rin ako sa isip mo. Na namimiss mo ako, shit! To tell you the truth, miss na miss na kita T_T 

Drapetomania: An overwhelming urge to run away.

Escapism: A mental desire to retreat from unpleasant realities through fantasy.

Wanderlust: A desire to travel, to understand one’s very existence.

Dysania: The state of finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning.

Sanctuary: A small safe place in a troubling world.

Metathesiophobia: Fear of change.

I dreamt about a lot of things last night but these are some of what I remembered.

I was in the chapel with my LOM friends. The mass didn’t turned out holy, instead it turned out to be like a theater show. My friends were doing magic tricks, silly things, & was acting out what’s in the gospel today. Because it wasn’t holy anymore and the presentation was so overdue, the people were starting to leave. I as well didn’t like what’s happening, so I also leave. I found myself praying in front of mama mary near haggerty house in our school. Then in a distance, I saw a mass going on. Out of curiousity, I went there and check what’s in there. It’s a formal mass. Since I find it holy,  I joined in. I was like converted to become one of them. Then I realized it wasn’t holy, I was being fooled. They are PBMA’s. After knowing that I went straight to my apartment.

Next story is this. I went to the apartment with someone. And it was Jason. I never thought we lived in the same house. So yeah, there I was offering him some “minatamis na saging" that he refused to accept. Then we went to the roof, talking. Even saved a girl’s life who’s about to fall off from the roof. Suddenly, we went into the room still chatting until he throwed a topic that goes on like this, “You and I, you’ll be my girlfriend". So I was like, “you’ve got to be kidding me, no." Then he said while leaving the room, “ah ok, it’s your loss". Then I panicked! I immediately went off to him and say yes. So the next scene was we were like hugging, kissing, do sweet things but in front of my cousin. Though it really felt so real. Then I woke up. Arggh!

A word used to describe those that have a love for words. 

Gk. Lexis "Words" ; Philos "Lover of"