dazed&confused

She’s either

too much, or not enough

too quiet, or too loud

too emotional, or too serious

I’ve always struggled being stuck in my own mind, stuck overthinking of what might happen if I do or say the wrong or right thing, stuck with the anxiety that most days consumes me, stuck with the thoughts that I’ll never actually be good enough for myself.

My only escapes from this crippling cage of anxiety, sadness and self-disapproval are things that are no longer allowed. I feel trapped, with no where to go, in a space that I don’t know or understand.

How am I meant to find freedom in a caged world?

How am I meant to find happiness when my happiness is found in friends, on top of a mountain or in a hot yoga studio?

How am I meant to be okay when nothing is okay?

How am I meant to find my way back when I’m lost?