lapis sky

have this big work thing due early next week and was feeling good about it all week because we did so much to clarify the approach and concept and already had a decent amount of writing for it but today I'm slogging through it and in the editing stage like oh this'll take a while. I feel like I consistently underestimate how long it takes to edit something especially when a few people are contributing and you need someone to take the lead and develop the voice and tone of the whole thing. I guess on the plus I am saying that after basically working on this all morning and getting about halfway through so that's meaningful progress but I also wanted to take a break at some point and visit my uncle. which my boss has been great about but because of what we have due I've just been doing what I need to do with my family during the day and working at night and I am supposed to see friends tonight so I am like hm I don't really want to come back from that and work. or do that over the weekend either..

I love that when I call hospice and they put me on hold the music is clair de lune

I think it's wonderful and also very funny that when my dad and my uncle were talking about not imagining this is how it would end for him, my uncle quoted Euripides and said something like "'nothing can be unexpected because of what is happening now".. I need to turn that over a few times. he is honestly dying so well I hope I can handle things this thoughtfully when my time comes

something about seeing primarily eastern european or baltic cities and towns on every list of lesser known summer destinations that really grinds my gears.. as if to say france and italy are overdone, portugal is becoming overdone.. but hey, you can still find something authentic in albania or slovenia.. our whole approach to traveling in this age of social media tourism is so shallow.. can't we just remember that it's not about where we go but how we go and if we can move with an open heart and some humility.