Horrifically European

i think avoiding everything is going to save me for real this time

"theyll hate you for this" "but theyll be alive" is THE juiciest thing to me

i will ensure you stay alive above all else. even if what i do to make it happen is horrendous. even if it violates all your wishes or moral principles. even if you can never look at me the same way again, even if you hate me for it. because at least if you hate me it means youre alive

at whatever stage of stevetonyism makes u see a gif of steve rogers and immediately think "oh hey! tony's husband :)"

it's terminal

It’s vry important to me that Tony was a soft kid. Like that comic from the 90s that had flashbacks to his childhood where Howard would go from giving a brief bit of praise to Tony for being good at monopoly during what looks like an attempt at some sort of family bonding time and then wanting to squash Tony’s ‘sensitive’ personality by sending him to boarding school bc tony wasn’t interested in playing rough with other boys, he wanted to read and probably just tinker with things. N how Tony would use his free time at school to read alone outside. And specifically Arthurian books. Tony enjoys fiction and fantasy and is an Arthurian nerd. N he was also very polite. Probably just a soft spoken kid with a big imagination and a special interest with planes n cars.

soon I will be euthanized due to my various behavioral issues and also they just don’t like me