and the soul felt its worth

i just fucking miss my dead horse

i’m 18 weeks pregnant and seeing my pcp today for the first time in like 3 months she goes through my chart and is asking things and then goes “so your weight…. does your ob know where it is? do you know what it is?” and i was like well no… even though i do know what it is just my team doesn’t know i know and basically i’m like what’s wrong with it and she just went quiet and said “we can discuss that next time” like no kristi tell me now???? and then the girl taking my blood was a student which is fine but she stabbed me 5 times and still barely got enough blood for the labs and i’m just over today and medical visits and yep

i hate when people start getting like the "im getting worried about you" statements when nothing is even going wrong???? and then my rd today was like "can we have the weight conversation" and i said i didn't want to but go ahead i guess to which she went "we can see that you're trending downwards" and yet here i am.... still apathetic and not caring one single bit :) :) :)