Things I Have Always Wanted To Say

When you have chronic sinusitis and therefore post nasal drainage at all times, you can’t even have a walk. I like having walks by myself. Plus, I suffer from disfunctional Eustachian tube (when it is shorter than average), then the entire mucus goes to your ear while walking. You feel like there is a ballon in your ear, and don’t hear anything. If it’s winter or autumn time, it gets worse.

There are other things I have to deal with as well.

I feel like my existence is meant to suffer through my 5 senses so that I can’t get any pleasure of earthy feelings, and shift my focus to mental activities to escape. Or try to understand and help others because I feel like there isn’t much to do for myself.

Having a bunch of chronic illnesses may cause chronic depression, I think.

This is an unusual- unlikely to occur in life, example given to make things a little simple to grasp what I try to emphasize.

Concept: I and someone are looking at the letter “A”.

What a person sees and thinks : The letter A having colors on turning from red to purple- or vice versa. If the colors are their favorite, they may appreciate what they see. Feels content and energized unconsciously.

Me: (What I see) A series of thoughts: “If I disassemble the letter as there are 3 sticks. I can crate many other letters such as a Y,K,N,H,F and Z. So, I see all those letters in my mind when I look at letter.

Besides that I see other things such as Roman numerals like VI,IV,III,IX,XI and so on. I also see an arrow. I re-position them as up-down-left-right-crossing.” Anyways, all possible forms of the three sticks can pop up in my mind. I feel content and energized too due to my short-term mental activity.

The conversation between them and me:

Me: Isn’t it cool that you can form many other letters with one letter? You can also create various things like Roman numerals or arrows.

Person: What are you talking about? It’s just the letter “A” with its beautiful transitioning colors. Where are all those other stuff coming from?

Me: Oh! I was just trying to say... Nevermind. (Begins to feel depressed)

It’s obvious that I’m drawn to inductive reasoning and perceive things with that perspective, but that’s not my prior subject I’m trying to stress. It’s the difference between other people’s brain and mine in terms of perception.

Conclusion:

My visual perception operates more complex than the majority’s.

Sought is focused in the example, however my 5 senses, in general, operate the same.

Why? When I look at something my brain gets activated with ideas and possibilities. Otherwise the physical existence of something doesn’t make an impact on me as much. I don’t feel stimulated like many.

I’m able to see so many other things, but the actual thing in front of me. This is a huge communication problem for me, which leaves the other person like “wtf”?

The example is absurd, I know, but think that this happens to me almost all the time regardless of the subject.

Not only does it occur in terms of visuals or anything concrete, I experience this while discussing a topic regarding a situation as well, which is abstract.

I’m capable of seeing the whole thing with many aspects at once- ok, it’s fabulous, but it causes me to lose focus and makes it hard for me when having conversations with others.

There are everywhere. That’s for sure. They aren’t 100% incorrect, but are misrepresented and misunderstood. Here is my own analysis on that.

There are two types of stereotypes:

Stereotypes represented by the majority. That applies to 51 ≥% of those who are the subject of a stereotype. However, those who belong to the 49 ≤% part have to deal with its consequences. (They are usually not that problematic. Annoying perhaps. Still can cause issues among people time to time)

Stereotypes represented by a small but popular minority in a group of those who are the subject of a stereotype. Due to their popularity the reality about the majority is unseen or disregarded. (This type may cause more serious issues in the society and yet in the world. Because that usually comes out as labeling many others)