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I feel like this fandom isn't acknowledging the fact that AZATHOTH IS KAYNE'S DAD NEARLY ENOUGH!!!! HE'S DOING WHAT LILLITH DID AND ACTING AS IF LILLITH WAS STUPID????? HE'S LITERALLY TRYING TO KILL HIS DAD JUST LIKE SHE WAS PLANNING ON TRYING TO KILL HIM, EXCEPT KAYNE KILLING HIS DAD WILL LITERALLY KILL EVERYTHING TO EVER EXIST LMFAO! Don't get me wrong, I want to see where this goes, and Arthur 100% deserved what he got because holy moral high-ground drunk stupidity he was a moron! But also, DUDE! THE HYPOCRISY IS HILARIOUS! I love this fucking eldritch soap opera so much
Once again got all of this from various wikis because I'll be damned if I spent days combing through the HP Lovecraft Expanded Mythos feel free to correct any sillay mistakes
this is why I only take the Lovecraft Mythos as canon. If Lovecraft wrote it or co-wrote it? Canon. If not? Fair game to do whatever I want. for example, Hastur being Yog-Sothoth's son is part of August Derleth's mythos, making it technically canon but not as canon as Lovecraft Mythos canon (and therefore I dont accept it as canon)
Let's say, hypothetically, I were stranded in the middle of nowhere, and my only hope was taking a ride with a stranger.
Two white guys, same social class, same car, only difference is one's a Christian and one's an atheist pull up. You know who I'm getting in the car with? The atheist.
Two white guys, same social class, same car, except one is a Republican and one is a Democrat pull up. I'm getting in the car with the Democrat.
One's a Christian and one's a pagan of some kind, I'm getting in the car with the pagan.
Let's say a Black guy and a white guy both offer me a ride. I'm getting in the Black guy's car. Same if it's a Black woman vs a white woman.
If a man offers me a ride vs a woman offering me a ride, I'm going with the woman. If a neurotypical person offers me a ride vs a neurodivergent person, I'm going with the neurodivergent person. You get it yet?
What I'm trying to say is that I, as a transgender man, feel much safer being around people who aren't cishet white Christians. Those are the exact kind of people I have to live around here in the South and it can be dangerous or even DEADLY for me to present masc in public because of them. Now, of course not every cishet white Christian is a transphobe, and not every transphobe is a cishet white Christian, but the Venn diagram of the two overlaps so much that I would rather take a risk with a complete stranger, as long as they're a minority, than a complete stranger who's a cishet white Christian. You get it?
Let's say, hypothetically, I were stranded in the middle of nowhere, and my only hope was taking a ride with a stranger.
Two white guys, same social class, same car, only difference is one's a Christian and one's an atheist pull up. You know who I'm getting in the car with? The atheist.
Two white guys, same social class, same car, except one is a Republican and one is a Democrat pull up. I'm getting in the car with the Democrat.
One's a Christian and one's a pagan of some kind, I'm getting in the car with the pagan.
Let's say a Black guy and a white guy both offer me a ride. I'm getting in the Black guy's car. Same if it's a Black woman vs a white woman.
If a man offers me a ride vs a woman offering me a ride, I'm going with the woman. If a neurotypical person offers me a ride vs a neurodivergent person, I'm going with the neurodivergent person. You get it yet?
What I'm trying to say is that I, as a transgender man, feel much safer being around people who aren't cishet white Christians. Those are the exact kind of people I have to live around here in the South and it can be dangerous or even DEADLY for me to present masc in public because of them. Now, of course not every cishet white Christian is a transphobe, and not every transphobe is a cishet white Christian, but the Venn diagram of the two overlaps so much that I would rather take a risk with a complete stranger, as long as they're a minority, than a complete stranger who's a cishet white Christian. You get it?
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I have a moment and I'm feeling like I need to yap so here's an analysis I've had floating around in my head for a while and doesnt require a binder of notes.
Malevolent from the POV of a Pagan, and not a Christian/Catholic. And I can hear it already. "Well ackshully Ivyy, Pagan is an umbrella term and doesn't actually tell us your belief..." SHUSSSHHHHH. I don't owe every rando an in-depth analysis of the ins and outs of my beliefs. All you need to know is that I believe if there's a God, there's many. And I don't know why I'd want to go with that fucker. Good? Good. Now let daddy cook.
Malevolent's entire premise is based around the idea that the Bible and every other belief system is wrong. Let's state that right away. Technically in the Mythos there is a category called Other Gods that stand out from Outer Gods and Great Old Ones in that it's essentially a category for the Gods of our world to slot into. (Though, fun fact, Shub-Niggurath is also in this category). It's very controversial in the Lovecraft world because it starts to include human morality and mucks up pre-existing canon. I'll go more in depth about that in my breakdowns but for now that's what you need to know.
But even with the existence of this category, the creation myth in canon is Azathoths dream. You can argue that this leaves room for creation myths involving just individual worlds like Earth, but the overall creation of Everything is Azathoth, not God. And beings such as Nyarlathotep and Yog-Sothoth are effectively the software within the computer that allows it to work properly.
Pagan belief systems have Gods for everything. There's the underlying belief that no single deity can do it all, though across history, plenty of rulers would try to collapse polytheism into monotheism, almost always under the image of a male deity. Straight cis men cannot create life and have spent centuries coping with that fact. If you cannot create a life, you control the narrative to still make yourself more important. You created everything. You rule everything. You are better based off of a cosmic roll of the dice.
And baked into this is the idea that humanity is the center of the universe and our actions will be rewarded/punished accordingly. The Mythos directly contradicts this idea by focusing entirely on the idea that we are insignificant. We are a blip on the cosmic timeline and our actions and ideas do not matter on that grand scale. Malevolent then focuses it's premise on the idea that the insignificance doesn't matter, the beauty is in the fact that we exist at all.
This is probably the best and most pragmatic take we can have. How many wars have been started over whos Gods favorite? Catastrophic losses on the global scale over that single idea. Untold atrocities spanning centuries and still happening this second. On the cosmic scale it is nothing. But on our micro scale? Those things matter. And likewise spirituality has its place. It's important that we feel connection to something.
As backwards and terrified of everything that Lovecraft was, at least there was the idea that no single being was responsible for everything. And that despite the idea that there are these incredibly powerful beings that dwarf us and our concerns on every scale, it's still human cultists that start these machinations. Because in the mythos we are insignificant remember? We are not interesting until we do something to become interesting.
I'm honestly surprised there has been no mention of the effect Kayne neglecting his job would have. He is the messenger, after all. Cults to the outer gods don't actually communicate directly with them the majority of the time. They go through him. Kaynes escapades would have a major ripple through those cults. They would be effectively neutered, unable to act and not receiving their messages or boons.
Which brings me to the cults themselves. Cults are a fascinating subject to me. It's human psychology at its most devious. Those that think they are most immune are most susceptible. They prey on your most vulnerable needs and use them to control you.
And to the elephant in the room: The cults in the Mythos are heavily inspired by how Pagan cults have been portrayed throughout modern history. Mysterious rituals and dramatic cloaks. Secret societies. Human sarcrifice. You know the ones. This is actually the thought that set me on this bender in the first place. It's very much worth mentioning that we never actually see the cults in the show ticking any of the boxes that would actually get them labeled as a cult. Well go off of BITE for this since it's the best metric at the moment.
BITE stands for control over Behavior, Information, Thought, and Emotion. Cults in the show are treated more like a secret society based around power or an individuals worship to a questionable power. We haven't really seen anything that fits this. The sacrifices and Larsons control over Addison is probably as close as it gets.
And maybe I'm sensitive to this because I live in an area teeming with Fundamentalist Mormon cults and are allowed to operate freely, but the math isn't mathing.
Cults prey on you by offering you what you lack most. Community, spirituality, family, etc. Then they slowly take away your support system until all you have is them. And ostracize you if you leave, at best. Scientology is notorious for its harassment campaigns. There are so so many established recognized religions that fit this criteria perfectly, and yet are accepted in society. Hell, Westboro Baptist Church is repugnant at best, and the world at large was expected to just take their bullshit.
Malevolent at times feels deeply confused about where it sits here. The show is still soaked in Christian morality, despite Arthur's distaste for it. It's still, at its core, a black and white, right and wrong, good vs evil story. Love and light will save us all. Atonement for sins. The Pagan cults are evil and must be stopped for the well-being of our corrupt world. That's not to say these tropes are inherently bad. But they do at times seem weirdly placed or heavy handed. Hell, Arthur's refusal to die is very Christ like. The introduction of the Manager INSTANTLY had the fandom naming him Abel despite previous rhetoric about 'the names we choose' and him demanding to be called the Manager. With the option to introduce a Christian parallel, that rhetoric was immediately tossed out in favor of fitting him inside a neat little pre-established box.
Let me be frank (don't call me Frank), this is a story of evil Pagan god vs good via a flawed human dying for humanities sins. We're no stranger to this story, especially in the world of the Cthulhu Mythos. And this isn't me bashing Malevolent by the way, I do love this show, but it had to be said. Despite the clear implications of John and Kayne existing, the show is still steeped in those story beats. And I mean. Two biblical names right there.
I haven't even touched on the real world relevance to Paganism and the Mythos. You heard me correctly. There's a solid chance if you go into a Pagan/Occult store, you will find things from the Mythos. Hell I have a Nyarlathotep pendant and when I bought it the blurb focused on the power it has and what working with him would be like. The mythos is taken as truth in some circles. Realistically the Mythos is probably the best example of a Tulpa. We MADE them exist by giving them names and faces and telling their stories. We gave them power by talking about them. And in many circumstances this is what makes a god. They become divine based off of their actions and the faith built around them. They will never die because we tell their stories.
I didn't have an end conclusion I wanted to built to. More give insight on how the story looks from the other side. Someone who wasn't raised Christian, knew they were Pagan by age 10, and still sees Christian morality superimposed over everything. Including stories that outright discredit it. If you are a Pagan, in this world, you would be a cultist. It wouldn't matter if your god were harmless, or that your worship were private. You picked the wrong god. You would be a cultist.
I wonder if Harlan did this intentionally (which would make me have some VERY choice words for him) or if it was genuinely unintentional and just caused because of how much Christianity influences our upbringings (something like 75% of the human population identifies as Christian, which is TERRIFYING)
Okay i can finally put this into words without sounding insane.
Has anyone noticed how many references to the Cthulhu mythos there are in Gravity Falls??? That one board game from the Mystery Shack, the octopus thing you can see during Weirdmageddon, "Lovecraftian horror" in Journal 3.
Now
Look at Bill and the Axolotl.
"Dreamscape" "chaos" I KNOW WHAT YOU AREEEE
Not to mention that bro is built like a pyramid and has visited Ancient Egypt according to The Book Of Bill.
And who the hell is the Axolotl to be soooo important.
Guess who.
Okay okay just to be clear, i am not saying that they are the SAME characters but in different pieces of media. Just that they're similar.
Hi! This is my first time posting anything serious on Tumblr (I still don't quite understand how this place works). I hope you enjoy this unusual adaptation of a lovecraftian poem.
hey, just in case you haven't heard this today: i'm sorry that you have OCD. you truly don't deserve it.
"but what if i did something horrible-" nope. you don't deserve it.
"but what if the thoughts are right-" nope. you don't deserve it.
"but what if i'm a bad person-" nope. you don't deserve it.
we're not doing what ifs today. i don't care what you did, or what you think you did, or what you think you're going to do. you don't deserve this. stop arguing with me and accept my virtual hug. ❤️
hey, just in case you haven't heard this today: i'm sorry that you have OCD. you truly don't deserve it.
"but what if i did something horrible-" nope. you don't deserve it.
"but what if the thoughts are right-" nope. you don't deserve it.
"but what if i'm a bad person-" nope. you don't deserve it.
we're not doing what ifs today. i don't care what you did, or what you think you did, or what you think you're going to do. you don't deserve this. stop arguing with me and accept my virtual hug. ❤️
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hey, just in case you haven't heard this today: i'm sorry that you have OCD. you truly don't deserve it.
"but what if i did something horrible-" nope. you don't deserve it.
"but what if the thoughts are right-" nope. you don't deserve it.
"but what if i'm a bad person-" nope. you don't deserve it.
we're not doing what ifs today. i don't care what you did, or what you think you did, or what you think you're going to do. you don't deserve this. stop arguing with me and accept my virtual hug. ❤️
does anyone get a compulsion to seek guilt the same way some people press on their skin to find bruises? i look for guilt in everything ive ever done, i dissect past interactions indiscriminately for the chance that i will find some horrible regret. and do what? feel guilty. The idea, the sorta sick logic my brain offers to me, is that its actually me reflecting on my past behaviours trying to make sure i can correct them. on paper it sounds like a positive thing, but positive change only comes from self love. so i do it because im too scared to make mistakes. but, because im too scared to make mistakes, i spend all this time compulsively checking myself for flaws, failed lessons, fumbles, things that didnt actually even effect anyone and i dont think they even happened at this point. My anxiety is out of fucking control and im scared to feel it so i revert back to the thing i feel i have control over which is peeling back all the layers of memories looking for one fucking speck of immaturity or moral contamination. Which reinforces it and goes round and round forever.
i put in a lot of work trying to release my grip on it, theres nothing to even grab onto, but my illness thinks theres something there and if i let go it will indiscriminately affect all aspects of my life with the same merciless abandon it inflicts on me. if the problem is contained within me, the world is safe. if the problem is outside my grasp, the world has already ended, ive failed and my life unravels. my mind moves so quickly into hypothetical catastrophe i forget that its not reality sometimes. i want to be free
i don't know which OCD haver needs to hear this today, but if by some bizarre set of circumstances you, a non famous stranger, become the target of a massive smear campaign intended to cancel you at some point in the near or distant future, you will be okay.
and if it happens, it's in the future. no point worrying about it now. say "okay thank you" to the thoughts about it and go do something else now. once they've been acknowledged, there's no need to engage further
did you do something bad? you can move forward from it and be better and that's what's important. do you THINK you did something bad and can't remember? well. maybe you did, maybe you didn't. same rules apply: you can move forward from it and be better.
OCD wants you stuck, and if you don't have anything concrete from the past to get stuck in, it will invent a scenario for you to obsess over. but you don't have to be stuck. your life is yours ❤️
i don't know which OCD haver needs to hear this today, but if by some bizarre set of circumstances you, a non famous stranger, become the target of a massive smear campaign intended to cancel you at some point in the near or distant future, you will be okay.
and if it happens, it's in the future. no point worrying about it now. say "okay thank you" to the thoughts about it and go do something else now. once they've been acknowledged, there's no need to engage further
did you do something bad? you can move forward from it and be better and that's what's important. do you THINK you did something bad and can't remember? well. maybe you did, maybe you didn't. same rules apply: you can move forward from it and be better.
OCD wants you stuck, and if you don't have anything concrete from the past to get stuck in, it will invent a scenario for you to obsess over. but you don't have to be stuck. your life is yours ❤️
i don't know which OCD haver needs to hear this today, but if by some bizarre set of circumstances you, a non famous stranger, become the target of a massive smear campaign intended to cancel you at some point in the near or distant future, you will be okay.
and if it happens, it's in the future. no point worrying about it now. say "okay thank you" to the thoughts about it and go do something else now. once they've been acknowledged, there's no need to engage further
did you do something bad? you can move forward from it and be better and that's what's important. do you THINK you did something bad and can't remember? well. maybe you did, maybe you didn't. same rules apply: you can move forward from it and be better.
OCD wants you stuck, and if you don't have anything concrete from the past to get stuck in, it will invent a scenario for you to obsess over. but you don't have to be stuck. your life is yours ❤️
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i don't know which OCD haver needs to hear this today, but if by some bizarre set of circumstances you, a non famous stranger, become the target of a massive smear campaign intended to cancel you at some point in the near or distant future, you will be okay.
and if it happens, it's in the future. no point worrying about it now. say "okay thank you" to the thoughts about it and go do something else now. once they've been acknowledged, there's no need to engage further
did you do something bad? you can move forward from it and be better and that's what's important. do you THINK you did something bad and can't remember? well. maybe you did, maybe you didn't. same rules apply: you can move forward from it and be better.
OCD wants you stuck, and if you don't have anything concrete from the past to get stuck in, it will invent a scenario for you to obsess over. but you don't have to be stuck. your life is yours ❤️
i don't know which OCD haver needs to hear this today, but if by some bizarre set of circumstances you, a non famous stranger, become the target of a massive smear campaign intended to cancel you at some point in the near or distant future, you will be okay.
and if it happens, it's in the future. no point worrying about it now. say "okay thank you" to the thoughts about it and go do something else now. once they've been acknowledged, there's no need to engage further
did you do something bad? you can move forward from it and be better and that's what's important. do you THINK you did something bad and can't remember? well. maybe you did, maybe you didn't. same rules apply: you can move forward from it and be better.
OCD wants you stuck, and if you don't have anything concrete from the past to get stuck in, it will invent a scenario for you to obsess over. but you don't have to be stuck. your life is yours ❤️
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