somaticiz-e

I'm so tired. I just cant do anything anymore, my motivation and energy are gone.

I wonder if she thinks I’ll break up with her the next time we talk. I wonder if she’s worried I found someone new. I wonder if she thinks about how bad the heartbreak is going to be one day. But god I hope she doesn’t feel that way. Those feelings are terrible and I’d rather be the only one with them

people don’t really talk about the risk of loving someone. how if you fall in love and it doesn’t work out that you will never be the same person you once were. that a part of you dies with the relationship. that your heart will refuse to open up again. that the pain never really goes away, you just get used to it.

I am so tired of being alone all the time, having no friends hurts so much