SOL SHINE SOUL

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i release any sadness i hold. i release any grief. i allow it to shed naturally out of my body. i take things day by day and allow my soul to heal.

— SOLSHINESOUL

i met this dude while he was in town, we met up, slept together and then he ghosted me. i reached back out to him a few times to be nice and he still was inconsistent. on this last go round i reached out to him again and tried to re form the friendship but instead he removed me from everything we had connection on.

i saw him pulling away in the beginning but because i had so much interest in him i let him treat me like an object on shelf that he got to pick up and put down whenever he wanted.

i told myself i’d stop forcing things with people because i don’t chase i attract. but i could not resist what i wanted to do. i didn’t have the self control to leave him alone when i saw him uninterested. i knew when i met him nothing was there but because he gave me a lot of firsts ignored every sign.

i no longer want to give people the decency of getting access to me if they don’t fully deserve it. i no longer want to force attraction or be over obsessive. i no longer want to stay where i’m not welcome no matter the attraction level. men do not own my body, mind or soul. their value of me does not dictate my true value. i am whole with or without attachment to a man.

i am releasing myself from the heartbreak of a hard ending. i’m looking at this as a reset. i release myself from the unhealthy cycles i adapted as a means of survival and because i thought i wasn’t worthy of feeling love.

because i fell into another toxic cycle i am taking a hiatus from social media. i have logged out of snapchat, instagram, twitter and have deactivated my tinder.

looking forward to healing from this heartbreak and becoming a new person.