I'm sorry but one of the most important scenes in Dispatch is Invisigal's wet dream. I'm not even joking. I love that it was much less about Robert (whom we barely see in that scene anyway) and more about the state of Courtney's psyche at this point in the story, about her actively repressing her own desire for acceptance and belonging the minute she actually got it for the first time in... ever, probably? So you finish episode 3 thinking: aw, she got over that hurdle, she got her confidence back, yay, things are going to be so much easier from here, she's on a straight-fucking-forward path to success. Tick, done, I'm the best dispatcher/mentor ever.
And then, episode 4 blows up in your face with a big fat: no. We've established the woman has problems, we meant it. Yes, she's earned validation, but she's still in complete denial over the deeply transformative effect this is having on her, because it makes her vulnerable and she hates it. So she will turn to what she knows best: repressing the good it made her feel and self-sabotage to re-establish the familiar status quo of being a no good lowlife, where she feels miserable but safe.
But then all these good feels that are so seismic to her have to go somewhere, have to be expressed somehow, so: hello, sex dream! And now, miss ma'am Courtney is confused on top of everything else, twice as vulnerable, twice as likely to act out - and she does.
I mean it's hilarious because it's so fucking real.
And I was so excited to finally get to grapple with a girl loser character who's dripping with this unholy mixture of insecurity-turned-sexual-desire and absolute negative rizz. It's such a rare portrayal to get for female characters - especially the sexual aspect of it, which in Visi's case felt relatable and mature because it's complicated and coloured by all the other problems she's got going on. Robert is almost irrelevant in this - whether or not you pursue a romance with Visi, it's her internal event, and she has to deal with its deeper meaning one way or another. I just love it, and I want more of it.
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