Everytime an episode drops, I see people saying that [insert thing] should happen to Spoke so that he reflects and realises all the bad he has done. But!!!!!! He already knows!!!!!! He knows he is a bad person!!!!! He knows!!!!!!!
Minecraft Trapper VS 1000 Players literally starts with
"Dear players of the Unstable SMP, I challenge you to a duel. I understand that more than a thousand of you stand strong together, all armed and ready for war. Today I give you a chance for revenge, a chance to capture me for the atrocities I commited. But I want you to understand, that if you fail to kill me now, then I will go on and ban every last one of you. These are my coordinates, and I expect to see you very soon."
The same episode, is when Jumper approaches him. These are all from the episode.
"Jumper, before you work with me, let's notâ let's make this very clear. I don't care how many people Leo sends to try and kill me, because that's just more people I get to kill, like, let's not act like that's a bad thing at all for me." "You know I set that enderpearl, hoping that you would, you know, take me to a death trap, teleport me to Leo. [....] Why haven't you?" "You knew I was going to be like this." "Out of everybody on the server, why me? Of course I was going to be like this." "I'm just the evil guy, that traps and manipulates people [...], I don't see how I fit into this."
And there so many more examples. The latest episode is also a really good example! He still believes himself to be irredeemable, and I've said this before but it is way easier to lean into the monster people say he is, than to prove he's not. He has tried so much to prove he's good, and yet he failed everytime. He knows he is a bad person!! He is aware of everything!!!!! Enough people have told him to his face that he is beyond salvageable, for him to know that by heart.
He makes so many mistakes, he acts on regrets, he has a short fuse, and most importantly nobody has ever stuck around to actually help him change. He has been demonised since day 1, of course he turned out like this. People don't even acknowledge that he suffered, they only acknowledge the outcome of that suffering, which results in so many more bad decisions. He relapses and falls into bad habbits, because that's all he has ever known. And he knows this!
