I think the factor about the blog that was so disheartening is seeing everybody who had their own solidified opinions on who the characters are suddenly turning to exclusively appeasing what was canon. meewble had a post about this, posted on my behalf that was later decided to private as to not worry about the waves of harassment that could've been caused. learning later on that sebastian solace was not even himself, but a kpop idol, left me with some weird aches about it.

especially with the new reference sheet. I was right all things considered, dissapointedly.

I yearn for the fandom before all of the canon content became so easy to access, I yearn for the community built from fan creations and perceptions that people had so personal and dear to their heart before it all became one dimensional. especially as a writers blog, who mainly ever made his character into what I'd consider my own. who wanted people to take my ideas and run wild with them to create something they loved personally.

it's all began to settle in for us now. it gives such a strong feeling of vengeance to watch communities united together to create rewrites, to put passion and work lost before into their own ideal creations and rip them out of the hands of those who don't deserve them. it's heartbreaking to watch those who worked hard loose it all in a single moment, and it's a melancholy goodbye to those who will be leaving the fandom entirely.

so, spoken officially, where am I going?

truth is, I .. don't really know.

pressure is still my main interest, it's been the greatest experience to meet so many people I love and admire, to see all of your creations and creativity within the universes, to watch characters being created from your own minds and all of you who've just wanted to kiss that fish so bad.

i'd feel guilty to keep posting. but unlike others, I have nowhere else to go. I don't really have a fandom to fall back on, I don't have any plans of where else to turn. writing about him won't bring as many people in as before, it won't bring the inspiration i'd like to give out.

as posted previous, I'll be doing my own pressure rewrite. I don't in good faith want to have the material I adore so deeply associated with some people on that dev team. though, to begin with — I'll be going on break. I don't know how long for, nor if it will even buffer my usual atrocious upload schedule.

I implore all of you to spend time with family, to explore the outdoors. to start any new hobby no matter how difficult it seems. design new characters, ship them with your friends. try some new meals and make some new flavours of drinks.

if anybody had reccomendations of where I could go, I'll take any. if anybody would like to reach out, you're welcome. I love all of you. I hope you would all stick around for a while longer.

for now, that's all from me. as always, support ren.