The drive to the airport had been uneventful. Ingrid had been too caught up in her thoughts, rehearsing polite small talk and preparing herself for any subtle but cutting comments her parents might make about something. She had gone over everything in her head, their plans, the restaurants she had picked out, the polite ways to steer conversations away from anything too tense.
But as she pulled into the arrivals area and saw her parents and Anders standing by the curb, waving at her, her stomach plummeted.
Because that was the exact moment she noticed the child seat in the back of her car.
She froze, her grip tightening around the steering wheel as her pulse kicked up.
She had forgotten to mention Elisa.
She had told them about Mapi. She had spent weeks preparing herself for their reactions, for their skepticism, for whatever quiet judgment would come ā even if she knew theyād probably be okay with it. But she had never once thought to bring up the fact that Mapi was raising a child.
Ingridās mind spun, heart thudding against her ribs. Would they assume? No, no, that was stupid. Obviously, she hadnāt suddenly had a secret child. Right?
Before she could do anything about it ā throw the child seat into the trunk, drape a jacket over it, something ā her mother was already opening the passenger door, her father and Anders loading the luggage into the back.
āHei, kjƦre,ā her mother said, smiling warmly as she leaned in to kiss Ingridās cheek.
āHi, Mamma,ā Ingrid croaked, her voice coming out an octave too high.
She could feel it coming. The moment of realization. The question.
Her mother barely had time to adjust the air vent before she turned andā¦
āIngrid,ā she started, voice slower now, carefully measured. āWhy is there a child seat in your car?ā
Ingridās stomach clenched.
In the back, her father and Anders were settling into their seats. But at her motherās question, they both looked.
And there it was again. The pause.
āAre you babysitting?ā Her fatherās voice followed, puzzled but light.Ā
A sharp breath lodged in Ingridās throat. She could feel the panic crawling up her spine like a cold hand.
What was she supposed to say? She hadnāt prepared for this.
She had been so focused on everything else that she had completely overlooked the part where her parents would inevitably see signs of Elisaās existence and start asking questions.
They would inevitably see Elisa too.
āIā¦Ā Uh,ā Ingrid started, voice cracking slightly. She gripped the steering wheel harder, as if it could somehow save her.
āIngrid?ā Anders raised an eyebrow, chuckling. āYou look like youāre about to pass out.ā
Ingridās mouth opened, then closed. Then opened again. Nothing came out. And Anders, clearly enjoying her suffering, leaned forward between the seats, smirking.Ā
āWait. Ingrid⦠Do you⦠Do you have a kid?ā Their father tried.
āNo!ā She yelped, her voice embarrassingly high. āWhat? No! Oh my god, Pappa, no.ā
Her mother wasnāt smirking, though. She was still looking at the car seat. Thinking.
And Ingrid saw the moment her motherās brain caught up to what that could mean.
āIngrid,ā her mother said again, carefully now. āDoes Mapi have a child?ā
Ingrid made a sound. It was supposed to be words. It wasnāt.
Anders, still grinning, sat back.Ā
āOkay, now Iām actually curious.ā
āCan you just explain?ā Her father sighed.Ā
Ingrid could feel every inch of her body heating up. She was sweating.
She had to say something.
āMapi has a niece,ā Ingrid blurted out in a rush, barely stopping to breathe. āElisa. She lives with her. I, uh, I forgot to mention it.ā
She risked a glance at her parents.
āYou⦠Forgot?ā Her mother was blinking at her, completely caught off guard.
āI⦠Yeah?ā Ingridās voice cracked. āI mean, I didnāt forget forget. I justā¦ā
āYou never thought this was important to bring up?ā Ćrjan asked, voice tight.
āItās not a big deal!ā Ingrid said quickly, throwing a hand up before they could say anything else. āItās⦠Sheās not mine! Sheās Mapiās niece. Itās justā¦ā
āHow old is she?ā Her mother turned fully in her seat, eyebrows still raised.Ā
āAnd why does she live with Mapi?ā Her father was frowning now.Ā
And that? That was the question Ingrid had been dreading.
Because it wasnāt her story to tell ā like Alexia had told her a hundred and fifty times before she and Mapi started dating.
But her parents were staring at her, expecting an answer.
āItās⦠Complicated,ā she said finally, carefully. āBut Mapi takes care of her now,ā she scrambled.Ā
That was the best answer she had. She wasnāt about to sit them down in an airport parking lot and explain Mapiās family history, the tragedy of Elisaās parents, or how Mapi had taken Elisa in because there was no one else.
Her mother, thankfully, seemed to sense that pushing further wouldnāt get her anywhere. She sighed, turning back around in her seat.
āSo, does that mean Mapi isā¦?ā
āA parent?ā Anders supplied his father from the back seat, making Ingrid want to slam her forehead against the steering wheel.
āSheās a guardian,ā Ingrid corrected quickly. āNot⦠Not a parent, really. Sheās just⦠Taking care of her.ā
āThat sounds a lot like parenting,ā her father looked ā and sounded ā skeptical.Ā
āWell,ā her mother said. āI assume that means weāll be meeting her.ā
āYeah,ā Ingrid nodded, still feeling like her pulse was trying to escape her body. āPretty probably.ā
āDo we get to see you interact with a kid?ā Anders was grinning again. āBecause I honestly canāt imagine it.ā
āShut up, Anders,ā Ingrid groaned, throwing the car into drive.Ā
He only laughed as they pulled away from the terminal, but Ingrid barely heard him.
She was too busy trying to figure out how she was going to explain all of this to Mapi.
The car ride was suffocatingly silent for exactly forty-five seconds.
That was how long Ingrid lasted before she cracked the windows, pretending she just needed fresh air and not an escape from the weight of her parentsā judgment settling over her like a storm cloud.
Her mother still looked vaguely stunned, staring out the window like she was processing an entirely new reality. Her father had settled into a sort of cautious contemplation, while Andersā¦Ā
Anders was still looking far too pleased with himself.
āSo,ā he drawled, stretching out his legs under Ingridās seat. āIs she cute?ā
āWhat?!ā Ingrid nearly drove into a traffic cone.Ā
āElisa,ā Anders said, clearly enjoying himself. āIs she cute?ā
āSheās three, Anders,ā she gritted her teeth.
āI meant in a ācharming little kidā way, not a āhot girl at a barā way. Jesus. What is going to take you to remember that Iām just as gay as you are?ā
āYes, sheās cute,ā Ingrid sank lower in her seat. āSheās adorable. Sheās also smart, stubborn, and has a mean left foot, so be careful if she ever gets a ball near your shins.ā
āHuh. Like Mapi, then?ā He let out a low whistle.Ā
That startled Ingrid into a small laugh.Ā
āYeah. Exactly like Mapi.ā
āAnd Mapi is⦠Happy? Raising her?ā Her mother finally spoke, her voice quieter than usual.Ā
That was the thing about Mapi. She had never complained about taking Elisa in. She had never once hesitated to step up, to wake up at ungodly hours to make breakfast when Elisa got up earlier, to fall asleep in a little bed whenever the kid had nightmares and refused to go back to sleep alone and they didnāt feel like letting her climb into their bed. But Ingrid had seen it, the exhaustion, the grief that curled around Mapiās edges when she thought no one was looking. The fear she carried every time Elisa got too quiet, the panic that crept in when she worried she wasnāt enough.
But she was also the one who made Elisaās snacks. Who braided her hair before school. Who sat with her on the floor to play even when she was hurting from practice.
āShe loves her,ā Ingrid finally said, voice softer now. āSheād do anything for her.ā
Her mother hummed again, looking thoughtful.Ā
āThatās⦠A lot of responsibility.ā
āYeah,ā Ingrid admitted. āIt is.ā
The silence stretched again, but this time, it was different, not quite heavy, but not entirely comfortable either.
āSo,ā Anders said, grinning again. āDoes this mean youāre basically a stepmom now?ā
Their mother just rubbed her temples.
āGod help us all,ā Ingrid muttered.
When they arrived at Ingridās apartment complex, her parents were still eyeing the child seat like it was some kind of puzzle they couldnāt solve.
Ingrid quickly grabbed a couple of bags from the trunk, hoping to keep them too busy to dwell on it any further.
They took the elevator up, and Ingrid could have warned Mapi. Could have sent a text, given her a heads-up.
Maybe because a part of her hoped, irrationally, that her parents would suddenly forget about the whole thing the moment they stepped inside.
The moment Ingrid opened the door to her apartment, she barely had time to register anything beforeā¦
And just like that, Ingrid forgot about everything else.
Elisa threw herself into the Norwegian, clinging to her like she was afraid Ingrid might disappear again.
She barely had time to brace herself, but she caught the little girl easily, lifting her up slightly as Elisa buried her face in her shoulder.
She was so small. And warm. And clinging to the woman with everything she had.
Ingrid felt her heart clench.
āOh, hey, sĆøtnos,ā she murmured as she ran a hand through Elisaās light curls, pressing a quick kiss to the top of her head āI missed you too.ā
āYou gone forever,ā the kid huffed against her shoulder.Ā
āFour days isnāt forever. And I went to see you yesterday, but you were already sleeping.ā
āYes, it is,ā Elisa pulled back just enough to look up at her, her big hazel eyes accusing as she nodded seriously, like she had just won an argument.
And Ingrid, completely oblivious to anything else, smiled.
Someone cleared their throat.
Slowly, Ingrid turned her head.
Her mother and father were watching.
Anders looked like he was trying very hard not to laugh.
Ingrid felt Elisa tense in her arms.
The little girl turned her head, noticing the strangers for the first time.
And immediately, she froze.
Ingrid felt it happen. The way Elisaās body went stiff, the way her fingers gripped Ingridās jacket again.
Her eyes, so wide just a second ago, darkened with wariness.
She ducked her head, pressing her face back against Ingridās shoulder.
Ingrid had forgotten how she got around new people.
āElisa,ā Ingrid murmured gently, rubbing circles into her back. āItās okay, baby. These are my parents. And my brother.ā
Ingrid could practically feel her holding her breath.
āDo you want to say hi?ā Ingrid tried softly.
Anders, amused, crossed his arms.Ā
āWell, thatās fair.ā
Ingrid shot him a warning look.
Her mother, to her credit, softened immediately.
āThatās okay,ā she said gently. āYou donāt have to talk if you donāt want to.ā
Elisa stayed pressed against her shoulder, and the Norwegian could feel her tiny hands clutching at her jacket, like letting go would be too much.
And Ingrid, well, Ingrid understood.
So she just squeezed Elisa tighter, whispering softly.Ā
āItās okay, baby. Youāre okay.ā
And slowly, Elisa nodded.
But she still didnāt look up.
āWhere is Mapi, Eli?ā Ingrid whispered to the kid as she kicked off her shoes.Ā
The child kept her face hidden half on Ingridās neck, half on her jacket, so whatever she murmured wasnāt exactly understandable. But Ingrid was already making her way to the living room, and she heard water running down from somewhere past the hallway.Ā
āSo, are we meeting Mapi before or after the child decides weāre not serial killers?ā
Ingrid shot him a flat look.
āBefore,ā she muttered, shifting Elisa higher on her hip. āMake yourselves comfortable, Iāll be right back,ā she said to her family as she padded to the bedroom, catching Mapi just as the door of the ensuite bathroom opened.Ā
āHey!ā Mapi smiled, leaning in to peck at Ingridās lips, not even noticing how Elisa was tense on the womanās arms. āHow is it going?ā
āI forgot to tell my parents about Elisa.ā
āYeah,ā she winced. āThey found out when they saw the car seat.ā
Mapi stared. Then, slowly, her lips twitched.
āYouāre telling me,ā she said, voice way too amused, fingertips brushing against Ingridās hip. āThat you remembered to clean your apartment, make the guest bed, and even buy Norwegian groceries, but you forgot to mention Elisa?ā
āIt wasnāt on purpose,ā Ingrid groaned.
āYou must have panicked.ā
Ingrid gave her a flat look.Ā
āThanks for the support.ā
āI mean, I would have loved to see your momās face.ā
āOh, she was very confused.ā
āBet Anders was a menace.ā
Mapi laughed softly, then reached out, brushing a hand over Elisaās back. That was when, finally, the kid peeked up at her.Ā
And then she smiled, because she had both her favorite humans back together.Ā
āYou missed Ingi, didnāt you, bebĆ©?ā Mapi teased, poking the kidās side, earning a small chuckle.Ā
āSĆ,ā she murmured, hands gripping tightly the back of Ingridās neck.Ā
āI missed you too, kid,ā Ingrid kissed the girlās temple just before Elisa sighed, sinking deeper into the embrace.Ā
But as much as all of them wanted to stay there, in their little bubble, forever, both women knew they had to go to the living room, where Ingridās family was getting settled.
Ingrid could hear her parentsā voices now, though the tone was lighter than it had been when they first walked in. Anders was speaking, his usual teasing lilt evident, and Ingrid figured he must be the one easing the tension, as usual.
So they walked back there together, Mapi quietly trailing behind Ingrid and Elisa, trying to take a few deep breaths. As much as Ingrid had reassured her that her parents were nice, that Anders was an easy one, she was still nervous.Ā
When they stepped back into the living room, Ingrid felt Elisaās small hands tighten around her again. Her family was sitting on the couch, trying to act casual, but she could tell they were still processing.
Anders, of course, wasnāt even trying to hide his amusement. He had his arms stretched over the back of the couch, watching the three of them like he was taking mental notes for future blackmail material.
Her mother, however, looked⦠Different. As if she was really trying to decipher their dynamic.Ā
And her father? Well, he still had his serious face on.
Mapi, standing beside Ingrid, didnāt hesitate. She stepped forward and gave Ingridās parents a small, polite nod as she shook their hands.
āItās nice to meet you,ā her voice was steady, confident, but there was some casualty in it.Ā
Ingrid felt her chest warm.
āItās nice to meet you too, Mapi,ā Gudrun smiled slightly, and Ingrid could feel the tension in her body loosening.Ā
āLikewise,ā her father gave a small nod.
But their eyes kept drifting to Elisa.
Because of course, they did.
A second ago, she had run to Ingrid as her life depended on it. And now, she was hiding against her like she wanted to disappear.
Then, of course, Anders stepped up.
āHei,ā he grinned, offering Mapi a fist bump instead. āI hear youāve been stealing all my sisterās free time.ā
āThat depends. Do you want her back?ā Mapi didnāt even hesitate before bumping her fist against his.Ā
āNah, you can keep her,ā he laughed, deciding to go easy on the woman for a while.Ā
Ingrid felt Elisa's small body slowly relaxing in her arms.
Her mother and father still looked thoughtful, clearly absorbing the fact that their daughter had not only forgotten to tell them about Elisaās existence but was also so deeply involved in her life.
But before any of them could say something else, Anders was one step ahead.
āSo, are you going to tell us how you ended up as a part-time mom?ā
Mapi, standing beside her, chuckled, and Elisa, however, finally lifted her head.
She turned, just slightly, to look at Anders, her small brows furrowed.
āSheās not my mom,ā her voice was small but firm.
āNo?ā Anders blinked, quite surprised.Ā
Elisa shook her head, her grip on Ingridās shirt still tight.
āShe is Ingi. And Ma is Ma.ā
Silence settled over the room.Ā
Elisa seemed too sure of what she was saying, as if seven words explained everything.Ā
For Ingrid and Mapi, they sure did, but the looks from Ingridās family indicated that, maybe, just maybe, they needed more.Ā
But they werenāt going to get that now, so Ingrid settled on the armchair with Elisa still in her arms while Mapi sat on the armrest, content to just stay close.Ā
Anders, to his credit, didnāt push. He just tilted his head slightly, like he was considering her answer.
āFair enough,ā he admitted, but, of course, ruined it almost immediately. āSo,ā he said, grinning again. āWhen do I get to babysit?ā
āNever,ā Elisa mumbled, hazel eyes running all over his figure.Ā
Anders burst out laughing.
Like, full-bodied, head-thrown-back kind of laughing.
āI like her,ā he declared, pointing at Elisa like she was some kind of undisputed champion. āSheās got standards.ā
Elisa simply shrugged, completely unbothered.
And Ingrid, for the hundredth time since the entire nightmare had started, felt the overwhelming urge to just⦠Stay down. Maybe lay down. Maybe just cease to exist for a moment.
Instead, she sighed and rubbed her temples.Ā
āCan we not do this right now?ā
Mapi, who had been watching the whole scene with a look of pure amusement, leaned slightly closer to her girlfriend.Ā
āI donāt know, I think itās going well.ā
āOh, do you?ā Ingrid gave her a flat look.
Elisa watched Anders for another moment, as if making sure he truly understood, before she turned back into Ingridās embrace, seemingly content with how things had played out.
Ingrid let out a breath she hadnāt even realized she was holding.
But she didnāt think it was possible for her to suffocate in a room full of people she loved, and thatās exactly what happened.
āElisa, tell me,ā Anders decided to try again. āDo you always tackle Ingi like you did or was it a special occasion?āĀ
ā...Special occasion,ā she whispered, her tiny voice barely hearable.Ā
Her mother was still gazing at Elisa, though now with a more gentle expression, clearly warming up to the little girl. Her father was slowly but surely getting comfortable with the new dynamic, though the fact that he was keeping a careful eye on Mapi didn't go unnoticed. Anders, of course, was still thoroughly entertained by the whole situation.
But Ingrid? She was a mess. A nervous wreck.
She knew it had to be difficult for her parents to adjust to this new version of her life. It was a lot to take in all at once. And she hadnāt planned for any of this.
Her mother finally turned away from Elisa, glancing back at Mapi.Ā
āSo, how long have you two⦠Known each other?ā
Ingrid felt the blood drain from her face.
Her mother raised an eyebrow, as if sensing the tension in Ingridās stiff shoulders. She didnāt push immediately, but her curiosity was obvious.
āWeāve been together for about seven months now,ā Mapi said, her voice calm, matter-of-fact. āWeāve known each other longer, but weāve been together, together, for that long.ā
Ingrid couldnāt breathe.
Her mother blinked a few times.Ā
āSeven monthsā¦ā Gudun glanced at her husband, who simply nodded, as though filing the information away. āSo⦠I take it youāre serious about this.ā
āYes,ā Mapi said, her gaze never wavering from Ingridās motherās. āIām very serious about it.ā
Her mother studied her for a moment longer, then nodded.Ā
āGood. I just wanted to be sure.ā
āOf course,ā Mapi smiled, and Ingrid was silently thanking her for keeping such a tranquil posture in that situation.Ā
Just as they were trying to find something else to talk about, the Spaniardās phone rang on the coffee table, and Elisa knew exactly what that noise meant.Ā
So, quietly, she wiggled herself out of Ingridās embrace just as Mapi reached to turn the alarm off, the kid rubbing her fists against her eyes.Ā
āThis one has to get her vaccines now, so we should get going,ā Mapi stretched her hand to Elisa to grab, which she promptly did, gripping it tightly.Ā
āOh, right, I forgot about that,ā Ingrid muttered under her breath, eyes wide.Ā
āDonāt worry,ā the Spaniard whispered as she leaned to kiss Ingridās temple, her fingers being slightly crunched by Elisaās tiny ones.Ā
āYouāll be back for dinner, I assume?ā Ćerjan asked after a beat.Ā
āI think so, yeah. Might take her home for a quick shower or something, but we can come back, of course,ā she explained, and that was when Ingrid realized the kid was still wearing her school uniform, baby hairs coming out of her now messy ponytail.Ā
āThen weāll see you later, Mapi,ā Ingridās mother smiled, her sight back on the kid for a moment. āIt was really good meeting you, Elisa.ā
She only gave them a tiny, almost imperceptible wave back before pulling Mapi to the door, whispering-asking if they could get ice cream after it.Ā
As the door closed behind them, Ingrid let out a breath she hadnāt even realized she was holding. The room was silent for a few moments, just the distant sound of the elevator doors closing echoing back.
Anders, of course, was the first to break it.
āSo,ā he started, his voice dragging out the single syllable. Ingrid didnāt even have time to brace herself before he grinned. āYou hate kids,ā he said, voice dripping with mock bewilderment. āLike, passionately. I distinctly remember you threatening to never talk to her again when Malin ever so much as mentioned you babysitting Oscar.ā
āI donāt hate kids, Anders,ā Ingrid groaned.Ā
āThatās not what you used to say,ā her mother hummed.Ā
āYou called them āgerms with legs,āā her father added dryly.
āI was eighteen,ā Ingrid sighed.
āTwenty-two, actually. Which was just two years ago.ā
āAnd very vocal about it,ā Anders said, grinning as he leaned forward on his elbows.Ā
She groaned, already regretting everything.
āYou really changed, didn't you?ā Her mother tilted her head slightly. āI remember how much you used to complain when you had to babysit your cousins.ā
āItās different,ā Ingrid groaned again, rubbing her temple.Ā
āOh, I can see that,ā Anders laughed, stretching his arms out along the back of the couch. āYou look like a whole different person with her.ā
Gudun smiled, clearly intrigued.Ā
āShe seems very attached to you.ā
Ingrid chewed the inside of her cheek, still a bit flustered from the way everyone was looking at her like she was some strange new creature.Ā
Her father, silent for most of this conversation, simply tilted his head.Ā
Her stomach twisted slightly.
She hesitated for a moment, unsure how to explain it in a way that would make sense to them.Ā
āI⦠Yeah. I am too.ā
āSo you, the same sister who told me that kids are loud and sticky and take up too much space, is now walking around with a tiny human permanently attached to you like some kind of koala?ā Anders raised an eyebrow, eyes gleaming with something teasing but not unkind.Ā
āYou are such a liar, Ingrid. All this time, youāve been telling us you donāt like childrenā¦ā Gudrun chuckled, shaking her head in something that looked suspiciously like fondness.Ā
āBecause I donāt,ā she huffed.
āRight,ā Anders snorted. āAnd yet, I literally just saw that child hanging off of you like sheās never known another person in her life.ā
āOh, of course. Sheās āIngiās kid,āā Anders said, putting air quotes around the words.
āSheās not my kid.ā
āSheās not my mom,ā Anders mimicked Elisaās tiny voice in a ridiculously high pitch.
Ingrid grabbed a throw pillow and hurled it at him, but he just caught it with a laugh.
Their father sighed, rubbing his temples as if bracing himself for a long night of nonsense, but there was no real irritation in his expression.Ā
āAlright, letās give your sister some peace.ā
āFine. But I just want to say, I think itās kind of cute,ā Anders grinned but let it drop.Ā
That made Ingridās head snap up.
āYouāre, like, a terrifying robot most of the time, but that kid has you wrapped around her tiny little pinky finger,ā he said, shaking his head in wonder. āItās kind of hilarious.ā
āThatās notā¦ā Ingrid started, but then her mother joined in.
āIt is quite sweet,ā Gudun admitted. āShe obviously loves you very much.ā
āSheās three,ā Ingrid pointed out. āShe loves people who give her snacks.ā
āMaybe. But I think itās more than that.ā
That made Ingrid pause. She thought of how Elisa had clung to her in the hallway, how she had whispered āsheās Ingiā so certainly, as if those words alone explained everything.
Maybe they did. Maybe, to Elisa, Ingrid wasnāt just some person who gave her snacks and carried her when she got sleepy. Maybe to her, Ingrid wasnāt an obligation or just Mapiās girlfriend.
And that thought settled deep in her chest, warm and terrifying all at once.
Anders broke the silence.
āStill. Iām going to tell Malin about this. Just so you know. Just so she can kill you when you refuse to have Oscar for an hour.ā
āYouāre a child,ā Ingrid muttered.
āA loud, sticky one,ā he only grinned.
Their mother sighed, but she was smiling too, something in her shoulders finally easing.
And for the first time in what felt like weeks, Ingrid let herself smile too.
By the time Mapi and Elisa returned, the apartment smelled of warm food, the scent of freshly baked cookies mixing with something Ingrid couldnāt quite place. It was comforting, like home, and she knew her mother had taken over the kitchen while she was caught up in Andersā relentless teasing.
Elisa clung to Mapi as they stepped inside, her fingers curling around the hem of the women's hoodie, one that Ingrid was fairly sure it was hers just a few months before. The little girlās school uniform was gone, replaced by soft, comfortable clothes, her hair freshly combed, though a few strands were already falling out of place. Her stuffed penguin was also safely tucked under her arm.
Ingrid could tell the vaccines had drained some of Elisaās energy. Her usually curious eyes were drooping slightly, and she stuck close to Mapiās side as they moved toward the living room.
āEverything went okay?ā Ingrid asked, stepping closer.
āLike a champ,ā Mapi grinned, ruffling Elisaās hair gently. āDidnāt even cry.ā
āIt was okay,ā Elisa only blinked up at Ingrid, nodding solemnly.Ā
āYou were very brave, I assume,ā the Norwegianās lips twitched at the overly serious tone.Ā
The little girl nodded again, this time more assuredly.
āShe got a lollipop for later and a bite of ice cream,ā Mapi added, nudging Elisa playfully. āSo it wasnāt all bad.ā
Elisaās fingers curled tighter around the fabric of Mapiās hoodie, but she nodded once more.
āSheās been very polite all afternoon,ā she murmured as she pressed a quick kiss to Ingridās cheek, before letting Elisa guide her toward the dining area.
Dinner was already set up. Gudrun had clearly gone out of her way to make things welcoming, though Ingrid had no doubt it was also an excuse to busy herself and avoid too many awkward conversations. There were plates of warm bread, a stew of some kind, and even a few traditional Norwegian dishes that Ingrid hadnāt expected. She gave her mother a curious glance, but Gudrun only raised an eyebrow, as if daring her to comment.
Elisa hesitated near the table, looking between the adults. She had been quiet since they got back, which wasnāt unusual, but Ingrid could tell she was feeling a little overwhelmed.
Anders was the first to address her.
āHey, kid,ā he said, his voice gentle but still carrying that teasing lilt. āDid Mapi take you for ice cream after the doctor?ā
Elisaās small fingers curled tighter around Mapiās hoodie. She hesitated, but after a moment, she nodded.Ā
āGood deal. I think Iād only survive vaccines if I got ice cream after too,ā Anders grinned.Ā
Elisa glanced at him, considering, before she nodded again.Ā
Ingrid bit the inside of her cheek to keep from laughing.
āDo you like ice cream, Elisa?ā The older man cleared his throat.Ā
Again, she hesitated, clearly unsure of how much she was expected to say. But eventually, she nodded.Ā
Ćerjan blinked, clearly surprised by the formal response.Ā
āYou donāt have to call me āsir,ā sweetheart.ā
āBut⦠Polite,ā Elisa frowned slightly.Ā
Anders smothered a laugh into his sleeve, and Ingrid shot him a warning look.
āThat it is,ā he conceded, glancing at Ingrid as if to say what do I do with this tiny, extremely proper child? āBut you can just call me Ćerjan.ā
Elisa nodded seriously, but it was clear she wasnāt entirely convinced.
Just before they could say something else, dinner was apparently ready, so Mapi went with the kid to the restroom to wash their hands, the little stool helping Elisa grow taller so she could wash her own basically by herself.Ā
It wasnāt that Ingridās place was full of meant-for-kids things. It was just that⦠Sometimes Elisa liked to go to the Norwegianās. And Ingrid made sure she got everything she could possibly need there too.Ā
When they were back in the dining room, everyone was already seated. Elisa quietly climbed to her chair, the one with the booster seat, right next to Mapiās.Ā
And after her plate was ready and her food cut into smaller pieces, they all started eating too.Ā
Elisa stayed mostly quiet. Ingridās mother tried once or twice to engage her, asking things like, ādo you like school?ā or āwhatās your favorite food?ā, and she answered each question politely, her voice barely above a whisper, but she never elaborated.
It wasnāt rudeness. She was just shy.
And Ingrid could tell her parents werenāt sure how to handle it.
They werenāt used to quiet children.
They were used to Malin and Ingrid and Anders, who had been loud, stubborn, always ready with an opinion ā and to fight each other.
And her silence was making them carefully, painfully aware that they were still strangers to her.
At one point, Anders, clearly trying to lighten the mood, leaned forward and grinned.
āSo, Elisa,ā he said, his voice playful. āDo you think Ingrid is the coolest person ever, or just the second coolest, after me?ā
For the first time all night, Elisa lifted her gaze fully.
And then, without hesitation, reached for her little cup and drank all of her juice, not bothering to actually answer but keeping eye contact with him.
Mapi choked on her drink.
Ingrid nearly burst out laughing.
Her mother pressed a hand to her mouth, hiding a small smile.
And her father? Actually smirked.
Anders sighed, shaking his head.
āShe hates me,ā he muttered. āThis is devastating.ā
Mapi, still coughing from laughing too hard, waved him off.
āShe doesnāt hate you,ā she assured him.
āShe just loves me more,ā Ingrid added, unable to keep the amusement out of her voice.
āYeah, yeah. Enjoy this while it lasts,ā Anders shot her a look.Ā
Elisa, still gripping her cup, peeked out just slightly.
And in the softest, smallest voice, she whispered.Ā
ā⦠Ingi the coolest.ā
āOkay. Now she actually hates me,ā Anders groaned, dropping his napkin.
This time, Ingrid couldnāt help it, she actually laughed.
By the time dessert was served, the tension had eased somewhat. The scent of cinnamon and sugar filled the air, and Ingrid caught the way Elisaās eyes lit up, just barely, at the sight of Ćrjan bringing the tray filled with Norwegian cookies to the table, her tiny fingers twitching slightly in anticipation, though she waited patiently as plates were passed around.
āGalletas,ā the little girl murmured, almost to herself, as Mapi helped her sit up properly again.
āIngrid said you liked them,ā Gudrun said gently, setting a plate down for them. āI hope theyāre good.ā
Elisa looked up at her, clearly considering something. Then, after a beat, she nodded solemnly.Ā
Gudrun smiled, a little softer now, before handing her one.
It didnāt take long for Elisa to carefully pick up the cookie, holding it delicately between her small hands before taking a tiny, cautious bite. She chewed thoughtfully, her expression unreadable for a moment.
āGood,ā she said with the shiest smile ever before taking another small bite.Ā
āHigh praise coming from her,ā Mapi murmured, ruffling Elisaās hair.
Elisa leaned into the touch just slightly, her small fingers still carefully holding the cookie as if it were something precious.
āWould you like some more, sweetheart?ā Gudrun watched her for a moment before speaking again, her voice warm but measured.
The kid hesitated, her gaze flickering toward Mapi, almost as if she were asking Mapiās opinion too, but the Spaniard only smiled, tapping a gentle finger against Elisaās stuffed penguin.Ā
āYou can have as many as you want, peque.ā
That was all the encouragement Elisa needed. She nodded once more, this time with more certainty, and Gudrun placed another cookie on her plate.
Around the table, the conversation resumed, more relaxed now. They talked lightly, mostly about their lives back in Norway or about Ingridās and Mapiās ones in Spain.
And Elisa, content with her cookies, listened quietly.
It wasnāt until the plates were nearly empty that she shifted slightly in her seat, glancing up at Mapi again before turning to Ingrid.
āCan I color?ā She asked, her voice barely above a whisper. āWhile you talk?ā
Ingrid shared a glance with Mapi, who gave a slight nod.
āOf course,ā Ingrid said. āYou know where your things are.ā
Elisa didnāt need to be told twice. She carefully slid off her seat, her penguin still clutched in one arm, and padded toward the living room, reaching for her coloring book and her pack of crayons that she had left there once and they just settled on leaving it there for whenever she felt like drawing while they were at Ingridās place.Ā
She quietly got her things from a basket under the TV rack, settling everything on the coffee table. The penguin stayed on her lap while she flipped through the pages, trying to find one she felt like coloring before the room was filled with the sound of crayons scraping against paper.Ā
From the dining table, Mapiās gaze lingered on the little girl for a moment, watching as she hunched over her coloring book, completely absorbed in her task.
āSheās always this quiet?ā Ćrjan asked, his voice softer than before, as if careful not to disturb her.
āNo, not really,ā Mapi replied, stirring the last of her tea. āSheās pretty chatty, but new people arenāt her favorite.ā
āSheās just careful,ā Ingrid added, echoing Mapiās earlier words.
āI get it. I mean, meeting new people can be a lot. And weāre a lot,ā Anders smirked as he leaned back in his chair, stretching his arms with a sigh. āEspecially me.ā
āThatās the truest thing youāve ever said,ā the dark-haired Norwegian muttered, taking a sip of her drink.
Mapi chuckled, shaking her head.
Gudrun, however, remained quiet, watching Elisa with a contemplative expression.Ā
āSheās very sweet,ā she said after a moment. āVery polite.ā
āShe is,ā Mapi agreed, a small, proud smile tugging at her lips.
Gudrun hesitated before continuing, choosing her words carefully.Ā
āShe seems⦠Attached to you.ā
āShe is,ā Mapiās fingers curled slightly around her mug, but there was no hesitation in her voice.
The silence that followed wasnāt uncomfortable, but it was thick with unspoken things.
Then, Ćrjan cleared his throat.Ā
āHow long has she been with you?ā
Mapiās grip on her cup tightened again, and Ingrid could tell she was weighing how much to say. Eventually, the Spaniard exhaled slowly.
āAround two years and a half,ā she said, simply. āShe started living with me when she was one.ā
āSheās cool. I like her,ā Anders chuckled.Ā
āGood,ā Mapi said, very surely. āBecause sheās not going anywhere.ā
That seemed to reignite the tension in the room.
Because, of course, that was the real question hanging in the air, wasnāt it?
It wasnāt just about who Elisa was. It was about what this meant. About how serious things were between Ingrid and Mapi if this was the reality Ingrid was stepping into. Ingrid knew her parents were thinking about it.
And sure enough, her father cleared his throat, shifting his gaze from Elisa to Mapi.Ā
āThatās⦠A lot of responsibility for someone so young.ā
Mapi, however, didnāt even flinch.Ā
āAnd Youāre⦠What, twenty-eight?ā Her father frowned slightly.
āTwenty-seven, yeah,ā she nodded.
āThatāsā¦ā He exhaled slowly, glancing at Ingrid before looking back at Mapi. āA lot to take on at your age.ā
āMaybe. But it wasnāt really a choice. Elisaās my family. Thatās all there is to it.ā
Something about the calm certainty in her voice made Ingridās chest tighten while Gudrun nodded slowly, taking that in.Ā
Something flickered across Mapiās face, brief but unmistakable, and Ingrid, knowing where this was headed, instinctively reached under the table, her fingers brushing against Mapiās knee in silent reassurance.
Silence settled over the table like a heavy blanket. It wasnāt just the words themselves, it was the way Mapi said them. Direct. Final. Like she had spoken this truth so many times it no longer surprised her, but it still cut deep every time.
Ingrid felt Mapiās muscles tense beneath her touch. She didnāt look at her, didnāt need to. She just let her fingers rest against Mapiās knee, a quiet reassurance. Iām here.
Gudrun exhaled softly, nodding as if she understood more than she was willing to say. Ćrjan, on the other hand, shifted in his seat. He looked toward Elisa, still coloring in the living room, her small frame hunched over the coffee table. The soft sound of crayons dragging across paper was the only thing breaking the silence.
āThat must have been difficult. For both of you,ā Ćrjan spoke again, voice careful.Ā
āIt was,ā Mapi admitted, her voice quieter now. āStill is, sometimes.ā
A few beats of quiet. Then Anders, never one to sit too long in uncomfortable silences, cleared his throat.Ā
āWell, sheās lucky to have you.ā
āSheās not lucky,ā Mapi corrected, shaking her head slightly, though her tone wasnāt accusing or mad. āShe lost her mom before she was one year old. Her dad was abusive. Thereās nothing lucky about that.ā
Ingrid watched as her father pressed his lips together, as if holding back a response. Mapi was right, of course, but she also knew Anders had only meant well.
āShe is loved, though,ā Ingrid said, glancing toward the living room. Elisa had switched crayons, reaching for a bright yellow one, her small fingers smudged with color. āThat matters.ā
Mapi finally looked at Ingrid then. Just a flicker of warmth in her eyes, there and gone again in an instant.
Before anyone could speak again, soft footsteps padded toward them.
She was clutching her stuffed penguin against her chest with one arm, the other reaching up to rub at one of her sleepy eyes. But she didnāt head straight for Mapi like she usually did. Instead, she hesitated a few feet away from the table, gaze darting between the adults.
Her expression was small. Careful.
Ingridās chest tightened. She had felt it. The shift in the air, the way the conversation had changed.
āCan I have more?ā Elisa asked quietly, her voice barely above a whisper.
āOf course, Eli. Come here,ā Mapi was already pushing her chair back.Ā
But the kid didnāt move at first. Her small fingers fidgeted against the soft fabric of her penguin.
Then she glanced at Ingrid.
Ingrid felt the weight of that look in her bones. It wasnāt just a question of cookies. It was something deeper. Is everything okay?
āI asked my mom to make these just for you. They were my favorite when I was your age,ā Ingrid forced a smile, warm and reassuring.Ā
It was all the encouragement Elisa needed. She finally stepped forward, letting Mapi lift her onto her lap.
But even as Mapi passed her another cookie, even as Elisa took a small, careful bite, Ingrid could still feel the tension lingering.
And she knew Elisa could too.
She chewed her cookie slowly, her small fingers curled tightly around the edge of Mapiās sleeve. She wasnāt clinging exactly, but Ingrid knew her well enough to recognize the subtle way she was grounding herself.
She felt it. The way the room had changed. The way the voices had softened but carried something unspoken beneath them.
Mapi pressed a kiss to the top of Elisaās head, her fingers absentmindedly tracing small circles against her back. It was a quiet gesture, one that usually soothed the little girl without a word.
But tonight, it didnāt seem to be enough.
Elisa took another small bite, then shifted slightly in Mapiās lap, her gaze flickering toward Ingridās parents. She was studying them, cautious in a way Ingrid hadnāt seen before.
The question was directed at Mapi, barely louder than a whisper, but it made the entire table still.
Mapiās fingers paused against Elisaās back.
She didnāt answer right away. Instead, she exhaled slowly, carefully. When she finally spoke, her voice was steady.
āNo, bebĆ©.ā She smoothed a hand over Elisaās hair. āIām okay.ā
She didnāt seem fully convinced, though. She glanced at Ingrid again, then at Ćrjan and Gudrun, then at Anders, her grip on her penguin tightening just slightly as she looked back at Ingrid.
āNo,ā she answered, just as steady as Mapi. āSheās not lying.ā
Elisaās lips pressed together, as if she wasnāt quite sure she believed them. Then, slowly, she reached for another cookie, but she didnāt eat it.
Gudrun, who had been silent for a long moment, finally spoke. Her voice was gentle.Ā
āWe were just talking, little one. Thatās all.ā
Elisa studied her for a long beat before finally nodding. Then, just as quickly, she turned her attention back to her cookie, nibbling at the edge.
The table stayed quiet for a little while longer.
Then, Anders leaned forward, breaking the silence, arms crossed over his chest.Ā
āOkay, well, I think weāve all been way too serious for a family dinner. Who wants to hear about the time Ingrid fell into a frozen lake?ā
āIngi fell in a lake?ā Elisaās head snapped up, eyes widening.Ā
The energy in the room shifted, just slightly. Mapi chuckled, and Ingrid groaned, already regretting whatever childhood memory Anders was about to expose.
And just like that, the tension started to ease.
Elisa, however, stayed curled up against Mapiās chest, listening. And even as she giggled softly at the story, her fingers never let go of Mapiās sleeve.Ā
Anders kept no details to himself. He told everything, how Ingrid really thought the ice would be thick enough so she could play football on top of it, even if it was freezing, even if playing football on slippery ice was probably the worst idea twelve-year-old Ingrid had probably ever had.
āAlright, enough about my near-death experiences,ā Ingrid muttered, shaking her head as Anders cackled as he told her how funny it was to watch his middle sister freezing all the way back home.
āYouāre just mad because you know Iāll tease you about it,ā Mapi smirked, nudging her gently.Ā
Elisa, still nestled in Mapiās lap, looked between them, her small fingers resting on the cookie she had barely eaten. Then, as if deciding the tension had passed after the story was told, she straightened slightly.
Mapi glanced down, taking in the way Elisa had settled more comfortably against her, as if she wasnāt entirely ready to let go just yet. But she nodded.Ā
Elisa hesitated, her grip tightening around Mapiās sleeve before she carefully slid off her lap. But instead of making her way back to the coffee table, she walked to the small hallway that led the way to the kitchen.Ā
Quietly, she opened one of the low cabinets, picking a red small bowl before closing the door ā being extra careful to not get hurt her tiny fingers ā and walking back near the table. Then, without saying a word, she climbed back to Mapiās lap, reaching the plate filled with cookies and picking just three before quietly slipping back down to finally get a seat in the living room, back to her coloring.
She set the bowl next to her crayons, the penguin back on her lap. She flipped through the pages until she found the one she had been working on before selecting a brown crayon with the same careful thought.
āLetās move to the living room,ā Ingrid suggested, giving Mapi a small nudge. āMight as well get comfortable.ā
Mapi gave a nod, grabbing her tea as they stood.
Elisa had already settled herself on the floor, the cookies next to her coloring book, completely back to her own little world, tiny legs crossed under the coffee table.Ā
Every now and then, she would reach for one of the cookies in her bowl, nibbling on it absentmindedly before returning to her work.
As Anders took the armchair and Ingridās parents settled on the couch, Mapi sank into the corner of it, stretching her arms slightly over the cushions, and Ingrid took the spot beside her without hesitation. The closeness was instinctive, comfortable. She didnāt even realize how natural it had become until she caught the way her motherās eyes lingered on the space between them ā or the lack of it.
She held Gudrunās gaze for a brief moment, but before anything could be said, Ćrjan spoke up.
āIs this the coldest it gets here?ā
āIt depends,ā Ingrid huffed a quiet laugh, grateful for the change in topic. āBut yeah, compared to Norway, itās never really cold.ā
āElisa complained the one time it dropped below ten degrees,ā Mapi hummed in agreement.Ā
āThatās not cold,ā Anders scoffed, shaking his head.
Elisa, hearing her name, looked up briefly from her drawing.Ā
āIt was cold,ā she insisted before immediately returning to her colors.
āSheās dramatic when thereās climate involved,ā the Spaniard smiled, playfully nudging Elisaās hip with her foot.Ā
āI wonder where she gets that from,ā Ingrid teased, bumping Mapiās knee lightly with her own.
And just like that, the conversation flowed naturally again.
āWhat are you coloring?ā Ingrid asked softly, glancing at the page Elisa had been working on.
The little girl turned it toward her, showing a picture of a bear with a tiny bird perched on its back, both figures surrounded by soft green trees. She had colored most of it in already, but the sky remained blank, as if she hadnāt quite decided what color it should be yet.
āNice choice, peque.ā
Elisa nodded, then looked between the two of them, thoughtful.Ā
āDo you think the sky should be blue or pink?ā
Elisa blinked a few times, her hazel eyes flickering between both of them before deciding.
āBoth,ā Elisa answered. āSunset,ā she argued, reaching for a crayon from the pack on the table.
The living room settled into a quiet rhythm again, with Elisa coloring, Mapi leaning into the couch with a comfortable sigh, Ingrid leaning into her, and Ingridās parents watching everything unfold with an unreadable expression.
āHey, Elisa,ā Anders tried, but the kid didnāt even acknowledge him. āI heard you like fĆŗtbol?ā
That actually got a reaction.
Elisaās head tilted the slightest bit.
āI bet you could kick my ass at it,ā he grinned.Ā
Then, so softly Ingrid almost missed itā¦
āYeah? Okay, cool,ā Anders lit up. āIāll let you destroy me in a game later.ā
Elisa blinked. And then ā barely, barely ā a tiny smile appeared.
They all took that as a win, especially as Elisa moved to the other side of the coffee table just so she could rest her back against the couch, pulling the book to her lap and resting her head on the side of Ingridās leg.Ā
It was a small gesture. Maybe even unconscious.
But Ingrid saw the way her mother noticed it. The way her fatherās expression shifted just slightly as he took in the sight of the little girl fitting so seamlessly into their space.
If Ingrid ever really said she hated kids, Elisa had definitely changed that.Ā
Okay, so, id love to hear your thoughts about this bc i'm not sure if its too long or what ?????? the few next ones will be shorter tho lol
anyway, not sure when i'm gonna post another one, but i promise it will be soon <3