Softgirl

The first thing we’ll start training is your breathing. Slow, steady, even breaths. In, and out, pausing for a few moments between each just like you were sleeping. If you ever find yourself uncertain, just focus on this. Regardless of what’s happening, just keep the rise and fall of your chest to a minimum.

It’s a meditative state I’m teaching you. You focus on your breathing, which in turn leads to a calmer mind. The physical rhythm of drawing in each breath lets you drift away from everything that’s happening to your body.

“Play dead.” Eyes closed, body limp. You don’t need to move. You don’t need to think. I don’t want a response from you so you don’t need to worry about what sounds are the correct ones to make or how your performance as a participant will be measured.

“Play dead.” When my hand starts to trace up your leg when you should be asleep.

“Play dead.” When the alcohol in your system is too much and your spinning brain doesn’t know what to do.

Draw on me until my colors are your favorite. Terrify me until you know your worst won't lose me. Deafen me as you scream out everything inside you so you're done hiding.